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One to two - Pasi Tammi , 2004.

Finnish , b. 1971 -

Oil on canvas , 70 x 60.5 in.

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Pasi Tammi (Finnish, 1971), One to Two, 2004. Oil on canvas, 70 x 60.5 in.

a good dog doesn’t bark. he doesn’t whine. he sits and stays. even when the teeth dig into his flesh. he is silent.

i don’t know why i do it. maybe it’s because i think i deserve it. maybe it’s a punishment for the perpetual guilt ive felt since childhood. maybe i enjoy it too much to stop. maybe it’s because to be sick, i need the proof on my body. maybe to prove myself i need to be sicker. maybe i am not sick enough.

i sit alone in the yard. the chain is unhooked. i sigh with my chin against my paws. there’s no point in being here. there’s nowhere to go.

#dog metaphor

i miss the little girl i used to be. i miss the little boy i never got to be. i miss the man i wish i could have become. i miss the woman i will never be. i miss the brother i could have been. i miss the daughter i never quite was.

#text post #text poem #vent #transgender #trans ftm #female to male #trans male #transmasc

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Katsushika Hokusai (1760−1849), In the Hollow of the Wave off Kanagawa (Kanagawa oki name-ura). Color woodblock print: ōban yoko-e, 10⅛ x 15 in. (25.7 x 38.1 cm); circa 1830−31. Series: Thirty-six Views of Mount Fuji (Fugaku sanjūrokkei). Signed: Hokusai aratame Iitsu hitsu. Publisher: [Eijudō (Nishimuraya Yohachi)]. © 2018 Sebastian Izzard LLC.

the ache never truly goes away. but one day, when you’re sitting outside on a spring night, the stars twinkle down at you. and you decide to keep living anyway. and one day, you learn to live with it.

#hope #poetry #mdd #survival