In Order to Understand, I Destroy Myself.

Brennan. 27. He/Him.

[sickofit-all]

Hi

My therapist says I need to express myself in writing more so here I am. It's really cool to get back into this old account and take a trip down memory lane. i can almost smell the cigarette smoke and feel the weight of my high school experience all over again. The sensation is calming. Not really sure what I'll be posting, probably some writing and pictures? This blog will probably be pretty different compared to what it used to be. I understand if you go, but I'd love it if you'd join me on this journey of self reflection.

[sickofit-all]

So many of my least enjoyable emotions seem to be triggered by my inability to separate my self-worth from the perception of others.

It is surprisingly difficult to truly disconnect myself from the way I feel others perceive me. More absurd still is the fact that I am certain that I will never know what they actually think.

In the end, it seems, I am simply unintentionally creating my own fictional narrative and assigning those around me as characters. Put simply, I am fighting ghosts.

“We suffer more often in imagination than in reality.” - Seneca

[vexheart]

[shhhitsfine]

[javarisx-fightingthosedemons]

[enchantedbook]

Art by Glyn Smyth

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[inlovewiththenights]

[sickofit-all]

Fuck Mary kill

The clown from the terrifier movies

Pennywise aka IT

The joker form the animated Batman series

Hmmmmmmm, great question

- kill the terrifier movie clown since I’ve never seen those movies :(

- Fuck pennywise (guaranteed freak in the sheets)

- Mary Joker. I doubt I would ever be bored as the Jokers spouse.

Thanks for the ask 🙏

[nostalgicsadface]

[mads-schubert]

Part 17 in my weekly poster series of 2025

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flood in Somerset

[sickofit-all]

“Those who can make you believe absurdities, can make you commit atrocities”

- Voltaire | “Questions sur les miracles” | 1765

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Night in the Summer (1926)

— by Georg Janny

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[sickofit-all]

When was your first time coding ?

What was the language

My first time coding was as a sophomore in high school! I wanted to be a l33t h@x0r 😂

I remember, with my incredibly limited computer abilities at the time, just googling “how to hack” or something, and like the second bullet point in the first result was “become a competent programmer” - which I most certainly was not lol.

That same day, I got Python set up on my crappy Windows laptop, and hit the ground running! Safe to say I enjoyed it because I would now consider programming and honestly just CS in general to be one of my greatest passions!

Thanks for the ask! 🙏