2009-2015

for the sides

[bey]

Don’t invite me anywhere last minute I enjoy doing nothing so I need to know ahead of time if my plan to do nothing needs to be changed

[bana05]

This is legit and people don’t realize it.

[noahwyles]

“hey what are you doing?” “nothing”  “oh great! so you are avaliab-” “no you don’t understand. I’m doing nothing.” 

[sierxx]

growing up my aunt would promise us things like oh I’m gonna take you to disneyland or I’m gonna come out for dinner and she always cancels last minute and IT KILLS ME, especially since I’m a planner and I live according to a schedule, like I’m the type of person that loves / seeks out spoilers because I just need to prepare myself and want to know what to expect so like ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh like idk a two day notice would be nice you know??? I understand people have lives and things happen but like it better be a good excuse?? if it ain’t a good excuse, then tell me earlier???

like three times my ride (same person cause I know them) cancelled on me the day of like rly.  anyways I was gonna go home this weekend but I didn’t cause yeah and I wanted to go home cause I need to pick up my package and I probably won’t be able to see my parents til graduation and actually go “home” until september cause I have summer courses on weekends 

[sierxx]

very very poorly written rant about trivial first world problems.

lol I feel like my housemates and I always throw shade at each other on sc for being dirty

I’m such a clean freak when it comes to dishes & utensils. like I even have my own sponge and dish detergent because certain detergent intensifies the nasty food smell and makes me nauseous. there’s four sponges sitting around the sink, but for some reason they always use my sponge (I cut the corners so I know it’s mine) and use the detergent I hate with my sponge... and I bought a dish rack and I hate it when my housemates ain’t thorough with washing their dishes (like it’s still oily and has gunk on it and other residue) and they put it on the rack... and it makes the rack all nasty and makes my dishes dirty. I’m really clean & thorough when it comes to dishes; like to the point where my hands are used to the steaming hot water; I don’t even wear gloves. they just like rinse their stuff and it’s so nasty. yesterday my plate (on the rack) had some red watery stuff like -_- and the rack has some nasty yellow buildup and it ain’t coming from me cause when I’m back home, this is never a problem and

I don’t know ughhhhhhhhhhh

and the housemate I share the bathroom with, I don’t talk to her at all but she basically put her toilet paper on the holder thing so I’m left without a holder but it was whatever cause first come first serve but she literally just left like three squares of toilet paper on the roll and it’s been like this for three weeks now no lie like wtf? if u ain’t gonna use the holder correctly lol then don’t hog it. I’m so passive with people I live with cause you gotta live with them lol and recently I’ve been finding really weird particles in my food and missing black clothing.. slkfjda;slkjfdsk;l  whatever I’m just gonna switch it out. but what am I gonna do with the dishes, I swear this is how I’m still sick cause I don’t rinse my dishes before using it... cause I assume they are clean and thoroughly washed before making its way on the rack...but nooo other people’s nasty “rinsed” dishes are prob building bacteria and gets on my dishes and ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

[sierxx]

I’m just rambling,  sigh it makes me sad knowing that I could’ve had friends studying abroad, like not just “friends” to pass time, but legit can talk bout stuff friends. one study abroad a semester before me and the other is abroad right now. see, timing is everything. whatever, I still had an great time, but it could’ve been that much better.  the dude is in my house again I feel like I can’t even leave my room now because whenever I walk past the living room I feel like I’m interrupting something like I don’t know whether I should just walk pass them without looking or saying anything or whut. lol life is hard I just wanna make a cup noodle at 1am in the morning but he be just lounging there for like 6 hours.

I’m such an awkward person, I just feel so awkward all the time. hs has made me very receptive to tension even if people don’t wanna admit it’s there; I can see through a lot of stuff. there’s so much lowkey drama I ain’t even in a group but floating around on the outsides of both is so uncomfortable because I’m still partially involved but I’m not. idk I feel like people are just using people to make other people jealous like oh look I don’t really care for them but I just need a group of people to make it look like I’m having more fun than you, you know, to just fill the void. it’s idk, the whole atmosphere is just uncomfortable, people are so fake lol. I know I say lol and haha a lot but that’s because I’m such a hostile and angry person with rbf to begin with so if I don’t use lol and haha, I just sound even more unlikeable

this is all ending soon ;___;

also sorry not sorry that my writings a pain to read; it’s tumblr, not research paper lol

[awharrys]

I’M SCREAMING

[trufflebootybuttercream-deactiv]

Can I help you !!!!??? 😂😂😂😂

[c0ntemplations]

So it’s like this. You think there’s a timeline of how you’re supposed to do things. Meet someone after graduating, date for a few years and get married by the time you’re 28 just so you can have kids at 30. But real life doesn’t work like that. Sometimes you settle. Sometimes you meet Prince Charming at 40. Sometimes Prince Charming turns out to be the evil stepmother. And you? You’re not Cinderella. You’re the fairy godmother, because you make your own ball gowns and you see coaches where there are pumpkins because potential is everywhere.

note to self (via c0ntemplations)

[ellie]

me: shoot why is every1 together and i’m here without a boyfriend/gorlfrend

me: declines every date. takes 3-5 business days to respond to messages. never smiles. cannot parallel park

[hoodieonline]

Those clap backs

[theblacktroymcclure]

Shiiiit

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

The struggle of my life created empathy - I could relate to pain, being abandoned, having people not love me.

Oprah Winfrey (via onlinecounsellingcollege)

[aseaofquotes]

Stephen King, Bag of Bones

[onlytwitterpics]

[escapingintoabook]

As an introvert, the best thing is finding someone who it isn’t draining to spend time with

[mj-irl]

It’s interesting trying to explain to people who don’t experience social exhaustion that there are some people who are less draining than others and then their are those who are mind numbingly exhausting. All socializing is not equal

[kaylynnykim]

“short hair is less maintenance” they said  

[sizvideos]

[sierxx]

explain Geoffrey.

and giraffe

[pruningthisbranch-deactivated20]

[sierxx]

lol I bumped into one recently and she looked so scared to see me like her face literally screams “omg why is she talking to me” whatever gurl I was nothing but nice to you.

[chandra-nalaar]

me at 9 pm: im gonna fix my sleep schedule

me at 4 am: