Just another somebody..

My name is Will. Atlanta. Follow me, I follow back. #TVDForever

[3amquotes-45]

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

[kingkyliezzzle]

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— Khalil Gibran

[insanity4-deactivated20220607]

[perfectfeelings]

“I want someone to tell me that they won’t leave. That I’m worth more than being left behind.”

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[theteenquotes]

[depression-stays-but-you-dont]

[vampirediaries35]

[vodkatales]

How can we be allowed to feel so much for people who don't feel anything for us?

[silent-guy]

when you beg and plead for help but no one cares until your gone…

[silent-guy]

you know your totally worthless when you’ve given someone tens of thousands of dollars, given them everything they’ve ever asked for, and been there for them day and night but then have to beg and plead to spend time with them when your in a bad place and your grandma just passed and just want human decency

[reality-suckssssss]

Imagine actually loving life and being happy! How great that would be

[silent-guy]

I’ve been meaning to write this for awhile now but I’ve just been to depressed and down to really do much of anything. I feel like the last 2 years of my life is suddenly now without meaning. I met this girl on tinder 2 years ago and have totally taken care of her and anything she’s wanted or needed. I’ve given her over $32k on cashapp in the past 2 years, easily another $20k outside of that, bought her a $24k car, stayed up for 3 days to bail her out of jail, been hit 3-4 times and had over $5k of damage to my car in vandalism bc of her anger (and I never called the police on her), was lied to and manipulated on almost a daily/weekly basis, gave her medical insurance. and despite all of this I always stuck by her no matter what and promised her I would always be by her side to help her. I know she has bad genes and mental issues but I tried to get her to go to therapy or to a doctor but there was always some excuse. I’ve been alone most of my life and granted there have been more downs than ups with her I truly have had the best moments of my life with her and words cannot describe how depressing and upsetting it is to think I may never get to see her or spend time with her again for the rest of my life. I’ll never know why exactly she cut me off but I can only assume it was bc I wouldn’t support her in trying to do cocaine in front of me or bc I took her puppy temporarily bc she didn’t have the means to take care of herself or the puppy. She decided to use me one last time one weekend for over $1500 on her and her friends with the promise of spending the day with me that next week and totally ghosted me and when I showed up at her work after days of no reply she calls the police on me saying I’m someone she used to know and that I was staking her. I would do anything for her and it makes me so sad and depressed that after everything I don’t even have a friend or someone I can talk to or spend time with. I put up with so much manipulation, lies and abuse, and just being used for money. I don’t think I’ll ever recover from this, I have so much debt and issues now and I’m running out of band aids and when I do I feel like I’m just going to give up. I forgive her for all of the horrible things she’s said and done to me and I truly hope she finds a way to better herself and get help before she winds up dead one day bc of all the reckless things she does. I’m truly heartbroken that you left from my life when you knew that was what I feared the most and promised me a thousand times you would never do. I know I’m not perfect either but I always tried to do the best I could in an impossible situation with how I was treated. I’m just so depressed, alone and heartbroken. Suicide is on my mind almost daily now. I’ve only ever been good for money and that hurts so much. I tried to be the friend to her that I always wanted myself despite how I was treated. I’m just struggling so much, I hope I can find my way through all of this and we will see each other again one day, I love you and I always will

[msc097]

I’m so tired of being alive, it’s purely so exhausting

[perfectfeelings]

“I want someone to tell me that they won’t leave. That I’m worth more than being left behind.”

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[sa-dnesss]

“I have been thinking about suicide a lot lately.”

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