Freedom is a lonely road

I am filled with a kind of unapologetic anger and emptiness all at the same god damn time.

[whendidmythoughtsgocrazy]

If I had more time, I'd find another way to love you. But I can't find another way. And I don't know what hurts more. Seeing you happy or knowing we can never be.

k.b. // manifest, saanvi - netflix

[roua-poemului]

“I knew no end to desiring you.”

— Roland Barthes, A Lover’s Discourse; Fragments [translated by Richard Howard]

[belmasworld]

[thirdity]

“I cannot exist by myself. I exist only in relationship to people, things and ideas, and in studying my relationship to outward things and people, as well as to inward things, I begin to understand myself. Every other form of understanding is merely an abstraction and I cannot study myself in abstraction; I am not an abstract entity; therefore I have to study myself in actuality – as I am, not as I wish to be.”

— Jiddu Krishnamurti, Freedom from the Known

[silentfactoriesofhate]

Seeing you made me sad, so I tried not to.

I shut it off.

[boringangel]

Korina Wray

[thoughtkick]

“So often we try to make other people feel better by minimizing their pain, by telling them that it will get better (which it will) or that there are worse things in the world (which there are). But that’s not what I actually needed. What I actually needed was for someone to tell me that it hurt because it mattered. I have found this very useful to think about over the years, and I find that it is a lot easier and more bearable to be sad when you aren’t constantly berating yourself for being sad.”

— John Green

[fairydrowning]

"I wanted to be physically erased and start over again. I didn't want to be here. I didn't want to be there. I guess I wanted to be nowhere, I wanted to listen to my brain talk inside of nothingness. I wanted to be untouchable and have no need."

– Close to the Knives: A Memoir of Disintegration, Book by "David Wojnarowicz"

[thoughtkick]

“Dying is overrated. Human sentimentality has twisted it into the ultimate act of love. Biggest load of bullshit in the world. Dying for someone isn’t the hard thing. The man that dies escapes. Plain and simple. Game over. End of pain…Try living for someone. Through it all-good, bad, thick, thin, joy, suffering. That’s the hard thing.”

— Karen Marie Moning, Shadowfever

[thoughtkick]

“Depression is flat, hollow, and unendurable. It is also tiresome. People cannot abide being around you when you are depressed. They might think that they ought to, and they might even try, but you know and they know that you are tedious beyond belief. You are irritable and paranoid and humorless and lifeless and critical and demanding and no reassurance is ever enough.”

— Kay Redfield Jamison

[nixscriptum]

[thoughtkick]

“Depression is flat, hollow, and unendurable. It is also tiresome. People cannot abide being around you when you are depressed. They might think that they ought to, and they might even try, but you know and they know that you are tedious beyond belief. You are irritable and paranoid and humorless and lifeless and critical and demanding and no reassurance is ever enough.”

— Kay Redfield Jamison

[thoughtkick]

“Dying is overrated. Human sentimentality has twisted it into the ultimate act of love. Biggest load of bullshit in the world. Dying for someone isn’t the hard thing. The man that dies escapes. Plain and simple. Game over. End of pain…Try living for someone. Through it all-good, bad, thick, thin, joy, suffering. That’s the hard thing.”

— Karen Marie Moning, Shadowfever

[whendidmythoughtsgocrazy]

If I had more time, I'd find another way to love you. But I can't find another way. And I don't know what hurts more. Seeing you happy or knowing we can never be.

k.b. // manifest, saanvi - netflix

[whendidmythoughtsgocrazy]

It is an unwritten rule of life that after every prolonged period of hardship and uncertainty, there comes a period where you achieve quantum leaps across multiple areas of your life. The only requirement is that you do not give up on yourself.

k.b. // by candas barnes

[thequotespot]

"Maybe you don't need a completely different life. Maybe you just need to be gentler with yourself inside this one."

[thoughtkick]

“You cannot control what happens to you, but you can control your attitude towards what happens to you. And in that, you will be mastering change rather than allowing it to master you.”

— Brian Tracy