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Sun and Star in their little winter outfits catching snowflakes :)
you were meant to do great things, just without me cheering you on like i used to. i never stopped, i just don’t think you’d ever hear it.
i don’t know why you left, i won’t ask. i don’t think i deserve to.
i just wanted to say i miss you.
maybe the random day you come across my words, i’ll be in a better place.
maybe. if i choose to live long enough to stick around and see.
sorry i’ve been absent,
i just can’t quite get a grip on reality right now.
i feel like i’ve been
slipping
falling
descending
spiraling into a comfortable madness.
its hard to explain,
old habits i thought ive out grown
new habits i never thought i’d know
every day my heart feels more entangled
veins and nerves
pulling and stretching
its beating, although with a strain,
its still beating.
sorry for not talking, messaging, communicating;
its hard to when i have a knot in my throat,
where a steady breathe is difficult to maintain.
ive been angry, seething with a hostile discomfort
i can’t contain.
i’m sorry i haven’t been me,
i’m sorry.
please
please
please
please forgive me
i’m sorry i can’t be fine all the time
but every time there’s quiet, the tapes rewind.
i spiral through my memories
remembering the time i could breathe
now i sit in my room all alone
hoping for somebody to take me home
oh i wish i was gone
but your smile is what i hold on to
and if you walk away
i’ll slowly go back to grey
waiting for the day to rot and decay
no i don’t wanna leave you
that will make me insane
but this pressure is taking my breathe away
turns out i can’t have a good day
this is a poem from when i was 15-16.
please dont judge my fetus brain
hai everyone; i made a playlist of music i like to listen to when im in a writing mood.
ill be adding more songs when i can!
ive hated my reflection
since the earliest i remember
but yours seems like perfection
i hate myself
but i wish i was a prodigy
fuck this
nothing shakes the feeling
ill float up the ceiling
and never touch the ground
again
lost in the shades of grey
i find solace in the rain
so i keep hiding my tears
in the nimbostratus clouds
Each droplet holds a secret
a great deal of pain
looking for answers,
looking for clues
to figure out why i feel so blue
each day, my mind is shrouded with fog and different shades
give me a reason why i should stay
“im begging for you to change”
i keep saying that to my brain
constantly wishing i was okay
if i fell in love with my sadness,
would it leave me too?
like my childhood innocence
gone so soon.
i keep hiding myself away
my heart wishes it can mend yours
its knows the pain all too well, it wishes it can be of help
bring you peace when your brain is at war
but frankly, all it can do is keep you company with every beat
we got our issues, but we got love too.
stuck in the middle
stuck in the rain
i’m feeling so hopeless again
i’m sick and tired of playing pretend
life is full of fucking pain.
water rot: doing absolutely nothing in the bath/shower for an undisclosed amount of time.
So i’ll scribble my thoughts
in the margins of night.
Each word a reflection,
a piece of my soul.
Unearthing fragments
that yearn to be whole.
As silence chokes me,
I pour out my heart,
I cry,
I weep,
remembering moments
that caused me pain.
keep looking for comfort,
searching to be repaired.
i should learn to stop crying in the rain
emotions are scary. especially the ones we were taught to steer away from and fear.
guilt is natural when you’ve done something wrong, we’ve just been wired to think everything we do is wrong.
i had someone question my depression saying “you seem pretty okay for someone that’s depressed”
thanks, ive been masking for 15 years now.