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From the passenger seat of the royal sedan, the streets blurred into ribbons of gold and white, reflected against rain-dark asphalt as traffic crawled through the evening. Office buildings gradually emptied while cafés filled with students and professionals alike, conversations spilling onto sidewalks warmed by the last traces of summer.
Megumi watched all of it pass through the window in silence.
Normally, he liked these drives.
The ride between the academy and the palace was one of the few moments during the day where no one expected anything from him. No professors asking for presentations. No reporters waiting outside the gates. No cameras catching every expression he failed to hide.
Just twenty minutes of quiet.
Today, however, quiet wasn't enough.
He rested his temple against the cool glass.
His reflection stared back at him.
Uniform perfectly pressed.
Tie still neatly knotted.
Dark hair only slightly disheveled from the walk to Yuji's apartment.
He looked exactly the same as he had that morning.
It irritated him that he didn't feel the same.
"...Long day?"
Megumi blinked.
Satoru's voice broke through the comfortable silence that usually accompanied the drive home.
The King Consort sat behind the steering wheel, one hand resting lazily at the top as the car idled at a red light. Even dressed in simple slacks and a cream-colored sweater instead of ceremonial attire, there was something unmistakably regal about him.
Not because of the title.
Because of the ease with which he carried it.
Megumi straightened slightly.
"It was fine."
Satoru hummed.
"Mm."
The traffic light changed.
The sedan rolled forward again.
"You know," Satoru continued casually, "every time you say something was 'fine,' it usually means it was one of two things."
Megumi already knew where this was going.
"It wasn't."
"I haven't told you the options yet."
"I know your options."
Satoru grinned.
"And?"
"You'll say it was either terrible..."
A beat.
"...or something happened that I don't want to talk about."
"..."
"...See?" Satoru said triumphantly.
"You did know."
Megumi sighed quietly, turning his attention back toward the window.
Outside, students crossed the street carrying grocery bags and takeaway coffee. Two children chased each other through a small park while their parents watched from a nearby bench.
Ordinary.
Uncomplicated.
For a moment, he wondered what it must feel like to go home without security schedules, state dinners or tomorrow's itinerary already planned weeks in advance.
The thought disappeared almost as quickly as it came.
"You don't have to tell me."
Satoru's voice had softened.
"I'm just checking."
"I know."
Another comfortable silence settled between them.
Satoru had always been like this.
People who only knew him through official broadcasts often assumed the King Consort never took anything seriously. He laughed too loudly during interviews, teased foreign dignitaries just enough to make them smile, and had a habit of sneaking desserts before formal dinners despite Suguru reminding him—every single time—that they were meant for after the main course.
At home...
He was still all of those things.
But beneath the playful exterior was someone who noticed far more than he let on.
Megumi had learned that years ago.
He also knew Satoru wouldn't press the issue.
Not unless Megumi invited him to.
The car slowed before a pair of enormous wrought-iron gates.
Royal guards saluted as the vehicle approached.
The gates opened immediately.
Beyond them stretched the palace grounds, illuminated by rows of warm garden lights that lined the winding drive. The building itself rose proudly against the evening sky, its modern glass wings seamlessly joined to the older stone architecture that had housed generations of the royal family.
Home.
As the sedan pulled beneath the covered entrance, Megumi became aware of something he hadn't noticed until now.
The palace's air filtration system.
The moment the doors slid open, the familiar neutral scent of filtered air greeted him.
Clean.
Cool.
Consistent.
His shoulders relaxed almost imperceptibly.
The lingering edge of restless instinct, dulled by the drive, settled deeper into the back of his mind.
Not gone.
Just quieter.
A footman opened the passenger door.
"Your Highness."
Megumi offered a polite nod.
"Thank you."
Before he could step away, Satoru leaned across the center console.
"Hey."
Megumi looked back.
"If whatever happened today starts feeling heavier than 'fine'..."
His smile was smaller now.
"...you know where to find us."
For just a moment, Megumi considered saying something.
The words reached the back of his throat before dissolving.
The dining room was already occupied when Megumi arrived.
Warm light spilled from the pendant fixtures overhead, reflecting off polished oak and the floor-to-ceiling windows overlooking the palace gardens. Unlike the grand banquet hall reserved for state dinners and official receptions, the family dining room was intentionally smaller. Comfortable. Lived in.
It had been Satoru's idea years ago.
He had argued—rather passionately—that if they were going to raise children in a palace, they should at least have one room that felt like a home instead of a museum.
Suguru had called it impractical.
Three weeks later, he'd approved the renovation plans himself.
"You're late."
Nanako barely looked up from her phone before speaking.
"We were starting to think Dad got distracted and forgot to bring you home."
Megumi pulled out his chair.
"...I'm five minutes late."
"Six."
"I checked."
Mimiko turned another page of her book.
"She set a timer."
"I did."
"That's weird."
"It's commitment."
Before Megumi could answer, footsteps echoed through the hallway.
Satoru appeared carrying a basket of warm bread in one hand, his car keys dangling loosely from the other. A half-finished iced coffee rested in the crook of his arm, looking suspiciously out of place beside the elegant dinner service.
"I made it!"
Nanako raised an eyebrow.
"Barely."
"I was escorting the Crown Prince home."
"You picked him up from a classmate's place."
"It was an official royal escort."
"It was traffic."
"It was heroic traffic."
Mimiko finally looked up.
"...You got lost again, didn't you?"
"I explored alternative routes."
"There are three."
"I appreciated all three."
Suguru looked over the top of the document he'd been skimming while waiting for everyone to gather.
"You also stopped for coffee."
Satoru froze.
Slowly, he looked down at the cup still tucked under his arm.
"...Maybe."
"You've been holding it since you walked in."
"I thought it completed the outfit."
"It does not."
"I disagree."
Nanako laughed into her glass.
"You are unbelievably easy to read."
"I choose to believe that's part of my charm."
"It absolutely is," Tsumiki said with a smile.
Satoru placed the bread in the middle of the table and dramatically took a bow.
"See? Somebody appreciates me."
"We all appreciate you," Suguru replied.
"That doesn't mean we're going to pretend your coffee wasn't a detour."
"It was a strategic morale stop."
"It was a café."
"It was a strategic café."
Suguru sighed, though the faint smile tugging at the corner of his lips betrayed him.
"I'll allow that explanation."
"You always do."
"I've learned it's easier than arguing."
Satoru beamed triumphantly before taking his seat beside Suguru.
Megumi watched the exchange quietly.
It was ordinary.
Predictable.
The kind of conversation that repeated itself in different forms almost every evening.
And somehow...
He found himself grateful for it.
The familiar rhythm of his family's voices grounded him in a way nothing else had managed since leaving the academy.
For a little while, the thoughts that had followed him home finally fell silent.
Conversation drifted effortlessly from one topic to the next, never lingering long enough for silence to settle over the table.
Tsumiki spoke first, mentioning the final preparations for the charity gala she had been organizing for months. She had spent the afternoon meeting with designers and local organizations, making last-minute adjustments to the guest list after a foreign ambassador unexpectedly confirmed his attendance.
"It'll be a little busier than we expected," she admitted, smoothing the napkin over her lap. "Security wants to reroute the entrance because of the additional press."
"They always do," Satoru replied, tearing off a piece of bread. "The press gets excited if someone breathes differently."
Nanako snorted.
"You literally trended for sneezing last month."
"I had allergies."
"You had royal allergies."
"They were very prestigious."
"They were pollen."
"They were prestigious pollen."
Suguru calmly buttered another slice of bread.
"I distinctly remember you insisting the palace gardener had declared war."
"He knew what he did."
"The gardener?"
"The trees."
Tsumiki laughed into her glass.
Megumi listened quietly, letting the familiar rhythm of their voices wash over him.
It wasn't unusual for him to remain mostly silent during dinner. His family had long since accepted that he preferred listening over speaking, and none of them ever pressured him to contribute unless he wanted to.
Normally, that was enough.
Tonight, however, he wasn't listening nearly as well as he thought he was.
"...Megumi?"
He looked up.
Nanako was watching him curiously.
"Hm?"
"I asked if your project group decided on a topic."
He blinked once.
Apparently, she'd asked twice.
"...We did."
"What is it?"
"'Social Dynamics and Hierarchical Structures in Historical Packs.'"
"Ooh."
Nanako rested her chin on her hand.
"That actually sounds interesting."
"It sounds like homework," Mimiko corrected.
"It can be both."
Satoru looked toward Megumi.
"Who's in your group?"
Megumi reached for his water before answering.
"Itadori. Inumaki. Miwa."
"The first-years?" Tsumiki asked.
"Mhm."
"How are they?"
"They're..."
He paused.
Not because the question was difficult.
Because, unexpectedly, he wasn't sure how to answer.
Friendly.
Capable.
Easy to work with.
Normal.
His mind landed, uninvited, on Yuji laughing as he searched through the kitchen cupboards for enough matching glasses.
On Miwa reorganizing the shared document before anyone had the chance.
On Toge quietly finding sources while the others talked.
"...They're responsible."
The answer earned an amused smile from Suguru.
"High praise."
Megumi realized how it must have sounded.
"They take the assignment seriously."
"Even better."
Satoru leaned back in his chair.
"I was worried you'd get stuck with the type who disappear until the night before the deadline."
The palace had grown quieter by the time Megumi found himself standing outside Suguru's office.
Most of the family had already retreated for the night.
The lively voices that had filled the dining room were replaced by the soft hum of the palace's ventilation system and the occasional footsteps of staff finishing their evening duties.
Normally, this was the part of the day Megumi preferred.
The palace after hours felt different.
Less like a symbol.
Less like the place everyone outside the walls imagined.
It became what it truly was.
Home.
Yet tonight, the silence felt less comforting.
Megumi stared at the closed office door for a moment longer than necessary.
He could leave.
That would be easier.
He could return to his room, finish his assignments, prepare for tomorrow, and let the entire day settle into something distant and insignificant.
That was what he normally did.
He handled things himself.
He always had.
But his hand still lifted.
Three quiet knocks echoed through the hallway.
There was a brief pause.
Then—
"Come in."
Suguru's voice.
Calm.
Steady.
Exactly what Megumi had expected.
He opened the door.
Suguru was seated near the window rather than behind his desk, a tablet resting beside him and a cup of tea untouched on the table.
The moment he saw Megumi, he set everything aside.
Not rushed.
Not alarmed.
Just attentive.
"Something happened."
It wasn't a question.
Megumi stepped inside and closed the door behind him.
"...How did you know?"
Suguru gave a small, almost amused smile.
"Because you rarely come here without a reason."
That was true.
Megumi didn't visit Suguru's office often.
Not because he didn't want to.
Because he knew this room was where Suguru handled the weight of the entire kingdom. The place where decisions affecting thousands of people were made.
Interrupting that had always felt wrong.
Which meant that when Megumi did come here...
It mattered.
Suguru gestured toward the chair opposite him.
"Sit."
Megumi did.
For several seconds, neither of them spoke.
Suguru didn't rush him.
That was one of the things Megumi respected most about him.
Satoru filled silence because he hated seeing people uncomfortable.
Suguru allowed silence because he understood that sometimes people needed time to find the right words.
Finally, Megumi spoke.
"Dad... Something happened today."
Suguru waited.
"During the project meeting."
Another pause.
"I reacted to something."
The wording was careful.
Very Megumi.
Suguru noticed.
"An instinct?"
Megumi's eyes lifted slightly.
"...Yes."
The room became quiet again.
Not awkward.
Just serious.
Suguru leaned back slightly.
"Tell me what happened."
Megumi looked down at his hands.
For someone who had spent most of his life being trained to speak carefully, to choose every word with intention, he found himself struggling more than he expected.
Not because the situation was impossible to explain.
Because explaining it made it feel more real.
"It was during the project meeting," he repeated.
Suguru nodded once.
"At Itadori's apartment?"
Megumi looked up.
"You know?"
"You mentioned the location at dinner."
Right.
Of course.
Suguru remembered details. He always did.
Megumi looked away again.
"He wasn't using a scent blocker."
There was no judgment in Suguru's expression.
No surprise.
Only patience.
"And you noticed."
"...Yes."
"Did it affect your ability to think clearly?"
Megumi hesitated.
"No."
A pause.
"...Not exactly."
Suguru studied him carefully.
"Then what bothered you?"
That question caught Megumi off guard.
Because he had spent the entire evening thinking about what happened.
About the instinct.
About the unexpected reaction.
About the fact that, for a brief moment, something inside him had felt louder than his own thoughts.
But he hadn't stopped to ask what actually bothered him.
"...That I noticed at all."
Suguru remained silent.
Megumi continued.
"I know how to control myself."
His voice became firmer.
"I've been taught that since I presented."
"And you do control yourself."
"I hesitated."
"That is not the same thing."
Megumi frowned slightly.
"It felt like it was."
Suguru leaned back in his chair.
"When I was younger, I thought the same thing."
Megumi looked at him.
The answer had been unexpected.
Suguru rarely spoke about his younger years in detail. Not because he hid them, but because he had always been someone who focused on the present rather than dwelling on the past.
"You did?"
A faint smile touched Suguru's face.
"Yes."
The room became quieter.
"Actually, something very similar happened with Satoru."
Megumi blinked.
"...Papa?"
Suguru nodded.
"Not long after he presented."
For a moment, Megumi tried to imagine it.
Satoru.
The person who seemed completely impossible to embarrass.
The person who walked into diplomatic meetings with a smile and somehow convinced everyone to relax.
The person who could turn almost any serious situation into a joke.
The idea of him struggling with anything related to instincts felt almost strange.
"You?"
Suguru gave a small laugh.
"Yes. Me."
Megumi stared.
"What happened?"
Suguru looked toward the window.
The gardens outside were dark now, illuminated only by small lights along the pathways.
"It was nothing dramatic."
His voice softened slightly.
"Satoru had forgotten his blocker before a study session. Neither of us realized immediately."
Megumi listened carefully.
"I remember being frustrated with myself."
"Why?"
"Because I thought control meant never being affected."
Suguru folded his hands together.
"I believed that if I was truly disciplined, instincts would never interfere."
A small pause.
"That was unrealistic."
Megumi considered those words.
Suguru had always seemed like someone who had mastered everything.
Politics.
Responsibility.
Leadership.
Even his own emotions.
Hearing that he had once struggled made something in Megumi loosen slightly.
"What did you do?"
"The same thing you did."
Megumi looked at him.
"I focused."
Suguru smiled faintly.
"I reminded myself that instincts are information, not instructions."
The words settled between them.
"Being an Alpha does not mean surrendering control."
Suguru's gaze remained calm.
"It means understanding yourself enough to make your own choices."
Megumi looked down.
"I know that."
"I know you do."
"Then why does it feel like I don't?"
For the first time that evening, his voice sounded less like the Crown Prince and more like someone who was simply tired.
Suguru didn't answer immediately.
Instead, he let the silence exist.
Then:
"Because you care about being responsible."
Megumi looked up.
"That is not a weakness."
"It feels like one."
"Most things feel like weaknesses when you are afraid of failing."
The words hit closer than Megumi expected.
He looked away.
"I don't want to become someone who can't control himself."
Suguru's expression softened.
"Megumi."
The use of his name alone made him look back.
"You have spent your entire life proving that you can."
A pause.
"One difficult moment does not erase years of discipline."
Megumi didn't answer.
Because, frustratingly, he knew Suguru was right.
That didn't mean the thought stopped bothering him.
If anything, it made it worse.
Because now he couldn't dismiss the situation as simply a failure.
It had been something normal.
Something other people experienced.
Something Suguru himself had experienced.
And yet...
His mind still returned to the same question.
Why had it unsettled him so much?
Suguru seemed to notice the direction of his thoughts.
"May I ask you something?"
Megumi nodded.
"When this happened, did you feel unsafe?"
"No."
"Did you lose control?"
"No."
"Did you act in a way you regret?"
Megumi paused.
"...No."
"Then perhaps you are judging yourself more harshly than necessary."
Megumi looked down at the carpet.
Maybe.
But another part of him resisted that answer.
Because something about today had been different.
Not dangerous.
Not wrong.
Just unfamiliar.
And unfamiliar things were difficult.
Especially when they involved someone Megumi barely knew.
"...Thank you."
Suguru smiled.
"Anytime."
Megumi stood.
For a moment, he thought the conversation was finished.
Then Suguru spoke again.
"One more thing."
Megumi turned.
"Do not confuse understanding an instinct with obeying it."
His expression was gentle, but serious.
"That distinction will matter throughout your life."
Megumi nodded.
"I understand."
And he did.
At least, he thought he did.
He left the office with the intention of finally putting the matter behind him.
Of returning to his room.
Of opening his textbooks.
Of focusing on anything else.
But as he walked through the quiet palace halls, one thought followed him.
Not Suguru's advice.
Not the reminder about control.
Not even the explanation that instincts were normal.
Only the comparison Suguru had made.
The fact that something similar had happened with Satoru.
And that thought brought an immediate, unwanted conclusion.
Yuuji picks up crocheting after Shinjuku. He's always had a problem with fidgeting before, but after the dust has settled, he feels like he's always on the edge of getting up to run a 5k.
Nobara had suggested it on a whim, when he was picking at the blanket on Megumi's cot. It wasn't supposed to be taken seriously, but he did, and it helped.
It not only made him feel calm, but the patterns helped occupy his mind instead of the guilt over his best friend's comatose state, and basically everything that had happened in the past year.
After Megumi wakes, and during his recovery stages, he asks Yuuji to teach him. Yuuji is more than willing to, but Megumi's fingers just don't seem to be working as well as they used to.
He gets frustrated, throwing the ball of pink yarn on the floor and holding back tears. Yuuji is right there, calming him down, but it sucks. The numbness that plagues his hands and legs. He hates it.
Yuuji makes him a soft pair of black fingerless gloves that somehow help with some of the constant chill. He starts to wear them everywhere, because they help, and they remind him of Yuuji when the other isn't around.
The final bell echoed through the lecture hall, immediately dissolving what little discipline remained.
Conversations resumed.
Chairs scraped across the floor.
Students reached for backpacks and tablets, already discussing weekend plans, club meetings and overdue assignments before they had even stepped outside.
Yuji stretched his arms above his head with a quiet groan.
"My brain officially stopped working twenty minutes ago."
Nobara zipped her bag shut.
"I noticed."
"I was taking notes."
"You drew a dog wearing a crown."
"...It was a wolf."
Junpei glanced at the notebook.
"It was definitely a dog."
Yuji looked down.
"...Traitors."
Before either of them could respond, Professor Yaga's voice carried across the room.
"Itadori. Fushiguro. Inumaki. Miwa."
The four of them looked up.
"I expect your project proposal perfect for next Friday. Don't wait until the last minute."
"Yes, Professor," Miwa answered almost immediately.
Yaga gave a single nod before leaving the room.
For a moment, none of the four students moved.
Then Miwa clapped her hands together.
"Well! Since we're all here..."
She smiled brightly.
"...we should probably introduce ourselves properly."
Yuji smiled back.
"Sounds good."
"I'm Miwa Kasumi."
She offered a small bow out of habit before laughing at herself.
"I guess you already knew that."
"I'm Yuji Itadori."
"Toge Inumaki."
His voice was quiet, though warm enough to put the others at ease.
Finally, three pairs of eyes settled on the last member of the group.
The academy had a habit of making yesterday feel distant.
By eight o'clock the following morning, the library, the forgotten notebook, and the brief exchange between prince and student had already dissolved into another ordinary memory among hundreds of others.
The academy grounds buzzed with life by the time first period began.
Students crossed the courtyards carrying coffee cups, tablets tucked beneath their arms and earbuds hanging loosely around their necks. Others hurried toward lectures while trying to finish assignments on their phones, earning more than one disapproving look from passing professors.
Yuji slipped through the crowd just as the bell rang.
"I'm here!"
"You've got twelve seconds."
Nobara checked the time on her smartwatch before looking up.
"I'll allow it."
"You make it sound like you run the school."
"I would do a better job."
Junpei adjusted the strap of his backpack.
"...She's probably right."
Yuji sighed dramatically.
"I need new friends."
"No," Nobara replied. "You need better time management."
Across campus, the atmosphere couldn't have been more different.
The royal residence connected directly to the academy's administrative building, allowing the members of the Japanese royal family to avoid the crowds if necessary.
Megumi rarely used the private entrance.
He preferred walking through campus.
Even if it meant attracting attention.
Even if whispers followed him from one building to the next.
Most students were respectful.
Some smiled politely.
Others pretended not to stare.
A few still took blurry photos when they thought security wasn't looking.
Megumi had learned to ignore all of it years ago.
His phone buzzed.
💬 Family
Tsumiki:
Good luck on your presentation today! 💙
Nanako:
don't embarrass us
Mimiko:
He's presenting. Not juggling.
Satoru:
You remembered to eat breakfast, right?
A moment later—
Suguru:
Your father is asking because he forgot to eat his own.
Megumi looked up from the screen.
Across the hallway, Satoru was indeed walking beside Suguru while drinking what appeared to be his first coffee of the morning.
"..."
He quietly typed.
Megumi:
I ate.
Three dots appeared almost instantly.
Satoru:
good :)
Megumi smiled—small enough that nobody around him noticed.