Hi, my name is Kacey. I have open commissions and do art and stuff! I'm multifandom, but I've been really into the elder scrolls and mlp recently. Url is inspired by Silver Spoon from mlp. She's one of my favorites :3
My main blog is mostly reblogs at this point, so I decided to just make a new blog for art for easier access.
I'm a big fan of people. If you want someone to yap to, you can definitely send me a dm! I'm not a big fan of drama; but if you're frustrated about anything, I'm free to talk. Everyone deserves a voice <3
I finally bought clip studio paint after 5 years of putting it off. Im sooooo so happy and excited! This program has been my favorite since day one. The free trial made me fall in love with it and now im here :P
Drawing Arcane characters and listening to my Playlist for my OC's break up on my period really got me feeling emotions for once. Like I feel like my emotions are actually going in to my art how they're supposed to. This shit works better than therapy 💯
Stupid fucking thug baby is sick again someone commission me so I can make up the day of work I missed please pretty please!!!!!!!!!!!!! Im still working on comm sheet. This has my main on it, my new art blog is @silverspoonart but I have more frens on this acc so im posting here!
Here's some genuine art below the cut btw
Last one is the newest out of these! I actually need to finish that one i lowk gave up on it 🧍♂️
PLEASE NOTE THAT THIS FUNDRAISER IS UK BASED AS THIS IS WHERE I WAS FORMERLY BASED, AND M… Natalia Lee needs your support for Please help me
Simply put, it has become impossible for me to remain here in Bali. Not only financially, but in terms of my physical safety and survivial. Even though most people think of Bali as some idyllic “paradise”, for those who live here, reality is different, and my case is worse than most.
Back in June, a friend of mine from the UK sent me a care package of UK snacks. What was also in the care package was a THC vape pen: fine in the UK, but what my friend did not know is that this is super illegal in Indonesia. Even though I didn’t ask for or buy the pen, because it was sent to my address and my name, my home was raided. I, my father, and my driver were taken in for questioning. Due to administrative delays and a long weekend I spent 6 days in Polda Bali, the central police compound on the island, in the narcotics division. Living with no privacy on a small cot surrounded by police who would spend all day smoking while I was trying to quit nicotine, eating foods I could not stand, and watching TikTok on full volume. They would also regularly harass me, inappropriately probing into my private life, my relationships, demanding to know why I don’t have children, making insinuations about my sex, and displaying an absolute lack of regard for mental health. At one point it got so bad I suffered a psychotic break. I was eventually released but the ordeal has not only given me PTSD, but has brought up past trauma as well. Since then I’ve been constantly struggling just to stay alive.
My mental health is in full-blown crisis, but Indonesia has limited mental health services, and even those that exist often come with long wait times and high fees. My family and Indonesian society in general have a very tenuous grasp of mental health and will actively make my bipolar worse while also forcing me to mask and pretend to be coping which in turn exacerbates my state even more. Every day I am slipping further and further down the rabbit hole and I’m not sure how much longer I can keep going.
On top of this, being Indonesia, my family had to pay some £10,000 to get me out out Polda Bali. Money I am now expected to pay back without any job or stable income. In truth, this debt isn’t about the money, rather it is being used by my father to keep me here in his house where I, and the rest of my family, have to suffer his narcissistic and psychopathic outbursts. Every day it seems to get worse as his mood becomes more erratic and he is more and more prone to sudden aggression, coercive control, and displays of violence. We all live in fear that one day soon he will kill one, if not all of us.
Compounding this, as many will have seen on social media, tensions in Indonesia are at breaking point and Bali is no exception. There are protests regularly and government buildings, including the police compound where I was held, are being targeted. While I have nothing to do with these protests and do not attend, we live very near to the military police HQ (Brimob) on the island and are afraid that martial law will soon be imposed. Worse yet, I am ethnically part Chinese-Indonesian. While this would not be significant information in the West, here in Indonesia the Chinese population are regularly targeted for racial violence. This is partly due to long standing inter-ethnic distrust, but moreso because in times of crisis the government will try to save themselves by driving the peoples’ anger towards ethnic minorities. And we are one of the most visible and most othered minorities in the country. Many of my Chinese friends around the country are living in fear that they could be targeted next.
Ultimately, I just cannot stay in Indonesia. Every day is already a struggle just to stay alive and to be blunt, I won’t survive an other year here. This envornment is not only toxic, it is going to kill me. I have tried to find a way out of this situation but there’s nothing here in Indonesia that I can do. It’s all dead ends. My only hope is to go to Europe, find work, and start to build up a life that I can actually live. The irony of course is that to find a job, you need to be in Europe, but to go to Europe you already need to have a job offer. Catch 22. So, my best chance is the Chancenkarte, a job seeking visa in Germany. Unfortunately in order to even qualify to apply, I need to have just over €13,000 show money to prove that I am a legitimate job seeker. Money which I do not currently have.
I have tried every resource and connection I have at my disposal to get out of this pit but nothing has worked and despite my skills and capacities, and dozens of wonderful people in Europe who would happily vouch for and help support me, my passport and myopic migration laws are holding me back. This is my last ditch effort to save myself. If I can raise enough money to apply for a job seeking visa, I can finally escape this nightmare I’ve being held in, move to a stable country, get the help I need, find work, pay off my family, and be free to live my own life.
Any help, no matter how little, is a step in the right direction for me. I am not expecting money for free; as a Social Anthropologist with an MA in Humanitarian and Environmental Crises from the UK, I have been offering editing, proofreading, and university-level academic coaching services for over four years. I am a hard worker and do not expect handouts. If you find yourself in need of my services, any donation above £100 will come with editing assistance for any 2500 word essay.
I also ran the popular Elder Scrolls recipe and worldbuilding blog, @tastesoftamriel/Talviel's Kitchen between 2017-2024. If you would like a custom stylised fantasy tavern menu (please bear in mind I'm an Elder Scrolls expert but can attempt other franchises) of 4-6 courses, donations above £25 are eligible for one!
Hi everyone, it's been a while since I've given an update so here's a bit about my current life situation.
My mental health has been deteriorating rapidly over the past two weeks or so, with my bipolar spells becoming more drastic and frequent. I cannot afford to consult my psychiatrist about this, let alone any extra costs for medication, which I am being made to pay for out of pocket too. I also am unable to afford therapy, which I know I desperately need.
Long story short, back in October my father fell ill briefly and had to go to hospital, and I only went to see him once as I had just landed a new job (which I have subsequently lost to AI). This was, in his eyes, such a grave offence that I am now being made to pay for my own daily expenses months later. The only thing I thankfully don't have to worry about is rent, but things like food, toiletries, medication, and cat upkeep are digging into my savings and I was so close to being halfway to my goal but am now slipping further away as I need to support myself.
Speaking of cat, please bear in mind that Skooma was suddenly foisted upon me back in early January without my prior consent. I love her to bits, but her upkeep is making a significant dent in my bank account. I really don't know what to do. I feel terrible about the thought of rehoming her, but as many of my friends have pointed out, she is clearly a financial manipulation tactic my dad is using against me to keep me in Indonesia against my will. Bear in mind, he has no idea that I have the Gofundme or Ko-Fi.
As for the Gofundme, I didn't realise when I started the fundraiser that they would charge absolutely extortionate transaction fees (currently over £200 last I checked; for some reason I can't log into my account right now to share the exact amount). This is £200 that isn't going to me. Likewise, with Ko-Fi and PayPal, I am not getting the full amount of whatever I charge in my shop or get tipped as I have a business account, which I made back in the UK because I had to declare everything to HMRC (tax office). This is of course no longer an issue, but I might have to make a new PayPal account for personal use because I'm tired of getting £2-3 of everything I sell getting deducted as it is a business account and as far as I know, there is no way to change your account from a business to a personal one.
As a result, I may temporarily have to remove PayPal from Ko-Fi and set up a new account altogether just to avoid getting charged business fees per transaction. If you'd prefer to donate directly via PayPal in the meantime, it would be great if you could send anything as a "family and friends" payment directly to me. Once I've set up a new personal account I will link it to Ko-Fi, but with my very few spoons and very high stress, this may take some time. If you do decide to donate privately, I am happy to disclose my balance via DM (I'm not comfortable for obvious reasons to share my bank statements publicly but want to be as transparent with everyone as possible if you're willing to help.)
As I am currently back to square one of unemployment, I'd like to once again let everyone know that I am open for university-level tutoring/coaching for subjects like social anthropology, sociology, and political science. I can also help with essay writing, editing, and proofreading services. Likewise, the latter extends to any form of writing including fiction and nonfiction outside of an academic context. My rates and schedule are flexible, and I'm eager to help! If you'd like a custom fantasy menu, I'd love to help your dream come to life too! Please DM me if any of these services may be of interest to you.
Thanks for reading, thanks for listening, and thank you all from the bottom of my heart for the support you've shown me so far. I hold so much appreciation for everyone who has shared my posts and donated.
Yap about your dovahkiin to me... I love learning about people's ocs. I will draw your dovahkiin. Every dovahkiin is so special.... like wow you had guideline of "this guy is powerful" and made something so cool out of it!!
2020 OC I redrew! His name is Moss, and I used to think he was pretty cool. The art I have as reference here is mostly from 2021.
Here's a little backstory under the cut!
Moss had powers to be able to grow plants wherever he liked. However, it would take out of his own body's power. He would often end up with bruises and gashes after using his powers. I figured it would be a good way to limit his powers when i made him lol
When I made his human design, I turned that in to her growing out her hair super long when she didn't need to use her powers. So when she did, she could just have the energy come from her hair since that's not something she needs.
Some little fun facts about him! He is a figure skater, he has a big sister(Her name is Sprout), he's very short(I originally made him like 3.5 ft tall but that is very unreasonable I'd change that to like maybe 5 ft), and he really loves baking!
If I were to seriously redesign him; I would change a LOT, to say the least. There's silly little things that make no sense, and I would want to make it flow better. Also his character design makes no sense half the time. The colors are really weird lol
Anyways! I hope you like the art, and the little backstory too if you read it :3
2020 OC I redrew! His name is Moss, and I used to think he was pretty cool. The art I have as reference here is mostly from 2021.
Here's a little backstory under the cut!
Moss had powers to be able to grow plants wherever he liked. However, it would take out of his own body's power. He would often end up with bruises and gashes after using his powers. I figured it would be a good way to limit his powers when i made him lol
When I made his human design, I turned that in to her growing out her hair super long when she didn't need to use her powers. So when she did, she could just have the energy come from her hair since that's not something she needs.
Some little fun facts about him! He is a figure skater, he has a big sister(Her name is Sprout), he's very short(I originally made him like 3.5 ft tall but that is very unreasonable I'd change that to like maybe 5 ft), and he really loves baking!
If I were to seriously redesign him; I would change a LOT, to say the least. There's silly little things that make no sense, and I would want to make it flow better. Also his character design makes no sense half the time. The colors are really weird lol
Anyways! I hope you like the art, and the little backstory too if you read it :3
