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Welcome back to the passion play,

You haven’t missed much,

Save the catch of the day,

And what have we for lunch,

But cling to that coffin, pretty boy,

And drift on out to see,

While you send home saltwater,

And you wail on about me,

I’m still lying in your Igloo,

More rot than ice now,

But you’ve staged it up so nice,

So go and take your starward bow.

#poetry #spilled ink #im back bitch #anestheticallypleasing #rejects corner

Why is a raven like a writing desk?

I haven’t the foggiest...

Marry a baker, I think to myself-- Arms strong enough to whip life into meringue Careful enough to fold sweet Almond flour into the mix, with just a touch of Rose, and so patient in waiting, as cool as the Oven, and as perfectly round as- No, wait. I just want a macaron.

#poetry #spilled ink #baking #acrostic #macaron #french #is it love?#or is it macarons?

Just Reach Out!

I just reached out!

And they put me on a waiting list, As long and as hopeless as The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers.

And they told me they're not accepting new patients, And asked me to exercise some patience.

And it's been two months and no one's returned my call, Are they just not that into me?

And he's not concerned about the situation, Unless I come in again and give him $500.

And this line is only for people who are DEFINITELY going to kill themselves, I need the line for people who are only MAYBE going to kill themselves.

And this is the wrong line, too.

And this one is fully booked and maybe a representative will call me back in a half hour, but probably not.

And this one is a perk for volunteering for AmeriCorps, It's a national program with no providers in New York State.

And this one is a national network, too, maybe they'll help, They could if they would but they can't-- not in my county.

And she's not a therapist or a doctor or a social worker, But she'll listen to me for two sessions before she leaves.

And it's been four months and I finally get scheduled for a screening, That's so far away from where I live it's nearly impossible to get to.

And it was 2 of 3 preliminary visits before they decided not to let my service dog in, And the Human Rights Complaint process is still ongoing.

And it took six months to get into counseling, And only two months for my therapist to cancel, leave, and say nothing,

It'll be two weeks before anyone will see me now, And I'll have to start over from the very beginning,

Holding the weight of my entire life in arms ever-so-tired, From reaching out.

#Poetry #spilled ink #mental health #poems for people who try to support their depressed friends but actually depress their depressed friends

Tuff Boi

“Aesthetic Aesthetic Aesthetic” Say it three times fast to summon Something up for my Ugly winter boots Violent violet mane Chapped lips Bloody nose Tuff boi Look I’d smoke a cigarette Were it not for all the snow And my To Build a Fire fingers Fumbling in the cold

#poetry #spilled ink #aesthetic #winter

How many pills to

How many calories in

How many days without

How many times can I

How much fat in

How much sugar in

How much sleep can I

How many pages in

How many days until

How many months since

How much money can

How much caffeine can

How much can I

How much longer can I

How much longer can I count?

#poetry #ana #spilled ink #how much longer until i call a hospital?

I could really use someone to talk to about all the things stuck in my chest.

I love you is still butterflies, Filling the holes in my chest, With such brave and beautiful wings

#spilled ink #poetry

Catching Up

The ache sets in before my eyes are open, My hands start their search for patches of sunshine which are not there, It's rained a lot this year, And I swear sometimes I summoned that god, And I am so sorry, I am so sorry, I want to tell you in the morning, I am not the same person I was when you said that the days you spend with me are your happiest, I am not the person I was when you liked me, or loved me, or adored me, I am not the same person I was 25 minutes ago when I was sleeping and dreaming of your fingertips, I'm afraid it's much worse, I am trying to be better now, I am trying not to blame the floods, Because I know they are my own, The ache is deepening, moving, blossoming, And there is weight to all of this, I can't move my chest to breathe, I can't ever be free, It's rained a lot this year, It's rained a lot this year, And I think I'm just now drowning.

#spilled ink #poetry #rejects corner

mioxenoblade

So, there’s a lot of trans kids going home from college right now and I know a lot of you are going from environments where you’re out and accepted to the old environment of hiding and depression. I just want to say that you’re all really strong, you can get through this. It’s not forever, you will be out again, you will be free again. Muster your courage and keep moving forward one day at a time. I’m proud of you so very much.