Writing in the darkness

Trying to live life one day at a time

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Happy First of Pride Month!!

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On Repeat 

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“i am enough
just not for you”

R.H. Sin

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Sam Smith at Barclays 6.27.18

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This was everything—the vibe, the music & the love 🌈 @hayleykiyoko

[graffitiofwishes]

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 Hello June!!! 

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Let the light shine through

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Lauv - Paris in the Rain [Official Video]

I met you when I was 18. is the first chapter of Lauv’s music and story. Follow the playlist at: http://lauv.lnk.to/imywiw18 "Paris in the Rain" available no...

It could have been Paris in the Rain with you...

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Sam Smith - Burning (Live From The Hackney Round Chapel)

Playlist Best of Sam Smith https://goo.gl/qd5ZFH Subscribe for more https://goo.gl/ZwB8oJ Burning'(Live from Hackney Round Chapel) taken from Sam Smith’s new...

“ I've been burning, yes, I've been burning Such a burden, this flame on my chest No insurance, to pay for the damage Yeah, I've been burning up since you left” 

[rhsin]

#poetry (at New York, New York)

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All I wanted was to be enough.

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Instagram post by B E A U T A P L I N • Jul 24, 2017 at 10:43am UTC

14.3k Likes, 213 Comments - B E A U T A P L I N (@beautaplin) on Instagram: “#1 • my book Bloom is available via the link on the home page xo Love Beau”

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Before Sunset...

Even being alone--it's better than being with a lover and feeling lonely 

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When I close my eyes and drift away in sleep, in the morning will you be here or will I wake up alone?

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Step 1--Acceptance.

I’ve realized that I was scared to lose you in all this. Lose who I know you can be and will be. You were always the strong one, while I get carried away by emotions and my over thoughts. 

In the end, I know I will truly lose you if I continue on like this--consumed by grief, sadness and depression. 

The only thing I can do, in your words to preserve whatever we had and have as a beautiful memory is to let it all go and let it be. 

What I can do is give you the one thing you want---your life as you want it to be. 

I can only offer my support and let you know I’m always there if you ever need it, no strings attached, no matter what happens. 

I am letting go and will try to find myself again through this process, before I disappeared.... 

I will love you for who you were, who you are and who you will be. 

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Same same... but different

Things have changed, we have changed and our emotions have changed but the routines we find ourselves in remains the same.

Grocery shopping –same Window shopping –same Brunch – same

What is different is now the memories prior still seeps into the present.

Grocery shopping meant cooking and spending time together but now it’s just chores.

Window shopping meant I knew what you liked and what you didn't liked. It meant being able to hold your hands, have my arms around you. 

Brunch was a moment where we can get away and take in everything. Weekends are what I loved when I knew I’d wake up next to you and actually was able to spend the day with you fully...

now...

silence. 

deafening silence.