Something I wrote at 4am...!
A cross a globe of an earth with no existence except of yours and mine!
can you hear the heart of glass that you dropped ; breaking in a dreadful silence of carelessness and hurt!
that heart that was a see through amid the vast oceans of polluted seas with frauds
the heart with the cracks that everyone were so focused on , thinking that they knew its story cuz they were so close
but what they'd never realize ; some things are better off seen from a distance ! & that's how you saw the beauty of a thousand flames in me!
you kept waiting near the edge of falling on that high cliff side above the clouds just to meet me in the afterglow !
you suffered through those cold nights ; you fought battles that weren't yours just to remain still where you were !
till wisteria grew right down your bear feet ! you kept gazing into the depth of my soul!!
and despite your tenderness i worry.....I worry of the day where you'll claim my thorns and turn them to blooming roses spiteful of whom i used to be!
i worry that beyond the reaches of whatever we had that was set by design you'll feel the irony of ever choosing me as a friend ; a lover ; a loved one..... you'll feel the waste of time and energy and hate me for it !!!
i worry that i'll push you so far so that you wouldn't peak at who i am ! you'll think that i myself hate you
I hide me behind wooden doors in dark rooms and watch through the creeks to feel sunbeam on my pale face !
so much is going on in that heart of glass!! so much that it would drive someone mad in between the walls of my concrete castle !
an apology that comes years in advance ! cuz that's how much ...... I adore you!!
Please never leave cuz i'm opening my fortified castle to you! come in and fight my demons ! i am too far gone & too far weak to do so!!!
My love ; my friend ; my dear ! My diamond that reverses silver rays of the moon during the darkest nights ; no sadness in the world would do to ever get over you!!
I'll sit still no expecting anything or anyone ! after all ; another heart break isn't what i'm looking for........!!!