Sincerely-Ella

“Trying to find myself in a world full of tragedies”

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my ship.

lost at sea

frail and bent

you survived my waves and unforgiving winds

my ship, once lost at sea

has returned home to me

and i am ashamed for causing so much fuss

my ship, my baby, my ship

i am afraid of my own rocky waters

please stay afloat. please stay. stay.

please.

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i know they say “till death do us part,” but i’d invent heaven just to be with you eternally

-Sincerely,

Loving is Doing

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im hoping that if i push you away hard enough, eventually, you’ll bounce back to me

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And to this day, I credit my best poems to you.

-Sincerely, I have to live this life without you.

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I could write a million songs of a million lovers, but they’d all end with your symphony.

-Sincerely, it’s been 4 years.

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Right Now.

As I write this I am all but happy.

I am all but set.

I am afraid it all came down too fast.

It all just.. disappeared.

I apologize for my rude departure.

I did what was meant to be done.

I no longer saw myself fit in this puzzle you were playing.

I no longer found your game fun.

I know quite well that I don’t deserve much but I know I didn’t deserve this little.

I know quite well that this wasn’t meant to be confusing.

In fact, it was sprawled on your face from the start.

It was painted in your glances and your sudden movements.

And it was hidden within your words full of hope.

I’m sorry that I didn’t know any better, truly.

-a poem for my “almost”

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““You are born, go to school, and attend university in search of a husband. You get married - even if he is the worse man in the world - just so that others can’t say no one wants you. You have children, grow old, and spend the end of your days watching passersby from a chair on the sidewalk, pretending to know everything about life yet unable to silence the voice in your heart that says: “You could try something else.” - Paulo Coelho, The Spy”

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“and so what if I miss him? I think you would too. It’s not everyday you find someone who perfectly covers every wound on your skin”

-missing you has been the worst. /:

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“...but if for the smallest chance our souls may touch once again, I pray that it lasts forever this time”

Sincerely,

maybe.

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[sincerely-ella]

“Numb the pain for a second or two, make me feel alive. Tell me things you think will save me, tell me all those lies”

-Sincerely,

I’m in pain

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