#im still here

[crumb-crumblet-s-crumbington]

i turned 21 today, all i can say is that it gets better

[kidclubz]

this was the kiss he'd been waiting for

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[lorelaiblair]

thinking about this steve centric fic i read where will comes out to the family and steve is just sitting there and after will walks away jonathan grabs steve up and threatens him, says that if he so much as looks at will wrong it will be the last thing he does or something of the sort and steve says “it’s will, it’s will - i would never”

and im just thinking about it from a steddie pov

like it’s been almost a month since eddie died, since the gates opened, and steve is GRIEVING

he and eddie had secretly been in a relationship for a good while before the upside down opened back up, and the only person who knew was robin, because being gay in small town indiana was horrifying in the 80’s

but then will comes out, and he’s met with so much love and acceptance from the party

and steve realizes that they didn’t have to hide, he could have shared eddie and what they had with the people who cared about them both, they could have been happy and free for that short time they had together he didn’t have to hide his love

and he realizes that he never had to grieve in silence, he didn’t have to pretend that he was okay and he didn’t have to avoid his entire support system in fear of breaking down in front of them. he didn’t have to barricade himself into his bedroom, unable to get out of his bed for weeks, couldn’t get up until his sheets stopped smelling like eddie, and when they did he laid there wishing that it had been him instead. and steve never had to go through that without his family being there for him, he didn’t have to put robin through taking care of him at his worst and keeping this secrets from her own support system, he screwed them both over

but now it’s too late

because will came out, and jonathan is threatening steve, and joyce is looking at him like she’s cautious but feels bad for being cautious

and steve knows that they’re right, because once upon a time he had called jonathan a queer in that hateful and disgusting sort of way, back when steve was horrified that his father would find out that he and tommy hagan would make-out every time they both got enough alcohol into their systems

and now it’s too late, because the party thinks the worst of him, how could he tell them now without them thinking that he was lying in order to regain their favor?

it’s angst, and it’s horrible, and steve is so stuck and so depressed

and it’s a one shot, it ends like that, steve drowning in his grief and self-hatred

until

a second one appears, another one shot

from eddies pov

eddie who died in the upside down, and eddie who came back as a vampire

strong, bloodthirsty, nearly immortal

and missing his stevie so so bad

but eddie has a mission now that he is indestructible and technically dead

because vecna doesn’t know that his little bats didn’t get rid of him, vecna doesn’t know that eddie is still alive, or should he say undead?

anyway, this gives him the perfect opportunity- to spy

to find vecna’s weaknesses, and to take him down at his lowest moment

and eddie, he refuses to drag steve and the kids into this again - they have been through so much- they have survived things that no person should ever have to, and eddie is stronger now. he can defeat vecna, especially if he plays his cards right, all he needs is a little bit of time

and his stevie will be fine, he has robin, he has their family to watch him and take care of him, he has to hold onto that, because eddie has to do this. eddie has to protect their family. eddie has to protect steve, so that one day they can live happily ever after but for real this time, no more monsters and no more always being afraid that they might come back

eddie is going to finish it

and then he is going to go home to his boyfriend

[slayamanca]

Marlon Jackson in Student Confidential (1987)

[httpdramas]

I'm Still Here (2024)

[yeehawodyssey]

the phacation!!🌤️

[cloudycluster]

viva o brasil, viva a cultura brasileira

[zukkaoru]

something to be said about phil inviting dan to join him vs. dan saying he would have offered to switch places. something about phil believing they can both win vs. dan believing one of them has to suffer, and he'd rather it be him than phil. something about optimism and pessimism influencing the way you show your love. what greater act of love is there than to give up your own happiness for the sake of another? and yet, the best outcome was not the self-sacrificial one, but the one where they broke the arbitrary rules and got to be together. or whatever