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Stories, writing ideas, some fanfics(cause why not?), drawings. Anything artsy and angsty! Maybe some fluff... Pronouns Fae/Faer or They/Them. Homophobes not welcome! Everyone else have a good day and don't kill anyone!

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Writing prompt:

Mental health is a literal weight. The happier you are the more you practically fly off the ground, almost weightless. Those with crippling depression are basically shoved into the ground. At least you become extremely strong having to carry a hundred pound weight on your back all the time! This weight of mental health has made it so that those happy live in a safe haven in the clouds. Meanwhile those more upset are stuck on the earths surface, some even trapped in under ground caves. And they told you heaven and hell was only for the dead.

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Just adorable. click for better quality

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Writing prompt:

Guilt is deadly, and can destroy your mind. Does that stop people from destroying the world and each other? Of course not! Instead they have created a group of numb children raised to become psychopaths and do their dirty work for them. It’s not unethical if they can’t feel, right? So are you to follow your destiny and murder for your superiors, or you and your merry band of abused tweens ready to live a life on the run? To be hunted as the most dangerous people on Earth, as you try and finally destroy the group of corrupt officials who raised you? I mean what could possibly go wrong? The answer; literally everything.

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Writing prompt:

You’re the blessed child of the gods, protected by the highest guardians. Or you‘re a way to perceptive for your own good highschooler living in an abusive household and only protected by your two benevolent house cats. The god’s power has long since been failing, now everyone has lost their divine power. And they tasked a depressed teenager and two sentient cats to fix it. What could possibly go wrong?

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Remember when Patton said, “A part of you so hard to swallow it left me lost at sea!” But rewind, Thomas, “who pushed to do the egocentric thing: auditioning” Roman, “Yeah, that’s deceit!”

So you were talking about deceit right, Patton? Or were you talking about pushing to do the egocentric thing? Was the part hard to swallow, the part that wanted to do the egocentric thing? Or was it just Janus? Cause I really hope he wasn‘t talking about the ego.

Since that means that the part that made him get so lost was doing what the ego or Roman wanted. That helping Roman was the thing hard to swallow. That doing what Roman wanted was inconceivable to him.

Just imagine that.

The amount of emotional abuse Roman must have gone through if that is true. Because Roman can’t imagine not doing what Patton says or wants. You see this many times in his decisions and how just one look from Patton and he will completely change. Or any disappointed gaze makes him start apologizing and correcting himself, tripping over his own words to please.

Maybe Patton is the one who is denying Roman the right to be the ego and forcing him into his other roles. And Roman thinks that that is right so he represses himself.

Or maybe when Roman is the ego or supports the ego he pushed away and out of the mindscape, being “to hard to swallow” or accept. So in fear that he might be forced out for good he attempts to stop the ego.

The reason Patton might have become his friend and been so close to him was so that he wouldn’t call him out or confuse Thomas with his own wants. So Patton keeps the ego on a leash so he doesn’t ‘corrupt’ Thomas. And he can keep controlling him. But if Roman does get out Patton is the one who will be thrown into turmoil or “lost at sea”.

Just random thoughts I hope you enjoyed! Sorry I haven’t been posting much my mental health decided to screw me and Christmas gift procrastination is catching up with me XD. Anyway have a nice day!

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And they put this on the musician‘s tree...

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Writing prompt:

People though Jumanji was bad. But you respectively disagree after being stuck in a monopoly game for three years. And you still can’t fucking beat that cheating business man, who has somehow beat Trump at being a punchable idiot. All your friends have gone bankrupt and been jailed till they rotted, now it’s just you and hitler junior. So will you finally find a way to bend the rules and bet this cheating pompous jerk? Cause right now rotting in prison looks better than having to look one more second at that smug face.

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Reminiscing about the now decimated cat grass.

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Writing prompt:

You and your sibling always had a running joke about who would be a better murderer. You never thought it would become a reality. But here you are fighting to kill the biggest cult leader of america. One commissioned by the now international presidential ruler, the other by the cynical rebel group terrorizing the world. Whoever gets the bounty keeps their head. There is no friendly rivalry anymore, only life or death.

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Writing prompt:

It is said everyone fell in love with Aphrodite. She was said to spread and give love where ever she went. What they don’t tell you: she is destined to forever give the gift of love to others but at the consequence of taking her own capacity to love. Every person who comes to seek the blessing of love takes more of her ability to love away. No wonder she became such a manipulative player. If only humanity knew when to stop taking and how love by themselves. Now it is up to you to save the world from the heartless goddess’s schemes. But how are you to make her love the world again after all it has taken from her?

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Wait in thomas’s post for Virgil’s birthday, he said that Virgil didn‘t like the attention but everyone thought he should be celebrated. Celebrated for his first appearance. So does that mean that even Remus and Janus feel he should be congratulated for appearing to Thomas? I mean Remus makes sense because they kinda made up after dwit but the Janus one would be surprising to say the least. Since they don’t have a civil relationship and constantly tease each other rudely about the past. But then again after the embarrassing phases video, for the endcard, Janus seemed to actually be impressed that Virgil has changed. It still is interesting though.

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Sorry I have been gone for like a week, Christmas has made me very busy and my mental health has just gone f**k you on me. But I’m feeling a little better! So I have posts and what not ready and am finishing chapters and short stories for you guys. Also a bunch of art that I made for holiday gifts. So yeah, I’m alive! I am gonna have a lot of time in my hands so I can’t wait to get some nice time to write and be motivated! Hope you guys are having a nice holiday :D

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Wait, random idea but maybe why Roman has been having so many random personality switch’s, is because he has literally no clue what Thomas wants from him anymore. I mean think about POF Roman had to be confused as hell. Thomas says he isn’t the one who should push to do the egocentric thing, but he is the ego (mentioned in a previous post). And Patton said the ego was bad but now they want to take care of themselves. And then they constantly push the ego away and but then agree they should focus on themselves more. Roman must be so very lost. I mean they are literally contradicting everything they are saying. And that’s just talking about his ego facet. And they constantly tell him to be one thing but then change their minds halfway. So maybe the reason Roman has been switching his moods so fast in episodes and between them is because he has no sense of self anymore. I mean he was told he was the better brother but then called no different from Remus. He was told to be the prince but then that not all thinking should be black and white. That he was the hero and that turned out to no longer be what Thomas saw him as. Told he was too loud with his opinion but then told should have expressed them more (like his ideas to fix the wedding problem). Told to not repress himself but then that he shouldn’t be egotistical (literally his job). Told him there was only a certain kind of acceptable creativity but then that Remus was fine too. That he was their perfect prince and then shown all of his errors. Told to follow Patton and then that he shouldn’t have. Plus every side wants him to be different, and all treat him in totally different ways. They all have a separate vision of what he should look like. Since Janus and Remus are both now seen more, that just adds another opinion he has to please. And then add all the extra angst going around.

So Roman is probably having a personality and identity crisis. I mean he is literally defined by what people want to see, and now he has no clue what they want to see him as. And they keep changing their minds and ideas of him. The only two people, Thomas and Patton, who have seen him as a constant person have now pulled a one-eighty, on all their morals and ideas. So he has no clue who the hell he is now.

Maybe he will even start to glitch or switch between multiple people, creativity mixed with trying to please others. It already has been happening with his emotions in the episodes, quickly switching from upset, to excited, to remorseful, to thoughtful, to hopeful, to sad, to overjoyed, etc. This is especially prominent in ‘flirting with social anxiety’ and ‘have I grown?’. Even his entire demeanor changes at times. Plus his emotions seem so much more unstable and expressive. Which either means he is pretending he is fine, he is losing control or both. Just random thought I had, hope ya enjoyed!

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[ID: A watercolor drawing of Virgil. He is wearing his purple patchwork hoodie with a choker that has a red teardrop-shaped gem.

He is laying down, an arm across his stomach while the other rests next to his head, his hair splayed around. He has earphones that are connected to a phone beside him. He is laying in a space of different shades of pink blending together, there are small stars surrounding him.

There are two pens peeking from the top of the drawing, one Purple, one red. /End ID]

A watercolor drawing of Virgil vibing to some music. Sometimes you just have to lay down and listen to some tunes and forget that the world is a thing.

I had a lot of fun with this one! I sketched with red pen, then cleaned it up with a purple pen. Though, after I did go in with a black one to to do the hatching for the shading.

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Reblogs are highly appreciated!

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I love this art style so much!

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Ok so in POF during the SvS Redux a really strange line occurs. Thomas says while talking about Janus, “He pushed to do the egocentric thing, auditioning.” And then Roman agrees, saying, “Yeah that’s Deceit.” That might not seem weird but, think about it. Roman is the ego, but Janus is the one putting it first, not the literal ego. Roman is literally not doing what he wants or the thing that helps him. We already know how large of a sacrifice he made, and was thanked by Thomas. But only for giving up the opportunity not for denying his purpose to put Thomas’s morality first. But here Thomas is showing that he knows that Roman choose to push against his own needs, that he knows Roman chose not to do the egocentric thing. But than associates the egocentric thing with Deceit. Not Roman. And Roman agrees. That’s were it gets weird. Because Roman just said that Janus is the one who is meant to push for the ego, not the ego. That is basically him saying he isn’t the one who should or does push for what he needs to keep Thomas’s self view healthy. He is saying that he not only is not proud of being the ego but he is shoving it into a corner and denying helping himself. And the fact that Thomas associates ego with selfishness and deceit not confidence and self view really shows something. They still think of the ego as a bad thing and doing something for the ego, as more negative than positive.

And even after episode Thomas only says he will try to give himself time to do what he wants, but not anything about being more aware of his egos needs. If anything they push the ego away and tell him he is wrong. And then act like it’s okay and that they should do more self care, as if they hadn’t just shoved away their a major part of their mental health. They think not listening to Janus is the problem. Even though they are aware that Roman is the ego. But the thing is Janus wasn’t pushing towards lying although he did support that idea. As Thomas says here, he was pushing to do the thing of which would benefit the ego. That’s what they weren’t listening to him on. So shouldn’t they be listening to Roman more instead, considering he is the ego?

I think the worst part though is they are literally talking about it and still not connecting the dots! I mean come on guys! And Roman is used to it! He just goes along with it! And Janus who has to be aware of this, considering that he wasn’t pushing for himself and was actively trying to help Roman, doesn’t help Roman after they start taking his side. And then pretends like they not being selfish is the only problem not the fact that they are denying the ego what it needs. Which sure selfishness is a start, but just taking time for yourself is only a small part of what the ego does. And just imagine how betrayed Roman had to be when Janus spends an entire episode saying that what Roman’s wants is right, and then calling him evil.

Just something I noticed while listening to SVS Redux. Hope you enjoyed reading my strange over-analyzations!

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Ok so I was just causally falling back into kotlc and was reading the mini stories at the end of the books. And I read the one from Keefe’s perspective before the trial. Literally I have no clue how this set off zero red flags for me before, because like what the frick is wrong with Alden! Like he is kinda sis after rereading everything, and seeing his reactions to problems. But this is just so incredibly wrong I can’t even. He told Keefe that he should give up on Sophie because she didn‘t love him, so he should throw away his happiness and focus only on making sure her and fitz stayed together and happy. WTF. And then he asked Keefe to be fitzies rage punching bag! I’m with Ro on the whole Alden doesn‘t get to say that, and pretend like it’s all fine. Seriously he is all I’m helping my family but instead of actually helping he throws Keefe to deal with his son and keep it all together. And why the hell does he want Fitz to date Sophie so much? Cause I don’t think it is just about the keep my son happy, I mean he really isn’t that great of a father to Fitz and has never really focused on making his son happy before. I just think it seems really fishy. Especially when you put together that he was the elf so desperately searching for Sophie, even though she wasn‘t considered much of a threat. And Oralie says he pushed some boundaries while searching for her. Why is he so desperate? Why did he make the Sophitz thing seem so final? Like it was the only option? And then he basically plays the I care about you card with Keefe. Knowing how much his parents manipulated him and still played that card knowing how much he wanted someone to love him. It’s as if he knows Keefe doesn’t know how a parent is supossed to act, so he thinks he can get away with it. If Ro wasn’t there I wonder how differently this could have ended. And why is he even meddling so much in the teenagers lives? Isn’t he all, you guys don’t need to worry and should stay out of it all. So why would he start pushing into their business if he sidelines them so much? Or does he just sideline them so they won’t dig up to much stuff? I don’t know this is mainly me just speculating but you have to admit it is a really weird short story. If you haven’t read it someone posted it on Ao3, and it seems really crucial to the story so I would recommend you take a look if you haven’t. Anyway I just found this interaction very strange, and am totally with Ro on the whole thing. Keefe and Alden were said to have a close relationship and it was shown at the beginning of the series. But you have to see that Keefe doesn‘t really understand what a healthy relationship is and is so starved for affection. And Alden seems to know just what cards to play, like he has done this a bunch of times. And Ro seems like she has had to have this kind of discussion many times before. She seems very aware of the situation and feels something is wrong and Keefe isn’t being treated fairly. This scene feels almost like it has happened before but in different circumstances. Like Keefe has been put in this predicament many times and at this point doesn’t trust anyone. But now I’m just rambling so I gonna go! Hope you enjoyed my speculation!

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Ok, keeper of the lost cities Legacy chapter 40 I can’t tell you the page because I’m reading it on kindle so it’s different. In this chapter, they have found Alvar in Candleshade while searching for the vials and are bargaining for more info. they make a deal with Alvar and learn more about Keefe's 'legacy'. And I’m just gonna say it really shows how smart Keefe actually is, I mean how fast he picked up on what Alvar was doing there was very impressive. But as soon as his mom and legacy gets involved he loses all logic.

Cassius previously had explained how much emotions mess with empaths. So I was thinking maybe that is why Vespera is so clever and why people are so afraid of numbed empaths.

Just think, Keefe actually does many very clever things like the pendant, the legacy backup plan, he knows exactly what other people need of him, he can sense what you want to do more than you can half the time, he creates incredible traps, untraceable pranks, and is a year ahead of everyone his age. Only when his mom is involved and his emotions become conflicted does he actually start to get lost. I think a lot of people assume he is stupidly impulsive and while he is he almost always has a backup plan unless it once again is an extremely emotionally charged action.

So that makes me wonder what would really happen if he went numb? Maybe that is why he is so scared of it happening, as shown in one of his conversations with Sophie.

Plus he already is a strong empath so I would imagine that his new enhancements due to ‘the thing’ are going to cause him to become even more likely to actually go numb. Especially since he is so easily overwhelmed now and had a tough time figuring out if he was the one numb in Unlocked or if it was everyone else. And considering how observant and smart he is without his emotional turmoil I bet he will become extremely dangerous if he actually breaks.

Just look at Vespera, she is an Empath but she is one of the most dangerous people in the books. And with all of Keefe’s abuse, I bet it would make him ten times worse if he didn’t have someone to keep him in check. I mean if he gets the same feeling from punching someone as hugging them, I wouldn’t doubt that he would start to become rather violent. He craves affection so much so if doing something bad gets him the same emotions as getting someone’s love, can you really blame him for taking the easier route?

Now, it might seem unlikely that he would do this considering his strong code of morals and how self-sacrificial he is, but that doesn’t mean he couldn’t still turn numb. Especially since he is going to the human realm where everyone’s emotions are so much stronger. This would definitely up the chances of him going numb. If he did, maybe it would help him control himself better and he would become much more analytical and observant. But he would have trouble remembering who he actually is. Keefe already knows how to fake being ok, so he would probably be able to get away with it too, without anyone or any humans figuring out he can't feel. It would help him think clearer, and have greater control over the commands since he couldn’t feel pain. While it might be dangerous and risk him turning into a monster, he already views himself as one. So he might even make himself numb, and stay that way. Thinking that the benefits outweighed the consequences.

Just random thoughts I had while reading! Hope you enjoyed my weird theories and rambles!