blueberrisinner

/////25///// she/her hexagon Bi af. moron I just want to be loved, is it too much to ask for I wonder. also I just want to be...okay

[stuckinapril]

Truest thing ever unfortunately

[sun-ni-day]

High Potential 2x17 Second Sunday

[annoyinglymystical]

i neED TWO MONTHS TO PROCESS THIS COS WDYM THEY WEREN'T ABLE TO TALK ABOUT THIS ???? AND WAGNER LYING ABT THE MEET UP TIME??? TO PROTECT MORGAN??? I NEED THEM TO BURN THRU ALL THAT LOVE IF POSSIBLE

[trentreznorspussy]

i’m interested in becoming the worlds first unmarried divorced woman

[meanbuddhist]

i have got to give up the desire to be understood. lol

[ashstfu]

[kosmogrl]

[kosmogrl]

[papayajuan2019]

the "in another universe" "in another life" posts are funny cause you only get one, this one, and you've already resigned to losing it too. try fighting in this one

[starrmarr-deactivated20260106]

[punkenglishnerd]

“I had thought of suicide when I was much younger, as, possibly, we all have, but then it would have been for revenge, it would have been my way of informing the world how awfully it had made me suffer. But the silence of the evening, as I wandered home, had nothing to do with that storm, that far-off boy. I simply wondered about the dead because their days had ended and I did not know how I would get through mine.”

— Giovanni’s Room by James Baldwin

[lesb0]

if you're a human adult you physically need to eat actual vegetables, read real books, work, exercise, be outdoors, have sex, and have other real adult humans to talk to all on at LEAST a weekly basis or else you go will literally go completely insane and the problem is too many people choose to skip all those basic needs on purpose

[lesb0]

"I'm depressed and always tired and my body is in mysterious pain all the time for no reason" yeah you've spent a whole month isolated except for talking to online people and coworkers and eating convenience store snacks for half your meals with 0 physical activity like that isn't passive self harm. of course your body doesn't like that, it's exhausting

[sawasawako]

patience is such a compelling dynamic in relationships sorryyy it’s the peak of romance to me

[sawasawako]

“i’m not ready” “i’ll wait” and i’ll be in shambles

[sawasawako]

sister to “its rotten work” “not to me not if it’s you” fr

[papayajuan2019]

the "in another universe" "in another life" posts are funny cause you only get one, this one, and you've already resigned to losing it too. try fighting in this one

[100493503004422]

I don't want a Career I want to Fuck Around

[dreamfarer]

And not find out. I cannot stress enough how much I do not want to find out.

[eatpussypraylove]

If you take the leap and get up a little earlier so you can take the shower even though you’re tired your whole day will be better. Promise

[breezybeej]

hey has anyone found a way to act on your desires without opening yourself to failure

[mehphemeral-deactivated20240821]

01/07/2024

If I could somehow communicate with the me from one year ago and tell them we are doing a phd, currently working on a poster for our first ever conference, and for the first time in our life, we actually want to wake up every day and do things, they would not believe me.

one year ago, I was on a plane going back to my parents' home after quietly graduating. I didn't even attend my graduation ceremony, I just remember packing whatever I could into a suitcase and taking that plane, because I would probably do something stupid if I stayed on my own with my thoughts for much longer. I didn't thrive during my undergraduate studies and moving countries after high school only changed the curtains, not the scenery. I didn't even bother applying to phd programs during my last year of undergrad because I felt too broken to just keep myself alive, let alone put in the time and effort into graduate studies.

yet, here I am. life is not perfect, I still have my bad days, but for the first time ever, I feel like I somewhat got it together.

for everyone else, this is just another university student's blog. but for me, it is my way of telling the people that tried to kill themselves at 13 like me, isolated themselves for most of their lives like me, whose minds go blank when asked about the future because they don't plan to make it that far, just like I too didn't, who feel like they weren't made for this world, that things do get better.