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Yo yo yo It's sir_ksft here. I'll be sharing thoughts here like some blog.

[rainbowsh-writer-and-artist]

MY FIRST TIME DOING A TAG!

Ahem, tag your moots for Pride Month!! What's your identity, pronouns, preference and types or are you allies, my fellow pride mates?

I am proudly genderfae (she/they), panromantic/fictoromantic and asexual!

@51lly-kn1f3 @c3rberuz @megamanzerov20 @holorform2009 @countingthestarsthings @pami-the-bunterfly07 @galaxywolfcomet @lalya-veronican @mothpheliaartgallerg @maruchxnn @scallywiggles @meowowstar

[pamiwerewolfybunterfly]

I’m a proudly Pansexual, Genderfluid, Teratoromantic, and I’m a Werewolfkin Otherkin :)

@vinylv1 @torrentialchaos @lunawolf012306 @galaxywolfcomet @frogshroomsarentadrug-official @roleplaynerdylover @khrystenapofficial @dazzle-expandism @elderwoodz @stroodlenoodledoodle @sleepi-toasti @glitched-across-aus @gloriatheitalianpuppetdoll @xxxlawrencexxx @b-does-arts @i-am-trashyy @stardxstsleep @bluechan2011 @herwonderlandfirefreakingevil @holorform2009 @lilonceleriscool124 @chairsqueue35 @sakiohappychan

[b-does-arts]

I'm proudly omnisexual/ lesbian!

She/ Her, cis female :)

@1-wonder-1 @dante-collt @dr3am-caf3 @lilla-flo @twinklingstarsssss @gone-crabbing @goldenstrawberrytiger @iliedilovecats @nemo-xlii @idontcare123---idontcare @aburntcookie @leeleethedrugdealer @epichermesholymoly @ambertheqt

[epichermesholymoly]

Not out to the general public but you know what no time like the present! I’m bisexual, fictionkin, and cis female :)

Oh man I’m not tagging all my moots lol I’ll do my usual few though!

@alastordaradiodemon @hawkeyedoodles @cams-rambles @lilspark-offical @p0pr0x1an @deemondude @unicornannihilater @tadctonorway @loch-nes-dragon @booknerd2712 @cheekychihuahuaart @leilani-lily @potatoanarchist

[cams-rambles]

im a straight ally that's aegosexual( under the asexual umbrella) and have many friends who are trans.

im gonna come out to them at club...

Happy pride month everyone

@marbled-pulse

@alastormooseboi

[alastormooseboi]

i'm aroace i think?

she/her

happy pride month yall!

@sesamee-vee @satanandtheaces @marbled-pulse @stormwind937

[marbled-pulse]

i’m bi i think, possibly aroace idk, and nonbinary, my pronouns are it/they/she

happy pride month :33

@ilovebugs99 @vs-vapor @theberd1225 @zeenahasarrived @sharxxybaitxdd

[vs-vapor]

I admit I'm gay because I'm attracted to male fiction characters *(although I think that I could be pansexual, but I know that happens MORE often with men).

I'm also aroace and demisexual *(last, from the only time I've ever been in love with someone).

Although I haven't come out the closet in real life... I'm non-binary and use they/it/he *(I'm also comfortable with masculine terms! :)

Happy Pride Month to everyone!!! Don't be afraid to show who you are!!! :D

@belovedwareh @milo-blues @ojwolfy @bichocanibal @t3t0p0w3r @sneolover @starberry64 @mageofcolors @littlelaurendraws @sillyclovess + everyone who wants to join!

[ojwolfy]

i’m asexual and a lesbian!! sex gross ew men gross ew (both are less of an “ew” and more of a “the thought of sex and/or being in a relationship with a man makes me deeply deeply uncomfortable”)

i’m girlflux and currently prefer they/them. right now i’d say like,,, 65% nonbinary 35% girl. it’s probably a lot more complicated than that but percentage is the easiest way for me to understand it

@mangowithwings @lilswagbo1 @maicementality @biggesttwokinn22 @mountaindewfein + anyone else ofc!!

[mountaindewfein]

I’m Pansexual. I don’t really care who I date. If I like thou, I like thou for thou.

I’m transgender as well, female to male. I go by he/him pronouns though also sometimes it. So almost around he/him/it. Though I’d want people to just call me he/him.

@s0l4c3-1 @scribble-clover @biggesttwokinn22 @char-char-f0x @abbadonfan @d1sapp01ntm3nt @edenstarsstuff @erurum @foenm-grave-bruh @fr3akology @flirtyferret @grover-underwood-tin-cans @ineffablexsuitcase @jun--koko @jalphpilled @jelly-fish-11 @killcutbash @luciddddddddd @misha-chichirkin @novaismadeofsparkles @potatodagreaserparrot @rogerthrowsrocksatme @ruthlessrogeroverhere @thebiggestboyoyoyoiiii @unknownfiyingtable @v3rmillionbuttons-deactivated20 @xoxofromplanetearth @xiesuting @yoyleberriesxonesomoe @yummy-yummyinmylissa

+ others!!

i just tagged whoever i could find first😭

[novaismadeofsparkles]

I’m proudly genderfluid (any/all + neos pronouns), lesbian, Aroace, Cupioromantic, and Polyamorous

@cosmicnat31

[cosmicnat31]

im bisexual, aroace, and cupioromantic

@sl0wb0ttom698 @forecastingstuff @inthecosmos903

[inthecosmos903]

I'm pansexual and transgender!

@ivyivyivygs @the-calinator @sneakyserpentsilvy @rayneisbored @hanloveskaito @thekidscallmeswag @themostevilestbrushbug @best-isopod

guess who got more moots

[the-calinator]

i’m trans ftm and queer! (haven’t figured out the sexuality thing quite yet lol)

@sircringey @curiosityig @wheresmypick @blau-hai

[blau-hai]

I'm gay, trans, neumale and (probably) a conceptkin?

Happy pride everyone!

@shogun-midnight

@thedogbard

@ninahufflepuff

@lunathetunaaa

@blowwwuplandmine

@am-i-me-question-mark

[am-i-me-question-mark]

Im gay, trans, on the aromantic spectrum?(questioning) and I'm pretty sure I'm genderfaun but I have a complicated relationship with microlabels

Happy pride <3

@aleks-is-dead @mezterio

[sir-ksft]

Proudly a fellow Pansexual. I'm a demiboy but I can use any/all pronounces (can't find a flag for that, been searching)

(Fellow allies aren't on the platform but yh. Shout out's to them anyways. T, A, N, F, M, V, M, E, P, D and N)

[sir-ksft]

Forgot pride month was a thing🙏

[sir-ksft]

A vent or sum (ik I said I don't do ts but I needa get ts put)

*sigh*

So, as my 'texts' have probably indicated, I have had and still have problems with self-harm. I have struggled with it for far too many years, but it has gotten better. It always gets worse when something in my life happens that perhaps makes me stressed, angry or sad. Often it is triggered by strong emotions, which is relatively common. This is not something you talk about with people, of course, it is 'weird' and I do not want to walk on eggshells again. It stings. It bleeds. But after all this time, I have only learned that life is a bitch and so am I sometimes.

well, no matter what. I don't know why I function this way, but I get a calming feeling when I cut, starve or hurt myself in some way. I know I might sound like I'm losing my mind, but it's true- And I don't know why I'm like this. Not just my "problems" but my feelings. I can become possessive, aggressive and jealous of the person I love. I'm disgusted with myself. That I feel this over a person who probably sees me as a friend. But fuck me and I still won't get her out of my head. It's like I want something to happen. That I want to feel this way because I never take a few steps to get better. No, I let it "pass by". This habit can be dangerous but it's a coping thing I've learned since the beginning of my fucking life. That no one cares about you, publicly. So don't trust people, and don't expect anything from anyone and you'll never be disappointed. Thank you "dear" parents for this mindset for I'm like this.

I have never really known how to get my feelings down that are obvious. Previously, I have drawn rage sketches or written in a diary but that is so damn corny. I also don’t want to take that risk because if they find out what I’m doing maybe they will do the same as last time. You might wonder (or not) what I’m rambling about?, well I can explain it to you, reader.

About five years ago, my “mother” saw my wounds, the ones I had made during a depression episode. She saw them and pointed them out. Of course, I froze because I was like a damn wounded animal at that time, and tried to lie about why I did it. And then some more yadidada I hate this woman. Same thing with my grandmother. Hate them. Parents became furious, screamed and threatened me. I couldn’t sleep at night, I actually walking on eggshells back then. They offered no help or security. They forced me to push myself away and manage on my own, which has led me here.

And as you might have guessed, the cold and/or disgusted looks didn’t help at all. I only learned to hide myself.

If we move forward from 2020 to the present, our relationship is "better." They think I’ve quit. I’ve just adapted again and let myself learn how to blend in in the smoothest way. I can’t say they are bad parents, no. They feed me and take care of me, kind of. They apparently care, it’s just that they were worried, right? That the only way to express their feelings was to do what they did. But I don’t think our relationship will ever be able to heal. It’s one-sided as hell. I might be fake, but it's their doing.

so when I think about it. I have kind of been through so damn much. Could be 'fun' to write about in the future.

[sir-ksft]

fuck ts

I woke up in my bed, staring at my pillow wishing it was her. It was warm in my room, to warm for my liking. I got up and stared at the food. The one I can't bring myself to eat. I threw it away in the trash can as It bring me disgust.

Walked to this bitch ass school knowing she won't be there. it's so quiet these days. And guess what? I couldn't focus, I was tired from lack of sleep and her. I'm hurting. I'd cut so deep just to hug her rn. Heck I'd let her do anything to me. Yell, hit? idgaf. As long as it's her who does it.

Bet this is what it feel when I ain't near her. I guess I can't do particularly much about this fucking infatuation, but that doesn't stop the pain. It's like a knife being pushed deeper and deeper into your scar-filled chest.

[sir-ksft]

alright I take back what I said. I do miss her. So fucking much that my heart aches now that she isn't here.

[ksftaccount]

FOR WILLI

[sir-ksft]

Bro🙏

[sir-ksft]

idfk

ts will most likely be boring so you may just scroll by.

Alright so I have this feeling in me that is telling me that she is 1, ignoring me or 2, that she isn't just online as much as she used to be (might be both). I'm not even mad at her by now, as this has sadly become the new norm. I haven't said I word to her in a week.

I'm just here stuck in the gc with some random ahh girl that I have no idea how she became a part of the group (she's actually nice) and this sad excuse of a guy. Despise us having on thing in common I just feel disgust when I chat with him ."How does a human being get this low?" idk man. I guess I truly know what a incel can be like now.

[am-i-me-question-mark]

The masculine urge to die

[sir-ksft]

As a human being who dyes my hair a lot, I only did what I do best. I dyed my hair agn.

Thing is just that I was bored of looking like Asteria so I cut of some more hair before dying it dark red this time. And it came out black/purple.. I mean at least fine shyt seems to be loving it but still😭

[sir-ksft]

SO-and update. It's finally the right color🥀🙏

[sir-ksft]

As a human being who dyes my hair a lot, I only did what I do best. I dyed my hair agn.

Thing is just that I was bored of looking like Asteria so I cut of some more hair before dying it dark red this time. And it came out black/purple.. I mean at least fine shyt seems to be loving it but still😭

[sir-ksft]

Still not in school. It's been a fucking week and I miss seeing your oh-so beautiful face in person.

[sir-ksft]

Not my music class teacher having this EXACT poster on the classroom wall🥀

[sir-ksft]

For every victory that I take There is one less important that seems useful Will make the picture clear When I have passed the goal there is nothing left..

Tandtråd by the artist Tjuvjakt

[sir-ksft]

Why's it so hard to

See this from my view?

Don't really wanna hurt you

My dear, I'll show you

Running out of breath, my love?

Pleading with me"I don't wanna die"

It makes you wanna cry

Hypocrite by the artist Noturtype

[sir-ksft]

At least it's better nowadays.

[sir-ksft]

Omg you changed ur pfp and I didn't know who you were

yup, just wanted it to match with my dc pfp

[sir-ksft]

Here is a plea from my heart to you - Nobody knows me as well as you do - You know how hard it is for me to shake the disease-

"Shake the disease" by Depeche Mode