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Why are there scary game ambient noises outside of my window? im not kidding. What siren is crying outside???

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I have two sharks inside of me.

One says "Learn from your mistakes and grow new relationships, you cant be a better person if you never try"

and the other yells "You should isolate yourself so you can avoid the inevitably regret, You can't make mistakes if there isnt opportunity"

I hate both of them. they're REALLY annoying and i think both are wrong in a way

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Splatoon 3 give me the option to make my inkling frown.

Like i have to be an octoling because the inkling is too happy. Its pissing me off why are they so :]?? I just wanna have a braid in my tentacles but my only option is Ms. :)) over there so i guess i cant. How am i supposed to be cool if :]

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I hate but love seeing that little "[Insert mutual] liked this post!" on top of posts. Because yea, its neat that i get to see they like a fandom that they never post about!

But also what has my name been put over, which of my likes are being shown to my mutuals. I dont like the idea that they know that i like something but i dont know that they know i like that thing. Yknow?

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I noticed on your recent frye art that shes pretty pale? She has much darker skin

The reason shes not as dark is because im not to familiar with using watercolors outside of monotone grays and blacks, so mixing colors to make her skin match her ingame one is a bit difficult.

If i do post more watercolor art that is actually in color, i can learn to mix darker skin tones better. Apologies

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My love for sailors is gender adjacent i just dont know how yet

Anyway look at this cool captain hat ive had for a bit now. I got it at a vintage store. Not a sailor hat but yknow, its also very nice to have

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the idea of resetting my acnh island for the 1000th time. I could go strict nautical..., i can make it look lije a boat oooo i love sailorss

Literally no villagers match this theme (except for del) so i just go by who i think looks cool And most of the time its either cranky villagers or villagers that had their base species model modified (those ones are sooo coolll)

I love Del, hes the only one who has a reserved spot. apparently hes somewhat navy themed and while i loved him before knowing that i love him even more now.

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☁️!I LOVE TREATS!☁️

And because of my love of treats im seen as a greedy bastard when it comes to those box of icecreams. Theres a cheat code to making me not eat 3 per day.

Just say the magic words "You can have the last one" Thats it, all you gotta do is say and promise that and ill eat less. I eat so many out of fear yknow? What if they're all gone by tomorrow??? what if i get up and waste my time only to see an empty box? What if i didnt savor the last one i ate??

Letting me have the last one fixes that. I know ill have the last one so then i can savor it and not be sad when i see the empty box. Super duper easy, cant believe no one has found this cheat code yet, its like they cant read minds or somethin.

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Quotev always makes me chuckle when im bored out of my mind, I love this shit

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Yknow the more time i spend living the more relatable Monika is in general. Yuri used to be my favorite girl but god Monika speaks to the hatred i feel for feeling hyper aware.

I need to draw her sometime

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Cat stares intensely at wall with curtain. I stare too. Cat looks around and constantly goes in curtain. I dont dare to check. Cat swats somethint behind curtain. I dont move curtain, I just hope it isnt too big and doesnt fly.

EDIT: FUCK I THINK IT CAN FLY PLEASE BE A MOTH AND NOT A COCKROACH

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🐚Raiders Frye🐚

I rarely posts colored posts nowadays but i also rarely color watercolor with actual colors. So. Colored post

Good for you, Frye!

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Today is so awful. And now i have a cavity on my molar. AWSOME!!!! JUST WHAT I NEEDED!!!!! CHIPPED TOOTH IN THE FRONT AND DECAY IN THE BACK! LETS GOOO

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Okay. Last one for today. NEW SHIBOYUGI CONTENT. oh and its an hour long. This could be old news idk but i just saw it. ill watch it later i need a snack to watch it with. New fanart coming in soon once i do

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i think im asexual.

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Straight up eating banana slices and mini pancakes with no syrup WHILE sitting criss-cross apple sauce.

Doesnt get much more badass then this. This is peak masculinity. Im in my prime form at this very moment

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☁️Self hating and justifying self hatred and shiz☁️

[This delves into body issues and the like, and how my brain feels like it needs to justify hating its body to itself so uh]

Yknow i remember watching something, and someone said something along the lines of "Your self deprecation hurts others like you, not just you." And wow that sucks to acknowledge. Thats just kinda implanted in my mind forever. Id say i rarely pick myself apart outloud, its only a brain thing, and despite my thoughts not being able to be read, i still feel the need to justify myself.

Like, "yes, bodies are beautiful, but mine isnt, but those like mine are, but mine just isnt it doesnt apply to this rule because im a special case". This happens everytime in my brain and i hate it.

My brain has been ruined by one line, Im aware of my own self loathing and how bad it is. its awful. This should be a good thing, but it just isnt. It makes me feel even worse and thats so odd.

Its an "Im special" thing but instead of it being a good special its bad. Im not above the norm, im below. Its intresting, technically ive been doing this for years now, but when the loathing is specifically about the body it feels so wrong. I feel so alien looking but if this body was anothers i wouldnt hate it at all, im sure of it, i dont get why i have to hate it on me. Why is my skin only ugly when its attached to this brain.