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Im sorry but idc if it goes against my masc/butchyness, if i see a fat roach the size of my HAND im running on a table and squealing. Im fine with smaller bugs but BIG ONES? no. FUCK NO.

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Carnivore By Cattrigger is a pretty cool game, idk it made me feel like i could make my own game in the future for some reason.

very nice, pretty morbid, pretty sweet

i liked the fish. Im gonna draw the fish now.

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🦴Reflect On your Reflex🦴

You can see misos fish hook peeking out, even when shes not here she is.

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Getting comfortable with the trans self new names

Very funny timing/month but uhh yea, that. It wasnt really a sudden thing, honestly ive been slowly getting used to myself for like two years but i finally feel like im gettin somewhere.

I guess all it really took for me to be happy was hearing someone who used to know me before i really saw myself as trans to simply just... call me by a new name. im a very simple creature when it comes to happiness.

Im suprised they called me by the name because i only brought it up in a jokey context (That context being where i got the new name and how its very dumb) once, it wasnt even like a push for them to call me it either, it was just a funny story to me. i really didnt expect them to just call me it so simply afterwards, like no questions no nothing. I dont even think they fully know im trans either they're just chill like that.

Very neat, Very cool

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I need someone to make a fish shaped ita bag IMMEDIATELY. I camt take it anymore, i need a sailor related its bag or im going to explode. Im frekaing im ahoit to cry on call i need tjis. PLEASE OR BOAT SHAPED PELASDE

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✒️Its getting worse im turning into miso✒️

I think i like doing the traditional posts in a more grayer tone. I dislike how much free space is on the page but the only things i can think to fill that space is filler doodles

i dont like having too many filler doodles on a page

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If you have a customization/dress up feature in your game i BETTER see options that allow me to look like a sailor

More on that, If you have the option for me to look like a sailor dont make the hat 800 BRONZE SCALES.

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✒️Mostly Miso✒️

Drawing with no sketch might be the best thing for me, i dont gotta worry about ruining a good pencil sketch if i just start with permanent mistakes

very freeing i recommend

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🦴Bone and Marrow🦴

I got a watercolor pen/brush thing, expect more traditional art even though im bad at making it look good

Miso looks like a little lass here. Babies first day of living

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Im my ocs, My ocs are me, and no one gets this feeling

I really wish i bought that sailor hat when i was out with a friend vintage shopping, id wear it right now

I put alot of myself into my ocs, If i ever get a camera that'll become very obvious because alot of them literally wear the clothes i wear. Even some of the no names ive made have this design quirk. Most of them have a specific part of me inside them story wise, like miso for example, when i was younger i was really into fish and nowadays depending on the situation they're in i get really uncomfortable seeing them

So in a sense my ocs are me. The part where its hard to explain is that im my ocs. Since i put so much of myself in them and the fact that they are they're own character in other ways, that all gets mixed up and i find myself trying to act or look like them.

Its weird and this post makes no sense and im sorry, im just kinda losing it over here cuz at this point in time i dont know if im doing something, buying something, or whatever because thats what i wanna do or if its because its what a character of mine would do.

When i type it it sounds so simple snd i hate that i cant get through how complicated this is to me. I dont think this is a mental thing, i think i just do so little in my life i find myself acting like fictional characters because they're characterization is so much easier to understand. If you asked me to describe myself personality wise i wouldn't know how to answer. Everything i do is me characterizing myself into something simpler and easy to understand. Have you seen the difference in how i say stuff between my two blogs, if you scroll down on this one far enough you'll see how i typed back then too. Id like to pretend and say that its just like how social media personalities put on a character online compared to they're actual selves but no. Thats it. There is no actual me here. Im just a big colony of characters ive made up based on my own quick thoughts, interests, or fears.

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🎼Sliced🎼

This design is my favorite of the new ones. I think its just as good as the original actually.

This is very similar to a scrapped drawing of sayaka i did back in January, which was scrapped because of me hating lineart. Im still proud of it, despite it never being finished, so im showing it off now

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🗝Crutch🗝

Not much to say about this one. I liked doing the bandages, honestly might draw like... sayaka from madoka magica next because i think the bandages are the best part here.

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Ya boy got the game

Ya boy about to either post several times a week or not at all for a few months

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⚙️The old and the new⚙️ version one

I miss them, i miss them alot. Im gonna go rewatch pink bxxch club and the one off videos again. its been a bit.

Version two

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Its that time of year again. Watching every new preparing for artfight related video and tutorials only to not join in

I love this time of year

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🦴To the Bone🦴

Somewhat a refrence to a movie i like, that said movie being the reason i feel discomfort seeing fish in certain ways and why fish related horror is something im intrested in

Which probably means that movie also had a hand in this ocs existence in her current story.

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Do you think im looking it up to stare at it longingly? Do you think im gonna reach through the screen and smoke a fat one? Can i purchase one through here?

Im tired of you thinkin you know whats best for me, pintrest....