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One certain thing in adulthood is perhaps there will always be upcoming surprising surprise no matter how much we anticipate that.

It looks like everytime I try to get away from a difficult phase, I encounter other difficulties.

In the end of the day, I think it's just how life has always been and will always be: difficult.

There's no way to get away from it. No matter how hard we try.

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Privilege and The Future Natural Selection

Beberapa bulan yang lalu saya membaca buku berjudul “Uninhabitable Earth”, sebuah buku non-fiksi karya David Wallace-Wells yang bercerita tentang kondisi bumi yang semakin tidak layak dihuni. 

Saya gak akan bercerita tentang buku itu sih disini, tapi ada satu poin yang saya ingat banget dari buku itu: salah satu hal yang menyebabkan kondisi bumi yang tidak semakin layak dihuni adalah adanya perubahan iklim (yang menjadi poin utama buku ini), dan warga bumi yang akan mendapatkan dampak paling berat adalah warga di negara berkembang dan tidak memiliki akses menuju kehidupan yang layak, bahkan sebelum dampak itu datang. Kurang lebih seperti itu yang saya tangkap.

Hal itu tiba-tiba muncul di kepala saya ketika melihat kondisi masyarakat di kala pandemi ini. Tidak semua orang memiliki coping mechanism terhadap era normal baru. Tidak semua orang mampu memiliki pekerjaan yang hanya bisa dilakukan dari rumah, banyak anak sekolah yang tidak memiliki akses yang cukup terhadap internet, dan bahkan tidak semua orang mampu membeli masker untuk bisa mereka gunakan setiap hari. 

Memang, COVID19 tidak muncul secara langsung karena adanya perubahan iklim, tapi intinya karena perbuatan manusia juga kan, dan orang-orang yang paling terdampak adalah orang yang rentan, kurangnya akses terhadap kesehatan, kemiskinan, dan tentu saja privilese.

Poin dari buku itu terus menempel di kepala saya, karena memang kejadian-kejadian katastrofi yang disebutkan kemungkinan besar akan muncul di masa depan, mengingat manusia yang tidak juga merubah kebiasaannya. Sehingga saya berpikir, apa yang harus saya lakukan dari sekarang agar saya mendapatkan dampak yang seminimal mungkin dan masuk ke dalam golongan orang yang bertahan kelak? Andaikata akan terjadi seleksi alam, maka saya ingin masuk ke dalam kelompok yang bisa beradaptasi. 

Tidak dapat dipungkiri, salah satu caranya adalah uang. Dengan uang atau aset lainnya, kita akan mampu memiliki akses yang layak terhadap kesehatan, kebersihan, dan keamanan. Ini sudah jelas. 

Satu lagi adalah privilese. Memiliki uang bisa membeli privilese, tapi memiliki privilese tidak berarti harus beruang banyak. Berada di tempat kerja yang menyediakan kehidupan yang layak merupakan privilese, memiliki kampung halaman di area yang (sekiranya) sedikit terdampak bencana, juga privilese. Sedikit banyak privilese itu nasib yang menentukan. 

Tinggal kita pikirkan saja kita lebih banyak punya yang mana saat ini dan nanti. Yang jelas ini sudah ada di kepala saya saat ini dan tentu saja PR juga bagi saya kalau mau bertahan hidup di masa depan nanti.

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Being a surrogate mother for orphan orangutans

Working with orangutans will always be pleasantful and is a wonderful experience for me to have. Now I work with orphan orangutans in the rehabiitation center to have them ready for the reintroduction into the wild.

Basically we teach them to have forest skills in order for them to survive and thrive in the wild. And being their teachers is new to me!

We have three classes of orphans, divided by the age and the skills they need to acquire at that age. In the morning they wake up, the babies will get milk and breakfast, meanwhile the infants and jouveniles only get breakfast. They’ll get low proteins breakfast in the morning so they’ll starve and go looking for food in the forest. In the late afternoon, they get snacks and dinner.

I always reflect the current behaviour they have now with the behaviour they should show in the wild-forest (release site) later, ones of those are climbing the tree and use the tree as a safe and comfort place. However, human-raised orangutans can never get the same education from the wild-born ones. Humans are handicapped with what they only have. We don’t have long fingers to hold on to the branch, to climb, to swing by the canopy like they do. Meanwhile, wild mother orangutans always carry their babies as they move from one canopy to the others.

In that way, we can only stimulate the orphans to behave like that, to be always up in the tree, build a nest, forage for food, roam broadly. 

Another case, wild-born orangutans will always have one mother who’ll take care of them. But with humans, they will have several mothers, because we can’t always nurture them all the time. We have different lifestyle and therefore it’ll affects their psychological aspect as well. Sometimes they need to share the mom, if we don’t have enough caretakers in a day. I believe it’ll very difficult for them, to not have one exclusive mother only for them.  

Deep inside, I always want for them to have the best and most similar education they can get from the wild mother, but us, humans, cannot to that. The least we can do is climbing the not so high tree, teach them how to build a sleeping nest and if we want to go higher we need to put our tree climbing gear, which not everyone can do that. 

In orangutans’ forest school here, we want to provide and give the maximum efforts but they can never get 100% ideal education from humans. Even when they want to play the way they play, we won’t reach their standards and they need to understand that humans are not they should be having social contact with, but they need to play with their mothers!

Being a surrogate mother for an orphan is challenging and full of responsibility. It’s like you raise a child but you talk different language. We need to think how we can deliver our messages and they understand what we mean. 

But I love every second of it! 

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How Wildlife Conservation taught me to love

Semenjak kerja di bidang wildlife conservation, saya jadi mengerti satu hal yang mendasari seseorang untuk menjadi conservationist: cinta tanpa harus memiliki. 

Working in wildlife conservation has taught me that. I work in orangutan conservation programme, and everytime I observe them, I love them more. I feel like I wanna keep one of them in my house. I want to posses them. But what we think is happiness for us, doesn’t always mean the same for another human or living creatures. Mungkin saja orangutan tersebut mendapatkan perawatan terbaik yang bisa saya berikan, tapi belum tentu mereka merasakan bahagia dan sejahtera. Untuk hal ini tentu saja sudah jelas, karena rumah mereka adalah rimba di luar sana yang sangat luas dan bisa dengan bebas mereka jelajahi. 

That way, conservation taught me to love them in another way possible. To let them roaming free in the forest and away from our hug is their happiness. I can see very clearly that by wandering around, foraging for food and swinging by the lianas they reach their happiness. The eyes can’t lie, tho. 

Looking back to the reason why I even wanna work in wildlife conservation: morality. I want the other living creatures that live and thrive until now in the earth are having the same opportunity to enjoy what this mother earth has provided. It’s their rights anyway, human is not the only species that has the right to take all of the source in earth. I think I already have the love from the first place. 

It’s just that I love the orangutans so much so I work my ass off from them. There are some points in my life that I realize that I only work for orangutans and my love for them. Even some nights I wanna climb up the tree and sleep with them at night.

I guess that is how genuine I can be when it comes to loving. :p

[chaandaniya]

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Unexpected Difficulties during Adulthood

Reality hits me harder than I ever thought it would be.

Fuck.

I never thought I would be surrounded by desperation. Fuck, again.

((Sorry for my words))

Saya rasa, dalam proses setiap manusia menjadi dewasa, ada kesulitan-kesulitan baru di setiap tahapan yang akan membawa kita ke kesulitan berikutnya.

Bagi saya saat ini, kesulitan tersebut adalah perasaan kesepian.

Namun, bukanlah tentang perasaannya yang paling berat bagi saya saat ini but how I cope with the feelings. I barely adapt in this new environment: work, friends, colleagues, and pressure. The problems sure arise, not that big tho, but still, this whole new things makes me to cope differently with my problems.

For example, I used to have a cup of coffee, go to a bookstore, or meeting my friend(s) to talk it out.

But, I don’t have that all in here. This is really hard for me. Now I don’t know how to alter the feelings. The only choice for me now is to choose not to have the feelings. But again, that is very hard. I’m all alone and I don’t have friends to talk with, or places to go to.

Fuck.

I’m longing for that deep talk in the late of night, to engage in a deep conversation with  a right person, or people. I’m longing to have that feeling which my soul feels complete. I want to have that friend.

Sure loneliness is the most unbearable thing for me right now. I don’t deny the fact that a human being will always be alone no matter how many friends they have, how broad they socialize, when we die, we don’t bring our friends into the grave. However, this loneliness is really hard to cope with for me.

That doesn’t mean I need to get married soon, tho. I believe even in the present of other people, loneliness can still exists. It’s just we need to find the right person or situation to not feel that. To feel complete. 

I wish I will feel it soon.

I wish I will find ways to cope with this soon.

Balikpapan, 13 Juni 2020

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Lesson from the forest #2 : Peka terhadap lingkungan

Dewasa ini, menjadi peka terhadap lingkungan mungkin susah untuk dilakukan, terutama oleh orang-orang yang tinggal di kota besar, dengan pace yang sangat cepat. Zaman sekarang, orang sibuk dengan tujuan dan pencapaiannya masing-masing. Mereka gak akan melihat hal-hal di pinggir jalan yang dilalui untuk mencapai tujuan-tujuan tersebut.

Namun, tinggal di hutan membuat saya peka terhadap berbagai hal, karena kepekaan ini sangat diperlukan agar saya tetap bisa bertahan hidup. Contohnya, saat saya di dala hutan saya harus menjaga mata, telinga, dan kaki saya agar tetap awas. Jangan lengah. Terutama mata dan telinga, harus peka dalam membaca situasi. Mata harus siaga agar bisa mencari jalan aman, tepat, dan cepat dalam mencapai tujuan. Telinga juga dibutuhkan untuk membaca tanda bahaya. Beberapa tanda di alam perlu benar-benar diperhatikan agar dapat diterima dengan baik oleh indera. Seperti bunyi gemuruh, pohon rebah, tanah longsor, dan suara satwa liar, terkadang dibutuhkan kejelian dala mendengarnya. Orang yang tidak terbiasa berada dalam hutan mungkin tidak akan bisa mendengar hal-hal tersebut, padahal suara-suara itu bisa menandakan bahaya. Kalau saya tidak peka mungkin saya tidak akan bisa menghindari bahaya.

Melatih kejelian mata dalam melihat juga penting, karena beberapa tanda bahaya tidak terlihat semudah melihat awan hitam tanda turun hujan. Beberapa tanda seperti cakaran beruang, jejak satwa, sarang babi, bahkan tanda semak yang telah dilalui babi, tidak semudah itu terlihat. Hal-hal ini mungkin terlihat kecil dan sepele, tapi justru tanda ini menceritakan banyak sekali hal. Agak gak nyambung, tapi ini juga pentingnya kita belajar perilaku satwa liar. Banyak sekali perilaku satwa di alam yang menunjukkan tanda-tanda khusus bagi mahluk hidup lainnya.

Intinya, peka itu penting untuk bertahan hidup. Dan saya rasa ini gak berlaku hanya di hutan ya. Bertahan di kehidupan sosial juga butuh kepekaan terhadap lingkungannya. Mungkin kalau kita berperilaku peka terhadap orang lain, menunjukkan empati, itu bisa menjadikan kita diperlakukan sama juga, yang tentu saja akan menjadi tabungan di kemudian hari.

Saya baru merasakan apa yang dimaksud dengan perilaku tenggang rasa yang pernah diajarkan di pelajaran PPKn bertahun lalu lamanya.

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My family in the forest.

Being the only girl living in a remote place, in the middle of the jungle, accompanied by men, isn't that easy. However, these people made my days so memorable, fun, and sometimes boring lol. Without them, I wouldn't have survived life.

The most remarkable things they ever did to me is to take care of me during my PMS time, how they coped with my period cramps and mood swings. They even didn't hesitate to go buying me some menstrual pads and jamu (Kiranti).

We were like family. We did everything to each others because we want to. No matter how much money we have, we don't care. Because we only have each other to rely on. To survive in the jungle. Kind of sweet, isn't it?

I miss you guys.

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Lesson from the Forest : #1 another way to survive life

Beberapa minggu terakhir ini saya baru saja mengalami transisi. Setelah keluar dari hutan dan akhirnya memutuskan untuk kembali pulang ke rumah, saya membutuhkan banyak sekali adaptasi di lingkungan urban.

But surprisingly, I like it more to live in the forest. Like, literally in the middle of the forest, in the remote area. Saya merasakan banyak sekali perubahan dalam cara saya memandang dunia dan kehidupan sosial ini. Tbh, saya kaget sekali melihat cara orang bersosialisasi akhir-akhir ini. Apalagi media sosial yang dibanjiri dengan berbagai hal yang sangat materialistis. Banyak sekali saya temukan orang-orang senang membagikan hal-hal yang menyenangkan dan terkesan materialistis disana. Awalnya, saya kira ya orang-orang tersebut memang sekedar senang saja berbagi. Ternyata, itu adalah salah satu bagian dari panjat sosial. Media sosial menjadi ajang pamer bagi segelintir orang agar diterima di lingkungan sosialnya. Dan untuk beberapa lagi, mungkin itu salah satu cara untuk tetap bertahan hidup.

Namun, bagi saya, cara seperti itu bukanlah cara yang benar dan tepat untuk bertahan hidup. Materi tak selamanya menjamin keberlangsungan hidup manusia. Well, I learnt a lot in the forest. To survive means I have to be able to make connections and engagement with people. Its not necessarily to have money, kita hanya perlu bisa menjalin hubungan dan berusaha mempertahankan hubungan baik tersebut. Dalam hal ini, menjadi orang yang baik adalah penting, karena beberapa hal dihitung dari kebaikan kita. Contoh, in order to survive in a harsh life in the forest, I need to maintain good connections and friendship with people there. I need to make friends, I need to be a good friend and person. Without that, no one would bother befriended me. Because when I’m in help, who else will save me? Ketika saya harus masuk hutan dengan segala risiko bencana dan binatang buas, siapa lagi yang bisa saya andalkan untuk pertolongan? Bagaimana saya bisa bertahan hidup di hutan tanpa bantuan dan pertolongan teman-teman saya? Disanalah saya merasa bahwa materi bukanlah hal yang sangat penting dalam bertahan hidup connection is. Engagement is. Even though in some cases we need money to maintain the relations. But again, it’s not necessarily. Kita tidak mesti jadi orang kaya, menjadi orang baik sangatlah cukup.

Dan tentu saja, setelah keluar dari hutan pun saya menerapkan hal ini dalam keseharian saya. Saya gak peduli apa yang orang lain pamerkan dan tunjukkan, segemerlap apa pun dunia disana, saya tidak akan masuk ke dalamnya. Saya sudah cukup mengetahui cara bersosialisasi tanpa harus melihat materi dan segala hal yang ditunjukkan.

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Essential Movies for a Student of Philosophy - Movie List

I'm not talking about movies that make you think deep crazy stuff. I'm not talking about some new "existential twist" on common topics. I'm talking…

Movies featuring a philosopher: Zizek! Examined Life Derrida The Ister The Pervert’s Guide To Cinema Being In The World (2010)

Movies with philosopher as a character: Bill And Ted’s Excellent Adventure (2001) (Tony Steedman as Socrates) When Neitzsche Wept (2007) (Armand Assante as Friedrich Nietzsche) The Last Days Of Immanuel Kant (1994) (David Warrilow as Immanuel Kant) The Alchemist Of Happiness (2004) (Abol Reza Kermani as Ahmad al-Ghazali) Um Estrangeiro em Porto Alegre (1999) (Nelson Diniz as Albert Camus) Cartesius (Ugo Cardea as René Descartes) Blaise Pascal ( Pierre Arditi as Blaise Pascal) Socrates (Jean Sylvère as Socrates) Socrates (1982) (James Mason as Socrates) Augustine Of Hippo (Dary Berkani as St. Augustine) Beyond Good & Evil (Erland Josephson as Friedrich Nietzsche) Wittgenstein (Clancy Chassay as Young Ludwig Wittgenstein) Alexander (Christopher Plummer as Aristotle)

Famous thought experiments or discussion of a famous philosophical problem: Rashomon – General intro to Subjectivity/Objectivity Groundhog Day – Modern interpretation of The Myth of Sisyphus Being There – Socially constructed reality; what I like to call The Problem of Communication Being John Malkovich – The Inescapable Subjectivity of the Human Mind I ♥ Huckabees – Loose Adaptation of the History of Philosophy in Narrative Form A.I. – Any movie that has robots that think like humans will do Eternal Sunshine – Materialism; Metaphysics of Memories Minority Report – Freewill/Determinism The Matrix – Most people will say this is all based on Plato’s cave. I think Cartesian Dualism is a closer influence. The main reason for this is that one is not in the same body when in the Matrix as without. The distinction between consciousness and body was brought up famously by Descartes. The Truman Show – This is the true home of Plato’s Cave in modern movies. Although Truman never leaves the cave, a reality which he has only experienced as a shadow is implied and shown briefly. Thank You for Smoking – Pre-Socratic/Postmodern Rhetoric A Clockwork Orange – Person Identity; Political Theory; Justice; blah blah blah Lake Of Fire – Ethical considerations of abortion Inception – This film is brand new and is at the center of fierce discussion, which is the life blood of philosophical inquiry. As for the topics it raises itself: Although it can be argued that Nietzsche preceded Freud in discovery of the unconscious, the Freudian version is forefront in Inception. Freud’s psychoanalytic method had much to do with dreams and how they affect and describe us. Also, Cartesian skepticism, or The Problem of The External World, comes to surface. Pi – The Ontology of Numbers Waking Life – This feels more obligatory than anything else on here. If I include Alexander and Bill and Ted, I guess this one deserves to be here as well. But with all its pretension it actually offers a somewhat realistic cross section of the philosophical academic experience. Some thinkers sound like they are brilliantly laying out real solutions to real problems, some seem like they may be saying something insightful but are just not articulate enough, some are just too esoteric to tell and some are just simply on drugs. Stranger Than Fiction – The Authentic Individual Ikiru – Being-unto-death The Seventh Seal – The Angst Of The Absurd The Gods Must Be Crazy – I can’t even count how many times this movie was referenced in discussions about “Being and Time” by Martin Heidegger. The coke bottle is a piece of equipment that suddenly lands in a culture without the referential totality of coke bottles. As such, for the bushmen, the coke bottle ceases to be equipment though it retains readiness-to-hand as its mode of being.

Movies featuring the ideas of particular philosophers: Nietzsche (2003) My Night At Maud’s Nietzsche and the Nazis (2006)

Movies based on Novels written by famous philosophers: The Stranger (by Albert Camus) Le Journal Du Séducteur (1996) (by Soren Kierkegaard) The Fountainhead (by Ann Rand)

Other: The Elegant Universe (2003) M.A. Numminen Sings Wittgenstein (1993) M.A. Numminen, accompanied by Pedro Hietanen, sings an excerpt from Ludwig Wittgenstein’s Tractatus Logico-Philosophicus in his inimitable style. -imdb

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Noted!!

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Yeay I’m back!

after years not opening this page, now I’m here doing what I used to be doing back than! Yeaahhh

Quite surprised tho when I entered the URL and it was opened!

I’m not blocked! Yeaay

[mymodernmet]

44 Colorful Landscapes Highlighting the Unbelievably Natural Beauty of Earth

[scientificphilosopher]

Happy Earth Day!

[nakedly]

“And once the storm is over, you won’t remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. you won’t even be sure, whether the storm is really over. but one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm, you won’t be the same person who walked in. That’s what this storm’s all about.”

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haruki murakami, kafka on the shore

it makes you stronger than ever

(via astound)

[c0ntemplations]

Chin up. You never know, sometimes it’s a surprisingly short walk from nowhere to somewhere.

note to self (via c0ntemplations)

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Cuma bisa buka tumblr lewat app. Ada yang bisa ngasih tahu cara buka tumblr lewat browser di laptop?

Gak nyaman banget ngetik di hape banyak-banyak. Huhuhu

Thanks guys

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Beautiful us

Aitch 

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Over a 16-year period, about half of the orangutans living on the island of Borneo were lost as a result of changes in land cover. That’s according to estimates reported in Current Biology on February 15 showing that more than 100,000 of the island’s orangutans disappeared between 1999 and 2015.

Many of those losses were apparently driven by the demand for logging, oil palm, mining, paper, and associated deforestation. However, many orangutans have also disappeared from more intact, forested areas, the researchers say. Those findings suggest that hunting and other direct conflicts between orangutans and people remain a major threat to the species.

“The decline in population density was most severe in areas that were deforested or transformed for industrial agriculture, as orangutans struggle to live outside forest areas,” says Maria Voigt of the Max Planck Institute for Evolutionary Anthropology in Germany. “Worryingly, however, the largest number of orangutans were lost from areas that remained forested during the study period. This implies a large role of killing.”

Maria Voigt, Serge A. Wich, Marc Ancrenaz, Erik Meijaard, Nicola Abram, Graham L. Banes, Gail Campbell-Smith, Laura J. d’Arcy, Roberto A. Delgado, Andi Erman, David Gaveau, Benoit Goossens, Stefanie Heinicke, Max Houghton, Simon J. Husson, Ashley Leiman, Karmele Llano Sanchez, Niel Makinuddin, Andrew J. Marshall, Ari Meididit, Jukka Miettinen, Roger Mundry, Musnanda, Nardiyono, Anton Nurcahyo, Kisar Odom, Adventus Panda, Didik Prasetyo, Aldrianto Priadjati, Purnomo, Andjar Rafiastanto, Anne E. Russon, Truly Santika, Jamartin Sihite, Stephanie Spehar, Matthew Struebig, Enrique Sulbaran-Romero, Albertus Tjiu, Jessie Wells, Kerrie A. Wilson, Hjalmar S. Kühl. Global Demand for Natural Resources Eliminated More Than 100,000 Bornean Orangutans. Current Biology, 2018; DOI: 10.1016/j.cub.2018.01.053

Female Borneo Orangutan at the Semenggoh Nature Reserve, Kuching.Credit: © R.M. Nunes / Fotolia