call me sj

sawyer james vansanten 25 // oxford law student // married father to amber brooklyn due december 27th

[sj-vansanten]

text → Fratello Preferito 🇮🇹

Matt: Calm down and breath SJ

Matt: Remember how scared I was when i discovered i was a dad and i have Romeo? It's normal to be scared.

Matt: That's a normal reaction. I have Ev to help me out and he has been a dad twice so am lucky but you are not doing it alone. You will be a good dad, i am still figuring it out myself honestly. You have Ro, me, Ev and Naomi to help out

SJ: There’s literally a fucking living, breathing human baby girl inside of Ro right now. Who’s going to need us 24 hours a day. Its starting to set in and I feel like I’m going to faint. Did you feel like this with Romeo?

SJ: Yeah, I do remember.

SJ: I know. And I know Ro will be a fantastic mother and I’m not alone...I know she and I can do this together. But fuck, I’m still scared, Matt.

SJ: I hope I’ll be a good dad. I’m going to do everything I can to try. I already love her, I know I’ll love her in a way I’ve never felt before. Ro and I made her. Out of love...and I know you’ll help me...but God, Jesus I’m scared. Even though I wanted this. I still do. I want to be a father, a good one. As good as you are to your sons.

[sj-vansanten]

text → Fratello Preferito 🇮🇹

SJ: Dude...I’ve never needed you more as my brother than I do right now.

SJ: Ro is over six months now. Amber is kicking...she’s growing so fast. I’m afraid to say anything to Ro, but I’m scared as fuck.

SJ: I’m so scared. That in 4 months there’s going to be a little girl depending on me day and night. How the fuck do you do it with two kids?

SJ: I didn’t have a good dad. How am I supposed to be one?

[sj-vansanten]

Sawyer ‘SJ’ VanSanten’s family tree ;

 ( from left to right )

Cordelia Loretta De Luca || mother - age 49

Ian James VanSanten || father - age 50

Amber Josephine VanSanten || twin sister - died at age 24

Sawyer James ‘SJ’ VanSanten || self - age 25

Valeria Irene Dudnik VanSanten || step mother - age 44

Craig Mitchell Yorke || step father - age 50

Alannah Jane Yorke || half sister through mother - age 6

Matthew Owen Smith-Stone || half brother through mother - age 33

Andrew Jackson Yorke || half brother through mother - age 10

Sasha Marian VanSanten || half sister through father - age 4

Roman Elias VanSanten || half brother through father - age 2

[sj-vansanten]

the start of forever // rosyer November 10th, 2017

[sj-vansanten]

rxsina:

Rosina had donned a white sundress as she relaxed on the bed. Her hair was up and she was keeping a simple look. She wore more dresses since she was starting to show. Rosina enjoyed the trip, but she was more and more tired lately.

“Hm?” She got up a bit and glanced to him. Rosina giggled as she sat up, geting off the bed and waddled to him.

“Sawyer, you could wear anything. It’s going to be okay. I did pack you an outfit. Just a dress shirt and pants. But you don’t have to wear it love.” She said as she caressed her loves cheek. She jumped as she laughed.

“Amber just kicked! Sawyer.. I.. I think she just kicked!” She immediately grabbed his hand and placed it onto her swollen abdomen.

“You look beautiful.” He said as his fiancee walked into the bathroom. Sawyer couldn’t believe he was lucky enough to be marrying her, and he never in a million years thought she’d ever be into him. But here he was about to marry her while she was pregnant with their daughter.  “I know, but I want to look put together. If there’re any pictures of us, my mom will kill me if I’m not wearing a custom Valentino suit,” he chuckled, although he wished he was joking. He wasn’t going to be wearing one, even if he had the time or his mother even knew this was happening, he’d say no. “You’re right, I’ll probably wear the dress pants.” The blonde nodded as she reminded him she brought it.  All thoughts escaped from his mind as Rosina said that their daughter had kicked. It was around the time she should’ve been moving, but for it to actually happen was so weird. “What?” He asked through a smile as he placed his hand on her lower abdomen, laughing as he felt a small flutter. “Oh my God, you’re right. She’s kicking.” Sawyer chuckled, leaning his forehead down against Ro’s as he left his hand where it was.

[sj-vansanten]

Sawyer & Amber VanSanten on stage performing with their band Twin Telepathy in Detroit, Michigan on 07/22/15.

[sj-vansanten]

the start of forever // rosyer November 10th, 2017

It felt so weird to be back in New York. Sawyer hadn’t been back in New York since his twin sister’s funeral in May. That was easily the hardest day of his entire life, but at least his brother and Ro had been by his side - and Ro, well she was the exact reason he was back here. There was no way he could’ve come home for the weekend without her. With their daughter on the way, things had really been put into perspective for SJ. They were having a baby, and of course he wanted it. He wanted nothing more than to start a family with Rosina, and even though he had sworn his entire life he’d never get married because of the damage his parents did on him, here they were. They were about to get married - and he wouldn’t have it any other way. SJ was in the bathroom in his old room getting ready, he couldn’t decide what to wear. Not that it would matter, right? They were eloping. “Babe, which outfit do you like better? Do you think I should just wear jeans? Or what?” He called from the bathroom, wanting Ro to rest before they left because he knew she was exhausted carrying their daughter. ( @rxsina ) 

[sj-vansanten]

guys night out || matt,sj&everettt

( @mattowens )

When his fiance mentioned guys night, at first Everett was nervous. He still didn’t know Sawyer all that well, but the guy was about to be his brother in law, so he knew he had to get to know him. Plus, SJ was Matt’s best friend, and he knew it was important because of that, too. Everett truly didn’t want to spend all night going over case files, so he agreed to go. As he and Matt walked to the bar he tucked his hands into his jacket pockets, letting out a sigh. “What’s the occasion? Celebrating our future niece?” He asked as he looked over to Matt. It still felt real to say that, especially because Everett had grown up with no siblings, and how he was about to legally have a niece. “I guess we better get him real drunk before his entire life changes, huh?” He teased, opening the door for Matt before they walked into the bar. Everett smiled as he spotted SJ, following Matt over to him at the bar. “Hey man, how’s it going?” He asked the blonde with a smile. “Congratulations on your cute little baby, welcome to the club.”

SJ got to the bar a little early, that wasn’t unusual for him. Honestly, as much as he loved his girlfriend, he needed to get out for the night. No better way to spend it than with his best friend, who also happened to be his brother. He knew how much his brother loved Everett, who in a month was about to be his brother in law, so he knew it was the right thing to do to invite Everett along to guys night. SJ ordered a couple beers, setting two beside him for when the they showed up. After seeing them walk in, he stood up to hug them both and greeted them with a smile. “Thanks man,” he said to Everett with a proud smile. “I can’t wait to meet her. Can you believe you’re having a niece?” He asked as he looked to his big brother. “I still can’t believe I’m going to be a dad. Holy shit...how do you guys do it?” He teased, sitting back down at the bar where their beers were.

[sj-vansanten]

text → Matt

Matt: I know. Romeo is already protective of him and i do believe they will have a strong brotherly bond and a relationship like ours

Matt: I know. A bar does sounds nice and i could go for a beer to night honestly

Matt: maybe somewhere not super busy and annoying

SJ: That's fucking adorable. That you guys are merging families. How does it feel to have two kids so soon?

SJ: Awesome. I could really use a beer too, house hunting with Ro has been so exhausting, but we have to move into a new place before she's too far along.

SJ: Agreed. So definitely not the bar I work at.

[rvbertv-deactivated20171125]

7x10

[sj-vansanten]

text → Matt

Matt: He is and he has almost started calling Evan his little brother now after i told him that Ev was going to also be his dad

Matt: Anywhere honestly

SJ: That's cute as fuck. I mean, legally he will be his little brother. I can see Romeo and Evan having a relationship like ours. Not traditional or anything but still a strong bond.

SJ: Clubs aren't really my scene, so should we just go to a bar and grab a beer?

[sj-vansanten]

text → Matt

Matt: She will be

Matt: Sure. I don't know if Everett is working tonight. If he is not then, i will bring him along. A guys night out

SJ: Is Romeo excited to have a baby cousin? He's probably still adjusting to Evan.

SJ: Okay. Sounds awesome. Where do you want to go?

[sj-vansanten]

Group Chat - [Ev and SJ and Naomi]

Matt: ...I can see the stubborn traits of the De Luca

Matt: Don't worry, it's not going to be all full blown De Luca Wedding. It's going to be small

Matt: Right now, i can't think of having another kid and i am happy with having two wonderful boys.

Everett: Is your entire family this stubborn? Hey, at least I fit right in.

Everett: Yeah guys, no big weddings happening in my lifetime. If it was up to me, Matt and I would've eloped already. I don't even want a wedding. (Except the one your planning is great, Naomi.)

Everett: Let's focus on SJ's baby before you guys expect another one from us.

Naomi: Yes, our entire family is this stubborn. Always has been.

Naomi: You'll love it, Ev. I promise...I can almost guarantee you'll be glad you had a wedding.

Naomi: Can we talk about how this baby is going to have the curliest hair ever? There's no way it won't with SJ's hair.

SJ: I'm not stubborn. :-)

SJ: I guess that's true. I don't know, though. My hair is pretty curly, but the baby is half Ro. Although Matt doesn't even have curly hair but somehow Romeo ended up with mine and Amber's curly hair. DNA is crazy shit.

[sj-vansanten]

text → Matt

Matt: It's crazy

Matt: I can understand.

Matt: We should celebrate. You're having a baby girl and going to be a dad

SJ: I can't wait to meet her. I know she'll be beautiful.

SJ: Fuck yeah. What are you doing tonight? You can bring Everett if you want.

[sj-vansanten]

text → Matt

Matt: OMG That's a great news

Matt: You're having a girl? Am So Happy for you :)

SJ: I can't believe I'm having a baby, and it's a girl.

SJ: I've never been spiritual or believed in fate, but I feel like Amber did this. Like she wanted Ro and I to be together and have a baby girl. I can't explain it.

[sj-vansanten]

text → Matt

SJ: I have news.

SJ: We found out the gender today...

SJ: You're going to have a niece. It's a girl.

[sj-vansanten]

♡1k 💬 884 comments ➢share post

sjvansanten (Not so) little announcement from the VanSanten family...everyone would’ve found out sooner or later, so I figured it’s time we introduce you to our baby girl, Amber. You’re only twelve weeks old and I already love you with all of my heart. Your mother is the love of my life, and knowing that the two of us made you while completely in love only makes my heart swell. From the minute we found out we were having a baby, I knew deep down that it was a baby girl. I could feel it in my soul, I dreamed about it...and here you are. We already love you more than life itself, and I can’t wait to hold you in my arms. It’s always been my dream to start a family and I couldn’t image doing it with anyone but Rosina. If your aunt was here, she would hold you, protect you with every ounce of strength she had, and ever let you go. I’m so glad we’ll be able to honor her by giving you her name. It’s a special one, but we knew without even thinking that it was the name for you. Newest edition to the VanSanten family is expected late 2017/early 2018. 👶🏼🎀💖

↳tags: @rxsina

[sj-vansanten]

Group Chat - [Ev and SJ and Naomi]

Matt: We're not Naomi (it's more of a recommendation and i know you hate it when we do) Promise you would take a break

Matt: Hey, time will fly by Ev and the wedding day will be here before you know. I know you hate waiting but thanks for though

Matt: Plus there are other ways of having kids (just saying)

SJ: Sorry that we're just looking out for you, Naomi. We're just trying to help, you need to sleep at some point.

SJ: No offense to either of you, but I'm ready for this wedding to happen and be over. You know I have fancy ass De Luca style weddings. I know Naomi's won't be as bad as they usually are, but...

SJ: Of course. You can adopt, get a surrogate....all of that - but you guys already have 2.