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Height:156cm      SW:48kg       CW:who da fuck knows        UGW:32?

[skinnyenviously]

It’s so hard trying to fast while also having an alcohol addiction. Haven’t been able to stay sober for more than a week and unfortunately alcohol las lots of empty calories. Been taking my anti-depressants again but don’t think I'll ever get out this cycle of binge drinking and then trying to not eat for days. Besides, the pills really won’t have the desired effect if I drink constantly. It’s so weird tho how my brain seems to think being skinny will make me happy again. Tbf, it did the last time lol

[skinnyenviously]

Need someone to motivate me into not eating. Could probs do it on my own but I I get easily lax when my family pushes me and I feel all alone. Don’t want a coach just someone to talk to about ana and their progress. 

[skinnyenviously]

No hot girl summer for meee. Gonna rot in my room and starve.

[skinnyenviously]

Feels so weird having known and felt what skinny is like and now I’m just a lump lol. Makes me not wanna show my face to anyone.

[skinnyenviously]

“Healthy” sucks

Left Tumblr weighing the lowest in my life thinking I’ll keep at this lifestyle forever. Now I’m back, 10kg heavier and trying to relapse. It’s crazy how my family basically forced me to “get better” just cause they were embarrassed about the comments they’d get saying they don’t feed me and shit. Crazy part was I thought I’d never get better because I just wasn’t gaining weight and couldn’t be assed to eat, but mum would guilt trip me so much that my appetite started coming back ig. Anyways wish me luck cause the weight I’ve got on me now makes me wanna slit my throat. Swear everything’s just so horrible now that I'm not underweight lol.

[skinnyenviously]

Wanna self-destruct so bad. Nothing is working out for me. Think I’ll drink like crazy and sh

[skinnyenviously]

I’m getting so fat it’s alarming. Literally contemplating locking myself in my room and staving for days, but my family would intervene ofc. I just feel so out of control.

[skinnyenviously]

I’m so lonely 🥲my best friend ignoring me for some reason and my ED making me feel useless. Ugh 😑

[skinnyenviously]

Hate myself so much. I’m not hungry at all and could honestly complete a 3 day fast if I wanted to but for some reason I always find myself eating. Hate myself so much.

[skinnyenviously]

God that feeling when your whole family is out the house and you can purge to your heart’s content 😍😍

[skinnyenviously]

Purged so bad today, but felt so fuxking good knowing I was gonna feel empty soon😳dunno if it’s just me but I kinda enjoy vomiting

[deadinparadice]

Don't ever hesitate. Reblog this. TUMBLR RULE. When you see it, REBLOG IT.

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[banana-ool-deactivated20211208]

oh no what’s this force on my reblog buttoonnn

[sortagaysortahigh]

THIS IS SO IMPORTANT !!!

[peoplehaterforever]

ALWAYS!!

[tiny-dainty-skinny]

best feeling? weighing yourself and seeing a lower number ✨

rb to see a lower number tomorrow morning!

[skinnyenviously]

I think both me and my scales are going crazy. Binged so bad yesterday because I hate myself and yet I’ve managed to lose like half a kilo overnight🤡 this just makes me hate my body even more, my body is just way too confusing and annoying to decipher.

[pocoshome]

REBLOG TO JOIN ED DISCORD!!!!

(You can also DM me if you don’t want your moots to see)

Rules :

- NEED TO BE 14+

- you need to have an ED

- No fatphobia!!!

- No fetishists

- Don't be a bigot

- No coaching

- Don't pressure anyone to share stats

- BE NICE TO EACH OTHER!!!

I don’t wanna just put the link on here cause I don’t want weirdos joining, I will send you the link personally <3

[skinnyenviously]

U know what hurts? The fact that even if I do lose tones of weight and have the body of my my fav model I’ll never be pretty. Shit hurts so much. My face is just so average that nothing can help it apart from surgery, which I can’t afford.

[skinnyenviously]

Wonder what my actual UG weight is🐒because I’m still not liking what I’m seeing so far. (Kinda wanna post some body checks but I’m scared I’ll get recognised by a specific family member who frequently roams this tag too🥲)