lol idk how many times i’ve said the words “i was trying to recover, but…” id been clean from sh for almost 3 years. i was making a real effort to recover from ana-r these past few months (since i almost died lol) i don’t have anything sharp so here’s my arm bc and scratches. i feel the need to share as documentation for myself— ik the scratches are virtually nothing physically, it’s just significant to me because i haven’t intentionally injured myself in quite a long time and it feels like a pretty big setback. im not sure atp whether or not it’s worth it to recover (for me). i don’t feel like myself when im trying to get rid of this stuff, but i feel like shit when i embrace it. i just hope anyone feeling something similar knows they’re not the only one. wishing the best for all of you <3