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let me feel pretty again (23) height:5'4 sw:215 cw:183.2 (3/20) gw:130 ugw:110

[dollysl-t-deactivated20230206]

ღDaily Rules, punishments and rewardsღ

800 calories limit daily

7000 step minimum

45 minute full body workout

heavily restrict junk food intake to one day a week

start making food for myself or skip dinner, no exceptions

8 hours of sleep

fast at least once a week

no sugary drinks, only diet or low cal

lose 1lb per week, failure to meet will result in punishment

don't eat any food offered to you

failure to complete any of these will result in punishment

punishments will include

extra 45 minutes of exercise

waking up earlier

sleeping on floor

purging

Rewards for doing these and reaching goal weights

140 - new pirceing!

120 - shopping spree!! cute new clothes, shoes, or hair color <3

105 - new game to play! can be any of your pick☆

95 - new shoes

Stay safe <3

[mscherrycola]

the feminine urge to completely destroy your health for beauty standards

[miyahertz]

Isnt it crazy how something like a stomach ache from hunger is kinda enjoyable with an ED?

Who would win, basic instincts such as "eat to live" or the lasting effects of people being mean?

[skinnyskinny20]

sorry to disappoint everyone, but I'm still a fat bitch, if you all could pls be sweet nice mean whatever the fuck i need some words of encouragement. I can't endure this constant fucking cycle anymore. Drop whatever tips have worked for you. I'm so fucking ugly and I'm not dealing with it anyone and i need to grow some fucking balls and get set in the right direction.

Currently what's encouraging me to do this is the simple fucking fact that the friends I have, always mentioned how beautiful this person or that person are and all I can do it simply smile and not say anything.....

I'm done. I'm so fucking done i can't do this shit anymore. I was once able to only eat one meal and exercise and be in shape so i know what i look like so i got to stop being so fucking lazy and being such a fat pig..

[skinnyskinny20]

another motivation to add to lose weight

I've just found out about Corpse Husband and fuck..I'm in love. Not just with his voice but his whole personality. He's so cute and funny! And has brought me back to middle school days where I was such a goth lol. Im gonna lose so much weight because I can't imagine myself with him like this. (Key word is imagine here lol not like I'm actually gonna meet him lol)

[skinnyskinny20]

Hello everyone so I weighed myself and I'm at 192.7lbs lost 2lbs lmao. Um but it's a start my new yoga mat is coming in tomorrow so I'm excited to start taking yoga more seriously! Also I've been eyeing Soylent for the longest time, Soylent is a meal replacement drink and it's only 400cals and I suck at counting calories so I think I might buy it so then I don't have to actually eat food!

[skinnyskinny20]

so these past two days I've done an 18 hour fast and tomorrow morning after I use the restroom I am going weight myself and see where I am at. Tbh I'm scared. Starting Saturday is where I'm going to workout. I need to gain back control like how I did earlier this year. My goal was to be 130 by this month. And I'm so disappointed with myself. But I can do it. I can reach 170 hopefully by the end of October or November, the goal is be by around 170~160 by the end of the year. Baby steps. I can do it.

[skinnyskinny20]

The guy I use to talk to back in highschool, I've been lurking through his Instagram. And he's done a full completely body transformation and fuck like that has help switch my mind up. Because I haven't seen him in like 4 years and I really don't ever want to run into him looking like the fat whale I am.. so I've been taking baby steps to start losing weight again so one day I can hit him up and we can go for a coffee and maybe catch up lmao

[skinnyskinny20]

so this is going to sound bad but do any of you all have any recommendations when it comes to laxatives? Being in a much smaller house I unfortunately can't purge as much I can, so I'm looking for alternatives!

[skinnyskinny20]

Hello

(this is going to be long)

As of May 2020 the lowest I weighed was 178.3lbs. The lowest ever. But as of June things turned.. We had to move homes and I had to drop my classes for the summer semester. Everything went overboard after that. It's ashame for me to say but in just 3 months I have gained a lot of weight. I now weigh 190.4lbs... I've realized that I have a major issue when it comes to my relationship with food. It's not a fun topic. I have been going through a lot of shit lately. And my mind has gained back control and has made food my friend.. if that makes sense. You see I'll admit it. I am a very lonely person. The only people I generally talk too is my family. I don't really have friends tbh. And well I've gotten the habit to think that food is comfort when Im in a position of trouble. I literally eat nonstop. I can't even bring myself to vomit because in our new house you can literally hear everything... Also school has given me so much stress since I am in my finally year of college. My mindset is that I just need C's in all my classes just so I can fucking graduate. Trust me I will not be going into that field once I graduate. I'd rather hurt myself, than to hurt others tbh. So it's been tough these couple of months. I can't seem to remember how I did manage to lose all that weight. I want to gain that mentally back again but my head has been spinning 24/7. I'm writing this because I thought I could look back and see what my progress was. Or maybe someone might be going through the same thing. I don't know. I really don't condone to anything. Pls know your risk when it comes to your relationship with food. I hope everyone is being safe. And pls take care of yourself, unlike me of course.

[waifish-ghost]

Can 20+ age Anas like/reblog? I just came back after getting deleted and need more people to follow again

[skinnyskinny20]

UPDATE

I'm finally at 180lbs!!!! FUCKKK yes! God that was so freaking hard! I've been fasting a lot and only eating dinner and I've weighted myself this past week just to make sure it was going up or down. But I am 180lbs!!! My new goal is lose ten pounds at the end of every month! I've also got in the trend to do Chloe Ting's workouts, I've started the slim thigh one yesterday so I'll keep updates on how that is going! I've also made it a habit to do yoga every morning I wake up and it's really refreshing! And as always water and green tea until 3pm and then I eat a small meal and then I workout and then since I have to go back to school next week I've been preparing myself and then dinner and no food after 8pm only tea and water and yeah that's my new plan and hopefully I'll be around 170lbs towards the end of May! The only thing that sucks though is that I tend to purge a lot and I'm really trying to control myself to not do that and I'm trying really so yeah.. Wish me luck!!!

[skinnyskinny20]

HEALTHY EATING TIPS

so I have the taste buds of a child. I'm literally the most pickiest eater ever! And it sucks really I want to combat it so I can try to eat healthier. So I'm asking for tips into how I can stop being so picky lmao. Pls help

[winter-anxieties]

my may rules/goals

this is just for me, posting to stay on track.

may starting weight: 160lbs (why’d i do this to myself)

rules

calorie intake: 800

calorie limit: 1,000

workout 5 days a week

vegetables and/or fruits in every meal

2 meals a day

no snacking

protein in every meal

no peanut butter (pb2 instead)

don’t cook with oil (use 0 cal spray)

weekday eating window: 4-8pm (20:4 IF)

weekend eating window: 2-8 pm (18:6 IF)

drink at least a liter of water daily

goals

lose 2.5 pounds a week

stay consistent

reach 150lbs

build workout stamina

stop purging

[unfilteredsel]

not to be That Person, but I will never ever let myself get this big ever again. I know what a bmi in the obese and overweight categories feel like, and once I get down to a safe and healthy bmi I will never let myself ever cross that line ever again. I'm convinced half the depression shit I went through in high school was linked to being so overweight and insecure and scared. never fucking again.

[miilkandcookies]

HOW TO STOP BINGING:

search on yt “mukbang cringe” see if you still have an appetite after that

chew some gum

drink warm water

go on a walk

do a quick 5 min exercise

look at thinspo

look at the calories of the food

sleep

call a friend

play a phone game

grab a pencil and start drawing

send an ask to your fav thinspo blog to send you meanspo/ sweetspo depending on how you prefer it

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remember that it’s okay to slip up at times but a good thing is that the less you binge the less you’ll crave so the less you eat sugary foods the less you’ll crave them

stay safe ❤️

[blooeating]

You know I cannot wait to start losing weight from my face!!

[skinnyskinny20]

ME TOO ME FUCKING TOO UGHHHH I HATE MY FAT FACE SO MUCH!