Skittish Believer est. 2010

I'm weird because I was made to be one. ♥ 

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"The acts of the flesh are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like. I warn you, as I did before, that those who live like this will not inherit the kingdom of God."

Galatians 5:19‭-‬21 NIV

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MAYBE I JUST NEEDED A BREAK...

I knew it wasn’t the end when I said goodbye. I just can’t fully commit from updating this site ‘cause I was starting the adult phase. So this stayed online and I never backed up everything nor planned to delete the whole thing. Guess I was hoping to resurrect it some time?

Maybe now’s the time...

‘cause hi I’m back!

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Goodbye!

It’s been more than a year since I last posted but I’ve been inactive for almost 2 years. I’d like to formally say goodbye to this account and I’m grateful for the experience, the readers, the people I’ve met, and the friendships I’ve made while I’m here.

Guess I’ll see you around!

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Snapchat: NEW YEAR 2016!

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This was a Snapchat video (obviously) last January on our way to Paranaque. It’s been so long since I went/passed here on my birthplace (Makati) so I just had to record it. There’s just something in some place that makes you feel like home. It automatically calls you even when you’re sleeping.

[wonderstruck]

It really drives me insane that I don’t know how people feel about me. Like am I nice??? Am I funny???? Am I mean???? Am I rude??? Am I obnoxious??? Am I dumb???? What am I????????????????????

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Nicolee~ <3

No matter how beautiful a picture puzzle is, it can only be fully appreciated if all the puzzle pieces are present, and I am grateful enough to say that this girl, this girl in front of me who’s turning up another year again, is one of the puzzle pieces that makes my life complete. Most of the time, we get to be annoyed by her overacting attitude towards shallow things. She always panic about something that can still be mended down. We all know the reason, she’s scared to disobey her parents’ instructions, that’s why. But apart from the negative sides of her characteristic, she is the sweetest and most thoughtful girl we have in our group. She never forgets anything about us and she’s always the early bird when it comes to greeting us in special occasions. She’s the sweetest keeper. Whenever we tell her that she’s going beyond the line again, she immediately gets nervous and says sorry and promises that it won’t ever happen again and that just proves how she values us in her life, how she courageously change her old bad habits into good ones because she does not want to lose us, her friends. For just a short time of being with each other I have known her so well already and I have proven that she’ll never turn her back on us no matter how far our distance is from each other. She’s there to support us in everything that we do, and she’s there to give us a lift whenever we feel very down. The happiness and security that we feel whenever she puts a hand on our shoulder or a light hug or even a pat in the back reminds us of her promise, that she exists, and she’ll never stop caring for us even if she dies. That’s what makes her the sweetest keeper. We’ll love her forever.

Another post that’s been in my drafts for a long time. I totally forgot how I managed to pile up these words together. I know that I’m still grieving during this time, and i’m just in denial with my feelings but through my actions I know that I’m getting depressed each day. I’ve been holding this for too long, I’ve been living in the past for too long. But right now I can assure myself that it’s over. I finally accepted things as they are and I finally stopped blaming myself from what happened. I feared too much about forgetting her that I also forgot that I’m still alive, but right now I’m better, and I know that it’s what she also wanted me to do if she’s here. Girls (Puffcats), you should be proud of me. (Haha! Nakamove-on na ko!) I know that she would be proud of me too. Special thanks to the Lord! I couldn’t pass through this without You! :)

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My DPP9 experience

Since this is a super late post, just enjoy some of these photos from my cam hehehe :P. I was the last to arrive since I have a different sched from the others (I chose a different section) so eto lang yung naabutan ko HAHA! 

Some of the shots were Kurt’s, Vince’s and mine.

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Some of the photos related to this post! It’s been stocked in my drafts for a while so here we go :)

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As soon as my hands the touch board in which the alphabets consist, I am able to formulate sentences and convert my thoughts in a jiffy. Just as an artist paints or a writer uses his pen, mine I think is more modern, I prefer the keyboard. I don’t have such deep or broad vocabulary and I don’t know if my grammars are correct, but I get this happy feeling because I’m able to broadcast my thoughts at least once in a while. Hi. Grabe nakakamiss.

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APRIL FOOL’S DAY 2015

Since this is the last day of April 2015, I’m gonna go back and share with you guys the prank I made on the first day of this month.

Last year, I made a promise to myself to celebrate April Fool’s annually with some pranks and because I was busy with school works, I first came up with the usual here-on-the-window-side-of-the-plane-yay-or-goodbye pictures but my sister already posted her prank, so...

This was my second choice but I don’t know how to pull it off until the day have arrived and I was so determined to achieve the faux pixie cut look that I was looking for. I searched many YouTube videos to make this thing successful.

And it turned out great. Even my parents believed it. I was on Skype with Mama and she said that it looks good on me. “Patingin nga ko ng likod” was the problem but we (me and my sis) just laughed it off. My sis was really laughing hard when I said “Wag na ok na yan tinatamad na ko masikip pa space dito(my room)” HEHEHE. And my Dad was like, 

hehehe isn’t it funneh? Well para sa’kin oo!

I couldn’t believe my lola was fooled too, she was the one who could see my hair personally besides my sis but she also believed it was true! Well she said she didn’t saw it that long, maybe she was not that paying attention to me since she’s talking to Mama.

And then I posted on IG which I allowed to be directed to Facebook as well.

I could not explain what they were feeling. Some are, shocked and some says it looks good to me, others just tease me as tomboy.

Well whatever their reaction was, the main point was THEY WERE FOOLED! AND I WAS A GENIUS! Haha!

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hi skittishbeliever, why so gorgeous? cant wait to see you with a new haircut and hair color:) looking forward to see your new look :) stay gorgeous :))

Hiii thank you for appreciating my beauty :”> hehe. Well no haircuts for this year, but my dad just dyed my hair dark brown. It’s not that visible since it’s dark, obviously, but I liked it :) I’ll probably put streaks to emphasize my bangs this May :) God bless you!

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c u r r e n t l y …

R E A D I N G  The Fearless Maverick: Bad Blood No. 4 by Robyn Grady. Another book that Lyra lend me. 

*BTW, I just finished reading a trilogy! Yayy :D

To know more about my “bookworm” life, visit my goodreads account!

W R I T I N G this blog post, a descriptive essay for my English 1 subject, plus other schoolworkxx.

L I S T E N I N G to Hillsong United’s Aftermath on Spotify! Have you heard their new album, Empires? Try to listen to Touch The Sky! It’s really amazing :D

T H I N K I N G of my comic story for our advanced drawing.

S M E L L I N G the spaghetti my sister heated for me. Luvly <3

W I S H I N G that I will be able to learn ukelele :D

W E A R I N G a headband given by Aiah, white “Tulong Na, Tabang Na” shirt, checkered cotton shorts that looks like what chefs are wearing and a black scrunchie on my right hand.

L O V I N G what I’m doing right now. I AM REALLY ITCHING TO BLOG!

W A N T I N G to have more time. :(

N E E D I N G happy pills! And some creativity!

F E E L I N G great because my bangs are long enough already!

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I’ve been wanting to do this and I’m glad because finally, here is it! :)

c u r r e n t l y … 

R E A D I N G  Three Weeks in Paris by Barbara Taylor Bradford. Lyra lend me her books because I was really itching to read 2 months ago, and I want a real book, not ebook, so I can pull it out wherever I am :)

W R I T I N G this blog post! Finally :)

L I S T E N I N G to Hillsong Young and Free’s Sinking Deep on Spotify!

T H I N K I N G of how I will spend my time wisely.

S M E L L I N G the anointing oil of Jerusalem in my palm. I am so blessed <3

W I S H I N G that I can finally have a summer vacation so I can update my blog post and be with my old friends.

W E A R I N G a headband given by Aiah, pink shirt with a Japanese model on it (’twas given to me by my Aunt), flesh-colored shorty shorts and a black Billabong flip-flops.

L O V I N G the fact that Jesus died for our sins, and now we’re forgiven and we can join Him in Heaven! :)

W A N T I N G to have more time.

N E E D I N G confidence and focus so I can finish my chores and projects.

F E E L I N G grateful because I was anointed with the anointing oil from Jerusalem and I finally blogged! I’m so blessed! <3

Thank Jesus. Everything belongs to Him. Our God is so wonderful. Just. Awesome.

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Hi guys! So I thought of sharing you my hair goals that I really want to achieve asap! I've been wanting to dye my hair violet since our first term ended but I couldn't find any hair dyes when I went to the mall so I just bought a Mahogany hair dye but it went too bright that it became reddish. I sorta changed my plan on pursuing the violet and fancied the brunette. I’ll be having my hair changed probably next month!

On the other hand... I just had a haircut last week :3

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To the man who made me love music even more that I wanted to be in a band just like him (which came true yey), the one who let me inherit his appeal (naks) and to the one who owns this jersey (that I wear hahaha) Happy happy birthday! I love you Papa!

I was thinking on how I will greet you - I want it to be different, I want  it to be unique. I kept thinking since the day before (believe me, I did. Even my college friends greeted you because I told them that, you can go ask them yourself), but I don’t know what until I became tired and I didn’t realized I slept!

Sorry talaga Papa. Eto yung kinakatakot ko e yung di kita mababati on time :( nangyari na nga. Sorry talaga. Wag ka na magalit sa akin. Happy happy birthday!!!!! 

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i miss you :(

I miss you too! I’m missing everyone so much! Separation Anxiety is killing me :(