counting the ways to where you are

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[skyau]

[kinkycutequotes]

[somepiecesofmyheartandsoul-deac]

Tonight, when the Moon delivers my thought to you, I hope you will come to know how much I still care, and how I never really let you go all this while.

Lukas W. // All this while (via somepiecesofmyheartandsoul)

[kinkyquotes]

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[warpau]

*smirk* Why thank you, I think I will~

[yesterdaysprint]

The Salem News, Ohio, January 13, 1908

[naamahdarling]

[strawbebbynya]

[thecheshirecass-deactivated2018]

These are so cute they’re almost physically painful

[disgustinganimals]

It’s a double attack. First your heart then your blankets.

[talk-nerdy-to-me-thyla]

[candy-kingdom-keeper]

Commissions for @wadinginthecreek! 

The demon boys names are Malek & Kelam and belong to her!

[thegoodvybe]

[skyau]

And... 48, 36 and 31?

Questions from here 

48: Are you a forgiving person? Do you like being that way? 

Do I think I’m easy to deal with? I don’t know. In the military when I knew my job and my brothers I would have said I was damn easy to deal with. In relationships, I don’t think it’s a good idea to be in a relationship with me. I’m not easy to deal with. I’m moody as fuck. Do I like being this way? I think I’ve come to the conclusion some shit I’m just not built for.

36: Do you forgive betrayal? 

You didn’t betray me. I made the wrong kinds of assumptions and I think sending the wrong kinds of signals. For that I’m sorry. Betrayal is hard on me and it hurts more than I can say. But if there is a heartfelt apology and a sincerity for different behavior… I’m willing to give a second a chance. Make no mistake. I won’t forget.

31: How does someone win your heart?

Someone who takes the time to listen to me. It’s hard for me to talk aloud and gather my thoughts and… to have someone give me the time to figure out what I want to say is amazing. Someone who is interested in me and shows me that. Someone with good taste in alcohol and drinks with me. Someone who I can share a comfortable with silence with. Or laugh so hard my gut hurts and my eyes are burning with tears. It sounds like I’m looking for a best friend but I can’t imagine being with someone unless I feel I know them very well. Someone who shares my humor and shares the same… interests as me. Compatibility, trust, and connection are important and those go a long way for someone to get my heart.

[teenagecrush]

[skyau]

47, 49, 50?

Questions from here

47: What’s your favorite holiday?

Finally an easy question. Christmas. The decorating. The food. The music. The traditions. I just… it’s my favorite holiday. I fucking love Christmas.

49: Where’s the most magical place on earth? 

It doesn’t exist anymore. It was very short lived. But it was a bed I never slept in before the sheets were unbelievably soft and smelled unfamiliar but on top of that was the combined scent of me and… it was short lived. But I swear it was fucking magic.

50: What’s your “type”?

Shorter than me and bossy as hell. There’s something that just does it for me to look down and have someone order me around. Toned and a bit muscular someone who has some force because there’s something fucking hot about being manhandled or present a challenge if I’m manhandling them. Someone close to my age would be great. Definately not wanting a fucking twink. Someone with a sharp mouth I’m not talking they know what to do with their mouth I want that too just… can be downright dirty one minute and look so innocent the next. I’m a sucker for green eyes and a nice ass.

[skyau]

29, 32, 33, 40, 42

Questions from here

29: Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?

I don’t really consult with my friends for who I like. I keep my own counsel.  I only seemed to have gotten into a heated argument with a friend once. I don’t like talking about it. I don’t want to think about it.

32: What turns you on?

Irritatingly, you. Mostly everything you do. even when you’re pissing me off.

33: What turns you off?

Before you came back, there wasn’t much that heated my blood or body in a way that I’d consider myself turned on. One time I tried chasing the ghost of what it felt like but it was the wrong time and not the place. I fucked up bad and it didn’t work. It wouldn’t have worked. It wasn’t involving the things my body craved and was turned on too.

40: First concert you attended

I was in high school and it was at the Corn Palace in Mitchell. It was a country band for the Corn Festival. I can’t remember who it was though. One of those I tagged along with some of my cousins.  i might have been drinking that night hence the vague memories.

42: Favorite type of movie

I like action-based movies. Explosions, plot holes, half-naked actors. Westerns I like. The older movies the dialogue is great and you just don’t find that in the new movies. Rom coms ain’t bad either but some much of it… it’s not very believable. And highly laughable. 

[skyau]

18, 21, 22, 24, 25

Questions from here

18: A reason you’ve lied to someone 

Because they didn’t want to hear the truth. Because they expected something different from me. Because it killed me they couldn’t accept it but my desire to please them was more important to me than my happiness I continued with the lie I told them.

21: Do you believe in love at first sight?

When you first see someone or meet them its just love and fireworks and all that shit? No. I believe in lust at first sight. I believe there is wanting someone as soon as you meet their eyes and see something there you’ve been looking for for so long you almost forgot what you were looking for. But love requires getting to know someone and making a connection. You gotta like someone first before you love them.

22: Do you believe in soulmates?

Someone meant to be like a close friend that understands everything about or an ideal romantic partner? Yeah, I think I do. It’s not having one that is the problem the issue is completely in finding them. And for others managing to keep them.

24: Opinion on relationship age differences

So, I have this problem with punk kids (mostly males) in their lower twenties and with girls in their mid-teens. This isn’t a relationship. This is a predator looking for one thing and needs an ass-kicking. Going into adults… I don’t know? Never really had an opinion otherwise?

25: Would you date someone off the Internet?

I’m not interested in meeting someone new and dating them right now. Would I chose the Internet to do this? I honestly don’t think so. I’m a see it to believe it guy and… there’s too many things that can be falsified. Now meeting someone in real life and getting to know them better over the internet… I think that is something that’s a bit different and I have done that before.

[skyau]

So maybe I'm... curious. And seeing you with a meme is always... interesting~ 4, 7, 8, 12, 14

… How is seeing me with a meme is interesting?  

Questions from here

4: Have you ever dyed your hair?

When I was in college I got highlights, once. Just… had the money and wanted to try it? Didn’t bother when I was in or after the military though.

7: Do you have any tattoos or piercings?

Yes on tattoos. No on piercings. You’ve seen my tats. The barbed wire that wraps around my upper right arm and the I had a scorpion tat on my side over my ribs. It’s not there anymore.

8: What would you say is your best quality?

… I don’t know. I know that’s not the answer that you wanna hear. Let’s just say my… resilience. Alright? Good? I’m moving to the next question.

12: What do you think about the most?

At one time I was trying not to think about anything. I tend to fixate on my fuck ups. Not that I can change them but just… still wishing I did things differently.

14: What is your least favorite word?

Crevice. Because when I was younger and read… stories. Everytime I saw this word it totally ruined a story and the mood the story was trying to create.

[whit3noize]

unusual asks

1: Do you ever wish you were someone else?

2: What is your full name?

3: How old are you and how old do you get mistaken for?

4: Have you ever dyed your hair?

5: What’s your eye color?

6: Your opinion about your body and how comfortable you are with it

7: Do you have any tattoos or piercings?

8: What would you say is your best quality?

9: What are you really bad at?

10: What talent do you wish you had?

11: Are you nice to everyone?

12: What do you think about the most?

13: Things you like/dislike about yourself

14: What is your least favorite word?

15: What is your favorite word?

16: Are you more like your mom or your dad?

17: Would you ever smile at a stranger?

18: A reason you’ve lied to someone

19: Are you lying about anything right now?

20: Have you kissed someone older than you?

21: Do you believe in love at first sight?

22: Do you believe in soulmates?

23: Are looks important?

24: Opinion on relationship age differences

25: Would you date someone off the Internet?

26: Have you ever cried over a boy/girl?

27: Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?

28: Anyone you’re giving up on right now?

29: Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?

30: Have you ever liked your best friend?

31: How does someone win your heart?

32: What turns you on?

33: What turns you off?

34: Do you get jealous easily?

35: What is your definition of cheating?

36: Do you forgive betrayal?

37: Have you ever been cheated on?

38: Have you ever cheated on someone?

39: How often do you listen to music?

40: First concert you attended

41: Last movie you watched

42: Favorite type of movie

43: Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about?

44: Are you good at hiding your feelings?

45: Do you fall in love easily?

46: Do you think people say I love you too much?

47: What’s your favorite holiday?

48: Are you a forgiving person? Do you like being that way?

49: Where’s the most magical place on earth?

50: What’s your “type”?

[warpau]

Maybe you're right. Maybe I do present my buttons for you to push. No one else though, just you. You piss me off. You turn me on. You're the only one I crawl back to for more. After stuff happened it was easy not to go log into my accounts to try and forget all that. Because I thought if I did log in--I wouldn't be able to stop myself. I'd figure out something to send you, something you knew came from me even if I didn't outright say it was. I wasn't sure if you'd want that. But here I am Wes. ★

I’d wondered. Wondered when you didn’t log back in, when there were no updates, nothing. I can’t even count the times I stared at your ask box on a Thursday, typing and erasing… so many things. 

I didn’t think you’d want a message from me. Didn’t think you’d ever want to hear from me again, honestly. And… I was a coward. I didn’t know what to say.

Sure, I know your buttons. Know how to push them, know how to get you pissed, how to turn you on.

But you know all of mine, too, did you know that? Every one. Sometimes just a look, a glance, a movement from you is all it takes.

….It’s good to see you back on a Thursday, Sky. You don’t know how good.

“You look so hot when you’re pissed at me.”

….Well. This is… appropriate~

[skyau]

warpau‌:

….Fuck. No, I didn’t know, I… I didn’t realize. I didn’t even know you were in the hospital. I dropped the ball on that one. I promised myself I’d be there for you and I’m sorry I wasn’t. I should have been.

The kid… Sky. You tried. You tried to help him and he got a crush on you. I can’t blame him too much, you’re smart, sexy, and were kind to him. So maybe you got in over your head, but… your heart was in the right place. Am I a bit jealous? Yes. Always have been but… that’s my own fault. And I… I have no moral ground to talk. 

What have I been up to? I don’t even know where to start. We got pulled from the sandbox, sent back over to the EU. Floated around Romania, Hungary, the Czech Republic, Germany, up into Russia a bit. Various missions, mostly intelligence-gathering or specific search and exfil. Spent time undercover until I got a little too… disengaged to continue with that. Spent a lot of time with… less than the sharpest faculties. Floated around with being the guy who got the team whatever we needed, wherever we were, as long as not too many questions were asked.

I was fucked up, Sky. And you weren’t the only one on a course of self-destruction. I spent many a weekend in Amsterdam or some other similar place. One of those trips… There was a guy. Reminded me of you, a bit - tall, dark hair, broad shoulders. Didn’t have your hips or waist or eyes or lips… didn’t have your features. Wasn’t you. 

Looking at you, he was nothing like you. But it’d been a year since I’d seen you last, and my dreams and imagination weren’t enough. 

I stopped, Slagger, before it’d gone too far. It didn’t feel right. He wasn’t you and you were who I wanted. I grabbed my shirt and jacket and left. Spent the next week too fuzzy to even get outta my rack. Sabien wasn’t pleased but what was he gonna do?

After that, I made an effort to come back to the world of the living. Decided I’d take some leave I had coming and go look for you. Started to clean up, ease off on the drink and… other things. Then Sabien was reassigned without giving any of us notice, took a fucking promotion to the CIA. New CO came in - seasoned, career military and you could tell he planned on whipping us back into regs.

That’s when we found out I’d been fast-tracked due to the family name and Sabien pulling strings. Hadn’t actually met the requirements for Delta Force, but there I was. Couldn’t admit the mistake, would have disgraced the team and Army. So I was honorably discharged, took the first flight back to the States and you know the rest.

You said that Hickston isn’t anywhere great but this was all you had. But… I hope you consider that now you have me, too.

Dropped the ball? How? We lost touch, Slagger.  Nothing you can blame yourself for there. That promise I don’t know when you made it but you were still In and deployments make it hard to keep track of anything even if there was usual contact between two people.

I just wanted to be something of a role model for him and I don’t know Wes... I screwed up in there. Maybe it was the way he looked at me or maybe I was just stupid. I’m the fucking adult but I felt coerced, somehow. I loved teaching. I loved it so much but after that... I don’t think I can step foot in a classroom as a teacher again. Makes me sick to my stomach just thinking about it.

You were disengaged? How? I thought you liked your job? You always were smooth. Or at least Malek was. He seemed to be the guy who could practically pull anything. A lot of times it seemed out of his ass.

... You gonna tell me you haven’t had any since... since Paris? I know I hadn’t but for other reasons. There was coming back and the IED... just haven’t felt wanting to get close to anyone. I know I’m lucky I got only some scars and other people lost limbs and more but... the scars bug me. They are not sightly. I just haven’t felt wanting to get close to anyone really nothing that would involve seeing me without clothes on.

I know things were off with you considering... considering how we first met. How you needed crash course training on horseback riding. Still, remember that. But there was something about you that wasn’t quite like the others in your squad. Didn’t say shit because it wasn’t any of my fucking business but... you got out and came found me. Wasn’t expecting you to come walking in that Dojo and acting like you had all the right in the world to come strolling up to me and acting like nothing happened at all.

Part of me wants to say there seems to be no getting rid of you... and I don’t want that. I like you here. I like you around. I’ll put what you say in consideration.

[somepiecesofmyheartandsoul-deac]

If the world could give us an opportunity to take all the chances we missed, to relive the moments we loved so much, would you take my hand and try again? Would you want to try again?

Lukas W. // Coffee thoughts #135 (via somepiecesofmyheartandsoul)

[thegoodvybe]