The One

who keep writing to live.

[slammo313]

The more I understand life, the more I understand how hopeless I am to surviving this.

[slammo313]

I closed my eyes,

The pain wasn’t easy to keep in sight.

I closed my ears,

The pain can be heared but subtle.

I closed my heart,

The pain aches but the bleed is bothering.

Little did I know, the pain fades.

My feelings do too.

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At some point, I realised was too broken to fixed.

So I just stopped patch things up.

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Deep as an ocean

Rage within a wave

Subside reaching the beach

On which life is meet

Do the ocean living the storm

Nor the ocean hiding the breath

As the one wouldn’t never

Gasp the teardrop of love

.

.

.

.

.

For my lovely bubu.

The one who create the wave for me.

[slammo313]

Sparkle

It was a choice

But it wasn’t worth anything

It was a try

But it wasn’t for me

It was a time

But it wasn’t meant for something

It were real, the waiting

Probably meant for begging

For the seconds they slept through

It was mind that kept wondering

Probably it lost

Losing it’s value, the promise

The word in which forgotten

[slammo313]

Solar

You are a star

Shine so bright

Loving so warm

With your hug and smile

You are a star

Light up my life

Throw up my darkness

Knowing you were there

You are a star

So beautiful everyday

Lovely as your thought

Perfectly gorgeous

You are my star, my solar

[slammo313]

I’m getting tired of the dream,

In which I could not reach,

Moonlight never smile toward the owl,

The one who stay for her shine,

Craving for sparks and moment,

In which denying path of loneliness.

[slammo313]

In the night like this,

It may sank and embedded

Inside me,

A fear or memories,

In which scatered,

No one will ever remember me,

Even if I try.

[slammo313]

It was killing me,

The silent of the night,

I do wish it will ended soon,

But it’s scares me when it does,

I know it won’t be beautiful one.

[slammo313]

As the cloud, it passes without notice,

A moment until a moment,

It crept and seep into the life,

It horrifying but I can’t run,

I wish it was always warm,

Let it ease for heart to embrace,

Though the day never always be bright,

Cold and evil it may be,

Breath soundly, rest assured,

The true will stick through.

[slammo313]

The City

Maybe there is the time,

For my voice to not reaching,

And my thoughts are lost,

For so, the silence is killing.

I wasn’t the brightest,

Neither the worst,

I’m just a tiny boy,

Shrinked inside an empty city

Without a sight to familiar with.

Lost, empty and crack.

[slammo313]

“It wasn’t a plea,

For a distress,

It wasn’t a signal,

For a move,

It wasn’t a dream,

To be remembered.

It was note,

That dissolve his heart,

And will.”

[slammo313]

“Is it me or is it thought that suffocating me,

Or is it, the dream in which it can’t be me,

The silence is killing and empty,

Flow beneath the perfection of no one.”

[slammo313]

THE UNSETTLING

Passing through the dream

It was never been there

But it crawl and messed up

It wasn’t empty but

Full of hated bottled up

Against the dreamer

Who trying to walk

Pass through delightful

And enchanting light

But then what is there

To be dream

But then where is there

To be walk

But then who is there

To be shared

All of the light

When the dream is lost

In unsettling moment

[slammo313]

Sometimes, I don’t know if my silence is engulfing my heart or my thoughts killing my feelings.

But I realize, I’m halfway to survive this.

Or I may died trying to.

[slammo313]

A Wish

I always wanted a wish

But it doesn't always the same

Some wish doesn't come easy

While some wasn't hard to granted

It may be come from heart

Others come from a pain

Every soul lies a wishes

A hope nor a hatred

Whatever it bears

Nobody can't judge your wish

I did stop wishing at once

When I realized I'm in pain

To realize my wish

Will never be happen

I wish for everlasting

Happiness

[slammo313]

In the late night, it just your own battle. Without weapon, without army, without soul. Finding an answer was it worthwhile to keep fighting.