it was a good thing crosby was nonchalant. heâd always kept himself collected and only very rarely did he display his temper. anger wasnât something he really even associated with, as a whole. he was devoid of itâor rather, devoid of most emotion. a sigh parted his lips, hand briefly running over his face. âcâmon, man,â although, he knew that xavier really had all the reason in the world to act as he currently was. what bothered him was that he definitely wasnât like themâit was an insult, if anything. for him to be like them, heâd need to treat the slaves like garbageâusing and abusing them, and neither of those things were ideal to him. not once had he laid a hand upon any of them. âitâs my job. iâm sent out to find suitableâpeople,â although he was aware that in saying this, heâd only make the slaveâs supposed hatred for him strongerâthey were honest words. crosby wasnât lying; not this time around. âi totally get it if you think that makes me sick. i mean, it kind of does, butâitâs my fucking job,â his arms crossed over his chest. âiâm not gonna try and get you to trust me; we all know that type of shit doesnât work. do whatever you want, man. justâi want you to know that iâm not like them. sure, iâm the reason youâre here, and i guess that makes me a piece of shit, okayâwhatever, but, youâre essentially calling me a rapist. iâm literally just living here, manâthereâs the possibility of me being fucking demoted to a slave, too. i do what iâm toldâwhich is find a few new faces to bring back, and thatâs that.â
âyour...job?â as if that made it any better. it was a job to go out and find people and bring them to this place. âit does.â he said strongly. âit makes you sick. and youâre not making this any easier on yourself. itâs your fucking job - who the fuck does that? i mean...youâre just deciding for these people - me - that their life as they knew it is over. youâre--youâre bringing them here to suffer. and directly youâre not fucking trying to hurt them, youâre not hurting them - but indirectly you are.â xavier found it easy to lash out at crosby, he wasnât as intimidating as some of the others heâs come into contact with. a scoff passed the brunetteâs lips. crosby wanted him to know he wasnât like them - and while that may have been true, what he was doing wasnât any better. right? xavier wasnât in the wrong for thinking that. his lips parted when he flat out said he was the reason that he ended up here - heâd thought about that, but he wanted to think it was someone else who brought him, âwhy me?â he frowned, disregarding everything else said for the moment. âwhyâd it have to be me?â