do I creep you out?

[slayerdiary]

This blog is owned by someone with a Complex Dissociative Disorder, who may exhibit symptoms of amnesia and inconsistency between self states. It will be used to talk about honest experiences, feelings or thoughts, and opinions on discussions in the community.

You can call me Shauna. I use she/pup/mutt, you can use she/her for every part of myself, though. I’m an adult. I’m also on the schizophrenia spectrum.

If you want to know my stances on subjects…

I’m against any discrimination, including ableism, misogyny, homophobia, transphobia, racism, xenophobia, and antisemitism. Similarly, I’m also against belief in stuff like narcissistic abuse.

Exploring dark subjects in media is okay, and beneficial. However, I don’t support creating nsfw of anyone who cannot consent, such as children or animals. This includes art, writing or other fiction.

Please don’t interact if you are a raqueer or transID, especially if you’re you identify as cis/tris/trans abusive, or anything similar.

You can’t have DID/OSDD/P-DID/Other Complex Dissociative Disorders or Dissociative Parts without trauma. Other versions of plurality, such as spiritual or philosophical multiple selves, do exist and are valid, they’re just different experiences to Complex Dissociative Disorders.

Self diagnosis is okay if you are well researched. This isn’t just reading criteria, though. I’d encourage reading books, articles and case studies. Reading about differential diagnoses, the process of diagnosis, and understanding fundamentals of psychology is important too, not only reading about the disorder you suspect.

For my own status on diagnosis. I have been in therapy since childhood. Over the last two years, my therapists have confirmed I have a Complex Dissociative Disorder, including severe dissociation, dissociative amnesia, dissociative parts and a fragmented identity due to complex trauma. This was a long process, and something I’m still in treatment for currently, meaning I’m still discovering a lot about my own trauma, parts and experiences!

[subsystems]

Treating Trauma-Related Dissociation on understanding the nature of dissociated parts (pp.165-167)

Core concepts from this section:

“Personality, identity, and self are not actual things. They are terms that give a broad and condensed impression of who we are to others and to ourselves. We do not have a self like we have a brain or a heart. Instead, our minds construct a continually evolving story about who we are; this is what we call our ‘self.’ Patients with dissociative disorders subjectively experience their selves and personalities as fragmented, and often as outside of their voluntary control and awareness. Normally, our sense of self is continually updated as we learn from and reflect upon both new and old experiences. Dissociative patients seem unable to sufficiently engage in this natural revision, leaving them with relatively rigid and divided selves.”