"He doesn't love you, Melissa. Why can't you understand that?" I sighed and closed my eyes. She's right. Everyone's right. I don't have a chance with him. I never will. It's way too impossible for him to love me the way I love him. But what do all his actions say? Aren't those enough to give me even just a little hope? I shake my head. No. I can't just keep assuming. I'll just get myself hurt again. I wouldn't want the previous events to replay and break my heart. "Oh Zach.. What I'd do to forget about you." I muttered. Around noon, I decided to take a walk around the beach. I didn't tell anyone. I just knew I had to give myself a break from everyone. The sun wasn't as scorching as awhile ago, which was a relief. It was also low tide today, making the sea a bit shallow than earlier. I stood in the shore, gazing at the falling sun. The waves cooled my bare feet and acquainted with Zach's feelings for me. Refreshing but at the same time cold. Aish. I've got to stop thinking about him. I'm hurting myself. I squinted my eyes at the odd looking sand bank in the middle of the sea. It seemed really weird seeing a small island there. Minutes after, I decided to walk to the sand bank. Walking in the water was a struggle, due to the waves crashing and clashing with my body. The water wasn't really deep, reaching up to my knees, but I still had to lift my dress a bit higher. My lips curved into a smile once I reached the sand bank. It was a plain sight, nothing amusing, but it gave me a sense of isolation and aloneness. Which was what I really needed right now. I sat myself at the end of the sand bank, doing nothing in particular. I just stared through the open space, thinking, dreaming, wondering when he'll ever know. All of a sudden, I had this crazy urge to write on the sand. So I fixed myself up and wrote whatever my fingers wanted to write. Zach. That's what it said. I don't know why or how, but tears started welling up in my eyes. It took one more look for me to cry harder. Is this how it feels to fall in love with someone you can't be with? Is this really how it will feel? Does it have to be this painful? I don't know. I don't know. But I wanna know. And I wanna get rid of it. "Okay waves," I said, throat still parched from crying. "If you wash out his name, I'll forget about him. I'll just let my feelings for him dissolve like what you would do to a sand castle." I know it's ridiculous of me to include the waves into my love life, but I really don't know what to do about my situation. So I waited. I waited for the waves to crash into the shore, I really did. But after minutes of waiting, nothing happened. I waited again. I waited till the sun was no more and yet it never touched his name. The tears started coming in again. "What, you want me to suffer?! You want me to keep hoping and hoping till I start hating on love again? You want me to keep hurting myself and crushing my own heart?" "I'm so tired, Zach." I whispered. "Please.. Help me let you go." It seemed like the waves didn't want me to forget him, so I did the honors myself. "There! There! I'm going to forget you now!" I cried, rubbing my hands against the sand. "There! Now I won't have to suffer!" I fell to my knees. For a moment, all I could hear were the sounds of the water clashing and my faint sobs. No matter how hard I tried to convince myself, I knew it hurt. I knew I was just causing pain into myself. I guess the waves did want me to still have some hope. It wants me to keep hoping that he'll be like a sand castle I worked hard to build and create. It wants me to hope that it won't ruin what means a lot to me, even though everybody knows it eventually will. But I can't let that happen. Not anymore. Not like before. "Zach." I whispered so faintly that I don't think even the ants could hear. "I'm letting you go."
