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I will tell my daughter, don’t ever beg for someone’s time. Don’t ever beg for someone’s attention. And don’t ever beg for someone’s love.

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“Hold out for what has real meaning and health for you.”

— Clarissa Pinkola Estés, from “Women who Run with the Wolves,” c. 1992

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Alexander Baras, tr. by Kimon Friar, from Modern Greek Poetry; “Back Country,”

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Quaruntine has me feeling 16 and hopelessly stupid again like yeah I can stay up until four am watching cosplay makeup tutorials and then pierce my own belly button in a sleep deprived stupor & this time I have whiskey too

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perhaps love and kindness are practices rather than feelings or states of being

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“The phenomenon of female anger has often been turned against itself, the figure of the angry woman reframed as threat — not the one who has been harmed, but the one bent on harming. She conjures a lineage of threatening archetypes: the harpy and her talons, the witch and her spells, the medusa and her writhing locks. […] If an angry woman makes people uneasy, then her more palatable counterpart, the sad woman, summons sympathy more readily. She often looks beautiful in her suffering: ennobled, transfigured, elegant. Angry women are messier. Their pain threatens to cause more collateral damage. It’s as if the prospect of a woman’s anger harming other people threatens to rob her of the social capital she has gained by being wronged. We are most comfortable with female anger when it promises to regulate itself, to refrain from recklessness, to stay civilized.”

— Leslie Jamison, I Used to Insist I Didn’t Get Angry. Not Anymore.

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“Don’t cry.”

But so, sometimes, we must. It is often the only way to heal, through the river of all we have held inside.

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Every time I abandon my core values I deprive myself of love and lose connection with my soul. When I lose connection with my soul I feel disembodied and drained of life. I owe it to myself to end this pattern and stop making decisions out of stress that betray my core values. I’m going to do better because I deserve it.

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“Take care of the land…someday you’ll be part of it”

- sign on our hike in Chantry Flats

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Old people can"t understand when younger people are willing to cut a whole relative off. They have lived their entire lives in guilt or based on some sense of loyalty to someone based on blood. People will abuse you betting on that fact, just because ya’ll are blood that means you have to accept it. No, you don’t.