My Confession
You ever stop and wonder what your teenage self would think about you?
I think about it a lot. I am a Masturbator, Gooner, Pervert, Porn addicted what ever you want to call it.
I freely admit to it. I have no shame about how often I pleasure myself.
I discovered masturbation on a cold night when I was 12. I was so innocent I actually thought I broke my dick the first time I came. I vowed never to touch my cock again.
I lasted the better part of a week, only for my throbbing erection to get the better of me one Sunday morning. I thought "well the last time it felt so good, and know one will know, just once more."
So for the second time I jerk my cock, but it was the first time I intended to finish by cumming (I didn't know that word yet). Yes it felt good, unfortunately someone did know as my Mom and younger sister walked in on me, and it definitely was not the last time.
After that and a long talk about masturbating from my mom, I spent so much time jacking it.
My thought was this is so fucking good I never want to stop.
Unfortunately in my 20s and 30s I did stop. Ok not completely I am a man and sometimes you have needs, and you just do it.
Then I hit my 40s successful, great job, and friends and events.
Then COVID hit, and like so many of us I Started working from home.
Also like so many of us I started drinking more to pass the time.
Well one day I was done for the day, and after a few drinks I got horny. I was at my computer and I was like ok let's just watch some porn (not something I normally would do) so I spent hours that day drinking and jerking. I was edging for the first time. When I finally came it was different it was so amazing. I cleaned up and thought damn that was good.
The next day, after answering email I could feel my cock twitching. I decided what the hell.
I masturbated again. It's was so amazing. I spent the rest of the day and night gooning.
After that it was on, jacking off was the first and last thing I did every day. I got worse and worse.
A few weeks in I tried to quit only to relapse a few days later.
Now I have accepted my fate and am proud of my gooning, and now encourage outhers to goon.
I think often of that summer I spent jerking as a teen and go you did it kid you didn't stop you got worse and it feels so good!
