Welcome to my reverie

Devon. 33. Denver. Poet. Loser.

[carmilla-minus-one]

sekiro is such a good game i don't think literally anybody wants to hear me talk about it but maybe i will anyways

[imperhius]

[svcred1]

[knifepartyart]

"A Princess At Rest"

2025 | 11" × 17"

Etsy | Redbubble

[knifepartyart]

Here's my time-lapse of the 17 hour drawing on tiktok and feel free to give me a follow on there. I'd appreciate it.

[thesnakeandthemoon]

[stolensquabbles-deactivated2025]

bite marks and bruises are actually very very sweet to me

[adamsllllrr]

[hide-and-seekrets]

[placeeee]

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

you deserve a life you aren’t constantly recovering from

[xxxxxxxx154-deactivated20191127]

some of us have been following each other for a long ass time

[peacozy]

Locked in? No. Im tucked in. Goodnight

[throatoftheworld]

Meditatum by Maéna Paillet

[stonerparty]

[smallerthantherain]

sometimes I think about how insidious abuse and manipulation can be. like a few of my exes were extremely manipulative users that probably justify their behaviors because I have my own issues with anger (thanks dad)

like ya my behaviors especially in the past were what would constitute modern abuse. i would raise my voice when upset but I never harmed nor berated anyone. again thanks dad for never teaching me how to calmly deal with emotions only took 33 years to figure that out on my own.

anyway point being I am certain at least some of these women would say I was the problem and certainly that was a problem and I WAS a problem. but then they were also using me for my stability and sincerity. There have only been a few relationships I can look back and say I didnt feel used.

My last relationship, we had problems but she definitely didnt use me and I appreciate her and that we are still friends and keep in touch. We just were not compatible. Compared to the girl before her who used me for the quality of life I provided and for my dick, I dunno. You can just tell a difference.

I guess what I am trying to say is I am self aware enough to realize how much of a problem person I have historically been but I am almost certain that the exes I have in mind have never stopped to think that manipulating and using someone for financial and life security is a form of abuse, too. It's insidious because it isn't loud, but boy is it fucking damaging. I have a hard time trusting new partners now.

So between my own shitty self and the shittiness that has been done to me, you can see why I just rarely date these days.

if anyone read all of this you're a fucking trooper

[ilovedummyboy123]

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pop punk. reblog if u agree