I'm just a believer that things will get better.

My name's Astoria and I'm a revenant. But I probably won't eat you. about [[Desert Bluffs double blog for internmarce]]

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[smilinginternnoises]

We’re doing pretty well out here, yes.

[internmarce]

NO TIME LIKE THE PRESENT I GUESS SO HERE GOES!

@smilinginternnoises Hey, Astoria, are you still online?

[smilinginternnoises]

I’m here, dearest Marce!

Did you need something?

[internmarce]

Oh hey you called me Marce.

Anyway, uh, I. Um.

Listen I wanted to tell you that… Y’know, I’m sorry. For, like, all the shit I said to you and about you, and all that hatred I had leveled at your face and all that shit.

I had no control over it for the longest time (not an excuse, just an explanation,) but, I’m trying to make peace with it and myself. And also you, I guess.

So yeah. I’m apologizing.

[smilinginternnoises]

Oh, dearest, dearest Marce, please, consider it forgiven and forgotten!

You cannot imagine how long I have been waiting for this day!!

[internmarce]

NO TIME LIKE THE PRESENT I GUESS SO HERE GOES!

@smilinginternnoises Hey, Astoria, are you still online?

[smilinginternnoises]

I’m here, dearest Marce!

Did you need something?

[whencyclopedia]

[smilinginternnoises]

Goodness, it certainly has been a hot minute since I’ve been on here.

It’s okay though. I’ve just been busy.

We’re out here, building a town, and as you know these things take time.

[smilinginternnoises]

I started smoking again.

There are no cigarettes out here, so I have to make them out of scrub bark, cactus meat, and animal pelts, but that is not the point.

The point is that it is a decision that I made on my own, for myself.

I am learning, slowly, that I have to find a balance between honoring my beliefs and taking care of myself.

And sometimes taking care of myself might not line up with honoring my beliefs, and sometimes that is okay.

I am still happy.

I am still fine.

[sunshiine-summer]

true shit

[the-barista-district]

@kevin-of-the-desert-otherworld

[xtragh0stywizard-deactivated201]

me:stands up

my blood vessels: what the

FUCK

did you just do

[bakchic]

[smilinginternnoises]

I was not fine, for a very long while, and it took me a very long while to come to terms with not being fine.

But things are okay now.

They’re getting better.

I’m learning that it’s okay to not be fine sometimes.

[smilinginternnoises]

I am fine, and this time I do promise that I mean fine.

[alllmyjams]

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[smilinginternnoises]

Pain is just information the mind can master!

[obviousplant]

What do you use it for?

[fixedyourmeme]

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@silksmilesandsunshine replied to your post: … I am not actually fine, I think. And I also...

Hey, do you remember me? I wasn’t even aware I was still following any of the folks from Desert Bluffs. Anyway, I’m happy that you’re coming to peace with your feelings, but if you’d still like to talk to a person, I’m here :) [- Cynthia/silksmilesandsunshine]

I... do, actually. We spoke, briefly.

Right now, I am... Tired. And very lonely. I am not sure what I expect to gain from this interaction, aside from the gratification of the acknowledgement that I exist by another being.