opinions n things

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[smorpi]

hi im smorpi this is my blog.

ive been on tumblr awhile but this is new side blog so i can spam endlessly woohoo yeah

^ if i don’t follow you back that’s why but i still love you

[smorpi]

“you’ll miss being a teenager!!” yeah you’re right. I’m in my 20s now, and sometimes I do. but you’ve g *grips your shoulders tightly* you’ve got to understand that i don’t only miss the joyous times because there barely were any. my developing brain was so fried by mental illness that i’ve grown to seek comfort in depression and self neglect. nostalgia is a bitch and, ! , a scary beast

[smorpi]

I find it kind of strange that its not socially acceptable to point out to other women how their significant other may be problematic. I've lost friendships over this. When I was a teen I told my friend she should break up with her pedo neglectful boyfriend and I lost that friendship. Never tried intervening like that again, but I've lost other friendships because of some boyfriend's toxic controlling behaviour. It's always about advocating for women's safety, but then it's also systemically unacceptable to raise concerns when someone may be actively facing abuse. not even just when abuse is involved, when it might be. If you're in a relationship and your friend points out all the harmful behaviours that they think your partner exhibits, how would you react? Doesn't matter if they're right or wrong. How would you react? Because if it's anything other than collected composure then you should reconsider. Women shouldn't be glared at or thought to be invasive and evil for trying to support and protect other women. Opinions can't hurt you, but your husband could.

[smorpi]

i find it so strange when other artists ask u not to reference or study their art.. like copying or plagiarising is bad yes, valid to ask people to not do that. but... referencing?... studying?

[smorpi]

i guess people are free to request what they like, and can only hope for others to respect it but its just a strange thing to want in the first place imo. like almost every single artist learns by referencing and studying other peoples' art. you want to remove yourself from that? even though thats likely how you learned too? how you got to be as successful and talented as you are now? you wouldn't want young & upcoming artists, who LOVE your work, to be inspired by your art? why??? i genuinely cannot understand the thought process

[smorpi]

i find it so strange when other artists ask u not to reference or study their art.. like copying or plagiarising is bad yes, valid to ask people to not do that. but... referencing?... studying?

[sobcat]

2026 has taught me so far that money is everything and having a comfortable amount is my only goal in life

[smorpi]

like the concept of 'girls girl' works in theory, but the thing is when youre queer, autistic, gender nonconformist, conventionally 'unattractive', or any of the other things that set you apart from a group, you dont get to experience the 'sisterhood' that everyone raves about. its never been about protecting 'all' women, its always been about 'women that i like' like 80% of the time. just from my personal experience. we could all do better than that.

[smorpi]

i started this sideblog originally to shitpost but turns out i just have a lot of opinions on a lot of shit so that's all this is turning out to be but oh well #thoughtdaughter

[smorpi]

crazy how the world never changes like tumblr 2014 was romanticising antifeminist bullshit and it still is like what the fuck do you mean #hysteria #femalehysteria and its the most generic pink aesthetic photo ever. i can't with these people

[smorpi]

"the feminine urge to be sooo mean and -" shut the fuck up

"the feminine urge to go absolutely fucking feral" okay you can stay

[thesweetiepienovels]

Actually, you are enough. Even if you don’t work. Or study. Or go out. Or have friends. Or have family. You’re enough because you exist and your existence is enough to be enough because you are not a product. You are not a sum of output. You are not a task to complete. But because you are something the universe wanted and put here even if you’ll never understand why. Somewhere in the cosmos your existence makes a difference, even if it’s not the way others existences do.

[smorpi]

lalallalaa im so full of whimsy!!!!!!

[smorpi]

anyway just need something hopeful to refresh my blog after that last one so

[smorpi]

so cool how people type adhd as this quirky personality trait. did you know that on a bad day it takes me seven hours to do the work it takes someone to do in less than 30 minutes because of my fundamentally low processing speeds and tendency to be distracted? and that the only way to remedy this is, no, mhm, no its not by removing the distractions because that will do nothing. I will get distracted by my own thoughts if that's the only thing you leave me with. the only way to remedy this is by taking medications that once made me stop on the side of the street during a 10 minute walk to throw up because I was nauseous as hell and my heart was beating a million miles an hour. or meds that make me lose all happiness in my life because I cant even laugh or enjoy things, I just turn into a zombie. the hilarious thing is while it makes me focus, sometimes it just makes me focus on all the wrong things. sometimes I need to write an essay on one topic but I end up spending 10 hours researching and rabbit holing before I ever even get a word down, and I don't stop once to eat or check the time because I don't feel hunger and I don't feel time passing. So really the option I am left with is to work twelve hours+ a day, burn out, , no I cannot get a job on top of my studies thanks for asking, and no a two day assignment extension will not really help me much. and yes I've been to counselling and adhd coaching but guess what? nothing will stop the fact that it is a disability. it disables me. I do everything in my life I can to find balance and I'm doing a fucking good job at it too, even if you don't think so. and I get it, I get everyone has their bullshit, but just take a fucking second to realise that maybe you just have better coping strategies than me! maybe my bullshit disables me in a way that doesn't disable you! maybe your suffering isn't a perfect metric to judge others suffering! glad we had this chat

[smorpi]

screamo will be killed by our economy... cant fucking live alone.... cant practice screaming.... capitalism strikes again

[smorpi]

sometimes i watch so much of a tv show i forget its not actually my life when im tired. and when it gets hella depressing im just like wow why are they making my life suck so much

[smorpi]

when i was a kid i used to wish beds had toilets in them and i used to lie awake silently inventing and figuring out all the logistics of how it would work. like how would you clean it? how would you use it?? simply because it was too cold and i was too lazy to walk five steps to the bathroom.