About N #40 / #1
Ok. I know that this is going to sound like a complete fake and very unbelievable, but well I donāt really care to be honest.Ā š¤·āāļø
Iām going to shut down this blog for various reasons.Ā The most obvious one is that I donāt have the time or the motivation to keep blogging here (not just with this account but also my fandom one) because my real-life is much more interesting and time-consuming than some social network at this point (Iām finished with school since March and currently spending time abroad before Iāll get back home to study).Ā I mean I havenāt been posting since June and I didnāt miss anything. (Donāt get me wrong there were times where I did enjoy tumblr a lot and I still know why I did, but Iām just not interested anymore.)
The second reason is that Iād be really uncomfortable with posting here at this point because the most unexpected thing happened and Iām going to be in a relationship with him.
Yeah I know that this sounds surreal and fake and I canāt (and furthermore wonāt) prove it, so itās entirely up to you to believe it or not. We got even closer in the time he finally wasnāt my teacher any longer, we talked about our feelings and after a lot of thought and consideration (for several months) and a kiss before I did leave the country (yes I actually did kiss my TC), we decided to give this relationship a try when Iām back home. I love this man to pieces and I couldnāt be any happier even though I know it wonāt be easy. My family knows about my feelings and our plans and I told my friends about us in June when we graduated.
I will not delete this blog, but I will delete the personal posts about him/us (and I know that our story must seem even more unrealistic now, reading this without being able to read about the history of us and the relationship we used to have when I was in school), but I hope youāll understand. (This also means you can send me messages, but Iāll most likely not even see them, let alone answer them, not because I wanna be rude or anything, but just because I most likely wonāt be online. š)
This blog and some of the amazing people in this community really helped me in all the time I had to keep quiet about my feelings and Iām very grateful for some of the contacts Iāve made through this. So I want to thank them from the bottom of my heart for their support!Ā ā¤ļø
There are some really reasonable and important critical voices in this community and I hope theyāll keep up their good and crucial work to protect minors from being taken advantage of, because not everyone is as responsible and as good a human-being as they should be in a power-position like the one of a teacher and I only hope that everyone will stay safe and get over their crushes in one way or another.
