give me a break

uds || gemini || slytherdor || she/her || indonesian || I can give you any personality test results I got if you ask for it lmao

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I'm back! Guess y'all know the drill. I get back here every time I'm starting to feel mentally and maybe physically unhealthy. I know I have a twitter now, but with the increasing number of rl moots in both accs I'm starting to feel more restricted in posting. Can't really overshare (though I do end up doing just that) and I can't freely rant about other people in fear of offending them too. Literally so much going on in my head I just can't sort them out at all. Brain full cant thoughts

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Guess what, i did NOT come back bcs mentally ill—wild development??

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kiw moots tumblr ada yang masi idup ga

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GUEEE LUPAAA BISA NYAMBAT DI SINI KALO MAU KABUR DARI TWITTER

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kalap ajg semenjak nemu cc madlen

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apa apaan pdkt kok ngomongin kjs sih 🙄 and no, if u ga ada apa-apa juga temen2 lo ga bakal nyuruh LO nanya. like dude they could just slide to my dms no problem krn we chat just fine anyways 😤

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I need an older sibling so bad :(

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tolol bgt audy pagi pagi depresi goblok banget taugasi mana lama bgt berhentinya di toilet tp balik lagi goblokgoblokgoblokgobgojhaklds normal aja kau bisa ga si ga usah adhd macem apalah tuh coba jd depresi kan otak tolol ortu tuh gbs disalahin goblok banget ini semua salah lo anjing lah mana ada salah orang demi allah lama2 gw buang diri juga najis jadi lama kan ngerjain biologinya, kiki ampe marah2 tuh kyk anjing bgt lo dy parah sumpah parah banget makanya gausa tidur lemah bgt jam 11 udh ngantuk kyk apa apaan aneh tau ga lo goblok bgt demi allah ga usah depresi depresi ga jelas itu

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today has been kinder. maybe because i spent half of it asleep. but in the end i felt as if i had just been faking it the entire time and that it's all gonna come and bite me in the back in the near future. i feel terrible, but not as bad as yesterday. i should stop faking my productivity, or running away. but how? each coming day i just start getting more and more anxious.

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I went through my older blogs (since I viewed tumblr as more of a socmed than a blog back then) and I just— Look it was cringey ok but it was still a trip down memory lane and it just shows how different I think back then and now.

http://audystory.blogspot.com/ The first blog my parents set it up for me, it was written in Indonesian since I wasn't very fluent at that time and needed a medium to practice it. It was from early elementary? But I think I deleted some posts before moving to my other blog... I'm not sure tho.

https://audsters.wordpress.com/ This one is when I moved to wordpress to start an English blog instead. Yeah you can definitely tell it was middleschool lingo HAHAHAH. It still has a lot of the posts but I can definitely tell some of them are missing.

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I'm back! Guess y'all know the drill. I get back here every time I'm starting to feel mentally and maybe physically unhealthy. I know I have a twitter now, but with the increasing number of rl moots in both accs I'm starting to feel more restricted in posting. Can't really overshare (though I do end up doing just that) and I can't freely rant about other people in fear of offending them too. Literally so much going on in my head I just can't sort them out at all. Brain full cant thoughts

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Analog Dump!

So a while back my dad bought me a simple point and shoot camera (kodak m38) along with a colorplus film. I have been for a long time wanting to get into negative film but it wasn't until earlier had he allowed it.

I had a bit of trouble at first, since this is the first time I've actually loaded a film camera. I didn't know how to start the shutter count, fucked up there. Panicked, I forcefully rolled the film back but overdid it and I end up closing it all. I did fish it out, but the film got a bit folded along the way. The next day, my maid dropped the camera and accidentally opened the inside for quite a while. That obviously led to these nasty ass burns.

This also uh happened... Though I have no idea why. Probably underexposure?

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AFFIRMATION OF THE DAY: nothing in this world is above me.

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since not a lot of people reads my blogs and i need to dump these somewhere bcs i'm sTILL excited abt it (even tho it was like 4 days ago) so... FOTO-FOTO PTMT! SERU BANGET ANJIR ASDDFGGJHKHLKHJSKAJ NANGIS chile anyways

ga cukup lanjut part 2

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gemoy ga? GEMOY GA? GEMOY ANJIR PLS BGTTTTTT SO KYUT A—lanjut part 3

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ada lagi ga? ada dong!

udazie. tp masi adazi. tp bukan foto kelas lagi :3 ehEHEHEHEH lanjut part 4

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part terakhir deee hehe

fotonya sama anak kelas sebelas tapi :3

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since not a lot of people reads my blogs and i need to dump these somewhere bcs i'm sTILL excited abt it (even tho it was like 4 days ago) so... FOTO-FOTO PTMT! SERU BANGET ANJIR ASDDFGGJHKHLKHJSKAJ NANGIS chile anyways

ga cukup lanjut part 2

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gemoy ga? GEMOY GA? GEMOY ANJIR PLS BGTTTTTT SO KYUT A—lanjut part 3

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ada lagi ga? ada dong!

udazie. tp masi adazi. tp bukan foto kelas lagi :3 ehEHEHEHEH lanjut part 4

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since not a lot of people reads my blogs and i need to dump these somewhere bcs i'm sTILL excited abt it (even tho it was like 4 days ago) so... FOTO-FOTO PTMT! SERU BANGET ANJIR ASDDFGGJHKHLKHJSKAJ NANGIS chile anyways

ga cukup lanjut part 2

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gemoy ga? GEMOY GA? GEMOY ANJIR PLS BGTTTTTT SO KYUT A—lanjut part 3

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since not a lot of people reads my blogs and i need to dump these somewhere bcs i'm sTILL excited abt it (even tho it was like 4 days ago) so... FOTO-FOTO PTMT! SERU BANGET ANJIR ASDDFGGJHKHLKHJSKAJ NANGIS chile anyways

ga cukup lanjut part 2

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OH YALL KNOW THE MOST ADHD SHIT I CAN PULL?

NOT BEING CONSISTENT WITH MY ADHD AWARENESS MONTH POSTS AND FORGETTING IT WAS ADHD MONTH HALFWAY

LITERALLY WHOSE IDEA WAS IT TO HAVE A WHOLE ASS MONTH???