she/her, adult. art -- mostly what I make for other people, including general fanart (really on pjsk right now. that's about it).
main/nonsense is @sixhole
outside here, not particularly active on public social media
mostly just sharing fanart here; I'm a bit precious about posting my original stuff. for the foreseeable that fanart is mostly pjsk (vbs) 🙂↕️
#vivid bird squad <- look at my AU about VBS as hardcore birders (here is the intro). thank you
Check the tags on my art for my footnotes!
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I like to chat and meet people! please feel free to send me asks, etc. if it's about something I enjoy / have talked about I will probably draw something in response (response time varies depending on how busy I am, but all is appreciated!).
you made me so into birding, I actually always try to identify every bird I see
here's a drawing of a bird I saw earlier :)
I wanna get into it more now
my nefarious scheme to get people into looking at birds outside is working… this is so cute! i’m a little jealous of how comparatively common and widespread shrikes seem to be in much of asia. we have two species in north america, the Loggerhead Shrike and the Northern Shrike, both of which in most places take some real work and luck to get a look at.
Here’s a photo I took of a Loggerhead Shrike a few years ago :)
ive been a fan of your work since the early artfight minigame days (2020?) and to now see you drawing prsk/vbs is crazy to me. its like my worlds have collided. thank i love seeing your take on them so much, you continue to be an inspiration to me, thank you
2026 is truly the year of anything can happen for any reason or perhaps for no reason at all… the other day someone told me they showed their friend my prsk stuff and the friend turned out to be someone i’ve known since like, 2013. craziness. thanks so much for sticking around so long and for enjoying the ride! :]
waittt I never considered kohane as t1 diabetic... your mind......
I'm curious now, would she use a pump or just do normal injections? She def seems like she would use a CGM which is what I'm assuming you've drawn her with (idk its been a while since my sibling walked me through the specifics lol)
also I love your art!! I've always struggled with lineart/inking for digital art but seeing how you draw is starting to make it click, and I love your use of warmer colors
🙌 my vision... multiple people very close to me are t1 so i've kinda been very familiar with it my whole life... when it occurred to me for kohane it somehow just clicked? i think it also has a satisfying narrative fit with her having a not very adventurous childhood (gently overprotective parents perhaps).
and yep, she uses an insulin pump and CGM (Continuous Glucose Monitor for those who don't know - it's a little doodad you wear usually on your upper arm for a week or two at a time, with a small sensor wire that stays in your skin so you don't need to do finger pokes to check your blood sugar)! she has it pretty well-managed so there's not much she can't do these days, but it definitely adds some logistical hoops on their long roadtrips and at airport security.
(and thank you so much for your kind words!! #monolineForever #myMonoline. took me a while to find it but I really enjoy drawing this way.)
sorry if you guys saw a split second of the wrong post from my drafts #abjectPanic. worry about that one later
i didnt bring my laptop on this trip and the tumblr app is soooo weird about the order of posts in drafts so it sent the wrong one (rude) (i will try. delicately. to post the right one now)
heres a picture of akito experiencing torrance traffic
do u have any akikoha thoughts or is that simply a distant shore
Of course....... I have thoughts on every duo :] I think part of what compels me about playing with these characters is that there's opportunity for something interesting within each dynamic. I really enjoy Kohane and Akito's interactions - as the most Gap Moe* vbs members they do some weapons grade cuteness aggression shit to me. Allow Me To Regale You Of Birdsquad akikoha
Trying to get my thoughts in order here... I'm still going back and forth on the "mainstory" in birdsquad, with how the vivids and bird dogs meet + the initial conflict between them, but right now I have held in my mind that Kohane and Akito have an explicitly Worse first impression of each other, and Akito really tears into her about a simple beginner's mistake she makes. I've mentioned previously that Akito and An pre-story have some baggage and it does lead to Akito being harsher with Kohane, which I promise to explain Later but this isn't about akian right now. I will just say part of him is jealous of Kohane for multifaceted reasons he has not consciously processed. But he's not going to admit that to anyone - least of all to himself - for like a year.
Anyway, Kohane assumes an orange hummingbird is a Rufous Hummingbird, when actually most orange hummingbirds in LA county are Allen's Hummingbirds bar a specific time of year (during which you can't easily distinguish them anyway). This is why allen's/rufous hummingbirds are an inside joke among vbs and An keeps setting their group chat background to pics of them. She's mocking Akito for his past transgressions, lol, and also comparing him to them (cute little orange bundles of pathetically temperamental anger). Kotaro Does exist in the birdsquad timeline (also a birder, all the vivid street NPCs are) but I've yet to figure out if he's involved here and how.
Akito is appropriately ashamed of that, since he's someone who would like to think he is welcoming to newcomers (like Ken, whom he idolizes) but clearly his conscious actions haven't reflected that and his impulses still get the better of him. But he's not much one for apologies words about feelings - anyway, it doesn't matter, because his actions were what they were, which is much more the kind of guy he is - so he's just trying to show up more and let his new actions lead where they may. Kohane generally wants to see the good in people, for better or for worse, and has accepted this second chance to grow to understand each other, though Akito does really intimidate her for a while.
As they grow into that, part of Akito winds up becoming a bit protective of Kohane, but he sees her potential and usually expresses that concern through pushing her to stand on her own rather than coddling her. He's someone who is hyperaware of how people around him are feeling (on account of a canon-typical home life) so he is also with some trepidation quietly observing An getting her Anxious Attachment Style all up on Kohane, and kind of vacillates between saying something or just staying out of it. Either way, Kohane eventually gets to see the soft and patient side of Akito that directs his admirable tenacity to the benefit of those he cares about - though he becomes flustered when it's called out plainly, so she usually spares him the embarrassment and just appreciates it in peace. Kohane has figured out that he's highly dependable, and she finds it comforting to have him as part of their group - frankly she thinks it's a bit silly that he's embarrassed about that, but whatever. A kind of formative memory/turning point in their relationship for her is a time when everyone else was busy and had to head off, but Akito stayed behind for hours on his own through dusk to help her find an only-moderately-rare bird he had already seen himself several times in the past.
Something that has emerged for me somewhat organically is the idea that Akito will often go to Kohane when he needs a sanity check on something, because he feels that she is his fellow Most Normal Person In The Group. Toya is the one he's most comfortable with and An is the one he's probably most similar to, but surely Kohane is the most grounded. She grew up in the normal world, just like he did - unlike Toya, and unlike An. This pans out for him about 50% of the time but sometimes she's letting a wasp share her ice cream with her ("wasps are very clean actually! and we're taking turns!") and it's like, oh okay never mind, she's the weirdest of all of them, huh (<- guy who is still denying that he is Also Weird. all birders are weird). Akito is still getting to know Kohane, and as she gets more comfortable around him she is pretty good at catching him off guard with her unexpected moments of boldness to sometimes comedic effect.
A last random aspect I will comment on is that they both have specific dietary concerns - birdsquad Kohane is t1 diabetic (maybe some astute observers have noticed in my drawings), and Akito at some point in the run of things develops alpha-gal syndrome, which is a severe allergy to mammalian products (triggered by certain tick bites). Kohane is already always reading nutritional information so she starts picking out things Akito should be worried about now too; in return he develops a good sense of what she looks at herself. I think it's sweet.
Since I shared An and Toya's, here are Kohane's song for Akito and Akito's song for Kohane from thee comprehensive birdsquad playlist... I should note the songs I've collected there are just about some aspect of the characters' relationships at some point in time, not the thesis statement or anything. eg the Kohane pov one is really early on.
* Kohane is gap moe because she is so cute and sweet but she loves bugs and things conventionally considered gross and scary. Akito is gap moe because he seems rude and stiff but he's always looking out for his friends and his hoodies have little thumb holes. you understand me right???
thanks for your question! my thoughts on these two feel somewhat more interpretative (er, "making shit up") than with An and Toya? hopefully it feels true to the characters still.
I love your vivid bird squad AU, when I first saw it I got so excited it made my day 🐦 one of my favourite vbs AUs ever.
thank youuu thank you \o| |o/ <- me frolicking and waving my arms
and thank you to everyone who sends me comments and questions! i love any excuse to talk about it and draw things at you all 🙂↕️ thanks for understanding as i respond at a sporadic pace in between life and everything else I wanna draw... i have a lot of fun doing these little things in my free time.
@ofathousandscenes: Can you… tell me more about Birdsquad Antoya…?
🫡 Let me gather up my random thoughts I've written about those two and elaborate... not that I think it's wildly foundationally different than in canon. But I like them and I like to make them interact. Birdsquad-typical unlabeled emotional intimacy. have whatever fun you want with it.
I think Toya is initially taken by the brightness An projects and how easily she seems to move in the world, which are both things he feels he fundamentally lacks - and when eventually he develops more perspective and confidence as An comes to peel back more of her insecurity, kind of the tables shift and he discovers something he can give her in return, which means a huge deal to him...
An does still struggle to understand him at first - as in canon, she meets him in birdsquad as Akito's incomprehensible tagalong (and here she and Akito already have a moderately complicated history of at least a year or so at that point), which is mostly what he will remain to her for a while yet. But honestly she struggles to understand herself as well, so it kinda goes hand in hand? As she grows to learn more about Toya and understand him better, and understand his relationship with his family etc, she figures out a bit more about how to understand herself too in a way she did not realize she was missing. Eg when they meet she still hasn't fully realized she also is struggling to understand her relationship with her own dad. Oh Ken I love you but (Shiraishi An voice) is anyone else their father's female son (pained smile). I'll talk more about birdsquad Ken eventually... though I think he's flawed in canon too so it just carries over.
In general An is so straightforward and candid with Toya, which he really appreciates as someone who finds it difficult and confusing how often so many people Aren't straightforward. An says what she means and if she wants him to know something she tells him. While trying to make her own sense of him she ends up helping him understand the things he's expressing too, and once she realizes that he's actually much more plainly enthusiastic about being included in things than Akito is, she makes sure to do so and treats them increasingly as separate people. But in general An doesn't really understand the weight of what she does for people and how much it means to them. She's just being An.
Toya to me is also so openminded and additionally is further than Kohane and Akito from what I lovingly refer to as An's "crazy fucking baggage issues problems blast radius", which is something she appreciates that about him - there are all these ugly and sad parts of her she barely realizes are there and doesn't know what to do with when she finally can't look away, but she finds it surprisingly easy to be vulnerable around Toya, who is a gentle presence. I think An mostly grew up in a chaotic and fast-paced environment which she has embraced as part of who she is, and it's not inherently a bad thing, but she also never really had a chance to appreciate that she could benefit from quiet introspection too. She thinks she has, there are lots of quiet moments before sunrise out at the marsh after all, but she still hasn't fully turned it inwards... Like her father, she spends more time keeping busy and thinking about other people. By July, An is possibly like two awkward rare bird stakeouts away from breaking down full-on ugly sobbing looking at a White Wagtail in a Wendy's parking lot.
Meanwhile most of Toya's life has been all quiet introspection and restraint - the only place that was ever truly his own was in his own head, and even that was rarely a comfortable retreat. So he very much wants to be part of An's world of wacky bird impressions, and scrambling down ridges (scary!) because she wants to stand in the stream she saw at the bottom, and impulsive car rides at 11 pm for ice cream. Compared to Akito, who is a bit more 'proud', An is much more likely to mess around in this free-spirited way which is new and infectious for Toya, who could never access such levity before. Yes, Toya carries a deep and particular affection for Akito, to whom he owes inconceivably much, but the texture there is its own, and that's a good thing - there's something unique and special to cherish about every person who for some reason has let Toya into their life and kept him around, and isn't that remarkable? Then, if the perspective Toya's past has enabled him to offer can return even a bit of that precious levity to that girl, it almost makes it a little easier for him to accept that he had to go through those things in the first place.
Sidenote. To be clear I don't think Akito is a stiff lol, and he definitely goes out of his way to have fun with Toya but. This post ain't about that guy. Nor is it about comparing him and An in depth because Toya himself isn't measuring those two against each other - he is just peacefully appreciating their differences. I think a particularly interesting part of where vbs starts to gel as a group and not just a set of duos is when each of them can begin to appreciate how their partner interacts with the others, and how they learn about each other through that. eg what Akito learns about Toya through how he interacts with An, or what An learns about Akito through how he treats Kohane, so on.
The drawings are based on An's song for Toya and Toya's song for An from my birdsquad playlist (which has songs for every combination of characters from each POV)...
As per usual, footnotes in the tags. Cheers, and thanks for the opportunity to parse this out!
Bonjour hi I love your art so much!!! I am wondering... I actually Cannot Tell are your ships Polysquad or not
allô and thank youuu! 💗💗
To be candid, I have purposefully been letting my art/writing speak for itself and leaving people to make of it whatever they perceive it to be, as I have presented it... the text is what it is. a lot of what I've drawn I'm happy for people to take platonically or romantically as they please, since I'm more just trying to depict closeness and intimacy in general rather than under any specific label.
That said, as a 'viewer' I do like various takes on polysquad (eg sometimes but not always '4 people equally entangled in every direction')! as well as the classic non poly anhane and akitoya... I honestly can like any ship within VBS including the M/F duos, though with those I do often find myself gravitating towards some sort of polysquad context, since it's hard for me Personally to shake at least some level of anhane/akitoya lurking around the corner, lol. I also like interrogating and deteriorating the boundary between platonic + romantic in their relationships... I will say, shipping for shipping's sake is often not my priority as a creator in general and hasn't been the motivation behind what I've drawn so far - I just like to tease out whatever interesting and specific dynamics might emerge between any combination of characters.
aside - I don't have strict universal headcanons - eg I like An as a lesbian in a classic anhane context, but if we're doing polysquad she is bi 🤷♀️ We're all just making stuff up for fun anyhow.
as for birdsquad, there aren't really any intended 'ships' so to speak at this juncture... of course the canon-typical an+kohane and akito+toya bonds are centrally in play (I stand by my statement of "canon-typical constant vaguely-to-extremely gay shit") and I tend to write them as queer - whether that is traditionally romantic or some other unlabeled-but-deeply-significant intimacy is mostly inconsequential to me. but in general, like I said above I guess, I really like exploring and deepening the connections between any given pair of the characters in whatever way feels like it would arise naturally from their personalities and circumstances, too. Everyone gets to do a little shit that looks gay to the viewers and not think too hard about it. More than anything, they are inextricably now and forever bound by the lifechanging beauty of the world that they are experiencing together.
I showed my girlfriend this ask and she said "This is like how in arizona [when eight of us went to Culver's in full birding getup] the old people thought we looked like a gang".
I hope people can enjoy what I make, whether they are multishippers or monoshippers or whatnot. It's all good to me, just be nice <3 I kinda just wandered in here off the street and don't know too much about the prsk shipping norms, etc, and don't have much experience posting fanart in general. If there's anything I am ever explicitly intending as exclusively romantic it will be tagged, otherwise enjoy a beautiful world where close friends can be emotionally intimate and vulnerable with each other to sometimes an intense degree. That's one of the big appeals to me of writing VBS the way I do...
Sorry if it's dissatisfying! I love nuance. I love to log on and be like man I think it depends. LOL. The TL;DR of it all is "yes I like polysquad, I also like non-polysquad, but I wouldn't explicitly categorize most of my work as ship art anyhow" :] cheers!
Hopefully that answers your question. it might have been totally convoluted. feel free to ask for clarification lol.
