Hi, you said on the eunuch archive forum that you always expected a high level of frustration after your penectomy but did not feel frustrated after you did it. Would you say that you feel frustrated now, or does cumming take care of that? Is it frustrating having a hard internal stump? Also, are you able to cum any time you want now, or is it still difficult? I really want to know because I plan on a penectomy soon, one way or another, and definitely want to keep my balls.
I have been really surprised by a lot of what I’ve been experiencing with my levels of horniness and the effects this has had on my body overall. My brain has adapted and it seems nothing feels out of the ordinary much anymore.
When I first did this I was horny all the time, like all I wanted to do was handle another mans cock constantly. It was all I could think about. Now, i’m not like that anymore. Maybe my body has recognized me being without a cock as a way of life, as a fact, and it’s adapted to that.
Frustration for the lack of cock from outside sources was the only thing I experienced. I have never been frustrated because I keep reaching down for what is no longer there. You don’t forget that fact.
Maybe at the beginning when I would get frustrated over the fact that I couldn’t figure out how to cum. I was never frustrated in general. I think it’s because I didn’t expect to feel relieved after my dick was removed. The relieved part was from so many years wasting my energy wanting it to happen.
Cumming has become something I rarely do. I’m not as horny as I use to be.
I went to a fetish party a while back and I was tied up wth my hands behind my back to a chair that sat in a permanent reclining position. My legs were strapped to either side of the chair. My balls were tied up with rope and stretched out in front of me. I was blindfolded. Someone spanked my balls with a leather strap and as much as I wanted to kick that fellows ass because I don’t get into that, he made me cum so hard that I think it broke me. I haven’t been the same level of horniness since then.
I think the other reason for my lack of horniness is that I don’t have the sensitive dick head rubbing against my boxerbriefs anymore and I’m not kept horny by that feeling.
I don’t masturbate to orgasm anymore. I think it’s because i’m let down by the actual ejaculation part. I don’t feel myself ejaculate, I only feel the orgasm leading up to it and that’s it.
Sure theres an after glow moment, and yeah I feel refreshed, but I don’t feel motivated enough anymore to do it. Maybe I should try to at least once a month… Maybe i’m just overwhelmed by life in general, or just plain depressed (there’s a lot going on outside of my sexual existance.)
It’s not frustrating having a hard internal stump. I enjoy rubbing it, I enjoy waking up to it hard in the mornings. If anything its become my invisible cock.
Cumming anytime I want. I can actually. I’ve learned that if I squeeze my balls hard enough and tug on them just right it will make me cum. It takes a while, like maybe a good 30 minutes of work, but i can cum easier now.
I can cum via my root, my reroute, by simply giving a guy a handjob, or by giving a blowjob, but i’ve never cum while getting fucked. When i’m getting fucked, if the fellow hits my prostate just right, i will leak seminal fluid constantly. I have multiple prostate orgasm in that manner, but instead of unloading my balls of cum, i just unload a ton of seminal fluid.
Your body has a way of adapting. I knew that when I was on my journey to get here. Even when I didn’t have any feeling at all in my cock from all the banding and alcohol injections, I learned to cum by stimulating my urethra at the base above the balls. I was disappointed that I could do that. When I had my glans removed, I still came in 5 minutes with little effort.
But, everyone is different. You may not experience the same. You may be a very frustrated man. I am simply happy and satisfied, and being dickless just feels like i was born this way. Surprises me that I feel like this. I thought I would regret it, I thought It would be different.
I hope that you can experience all of this for yourself soon. I hope that I have answered your questions. if not just private message me.