Mother Goose | chapter five
Summary: all you can do love despite the world filled with hate. For 3 years you have been dating your loving boyfriend Joel Miller, while also being a motherly figure to his teenage daughter Sarah. The two of you get separated the day of the outbreak never to see each other again. 20 years later the two of reunite.
warnings: spoilers for the hbo show and video game, fluff
“Ah, I see the problem,” you say, your eyes narrowing slightly as you examine Joel’s back muscles. The tension etched in his shoulders and the way he winces when you press a little harder tell you all you need to know.
Joel had come into the clinic today, which was always a bit odd. He was a stubborn old man, after all, and he more often than not refused to come in for check-ups. “You’re getting old,” you tease, your tone light as you try to ease the tension in the room.
“Watch who you’re calling old, sweetheart,” Joel huffs back, his voice laced with mock indignation. His lips twitch into a reluctant smirk, betraying the tough exterior he usually tried to maintain.
You chuckle at his response. "Nothing wrong with getting old".
"I didn’t come here to listen to your sass. I came because I thought I might be falling apart.”
You soften a bit at that, your fingers pausing on his back. “You’re not falling apart, Joel. You just need to take it easy. You’ve been carrying the weight of the world for too long.”
His expression shifts, the teasing glint in his eyes brightening the room. “You know Ellie’s going to see the movie playing tonight. You know what that means,” he says, a smirk playing on his lips.
You pause, momentarily taken aback, then chuckle lightly. “I think that would make your back worse, lovely,” you reply, arching an eyebrow as you move around to your nurse’s table, the warmth of your earlier conversation still lingering in the air.
He watches you, his gaze intent, a mix of admiration and mischief dancing in his eyes before he grabs your waist, pulling you effortlessly onto his lap. His hands grip your thighs, the warmth of his touch sending a delightful thrill through you. “Or maybe it’ll fix it. You know, put it back into place for me”. he counters, his voice low and teasing.
You chuckle, playfully rolling your eyes. Joel leans in, a mischievous grin playing on his lips as he closes the space between you. You meet him with a gentle kiss, and he hums into it, the sound vibrating through you, full of longing. When you finally pull away, the annoyance at the sudden absence of his lips lingers, leaving you both breathless.
It’s been a few months since the two of you reunited, and somehow it feels like no time has passed. You fell back into each other’s rhythm as if you hadn’t spent twenty long years apart, navigating the complexities of life and loss together, piece by piece.
“Ellie likes you; you know?” Joel admits, his tone shifting to something more sincere.
You smile softly at the mention of her name, your heart warming at the thought. “I like her too. She’s a good kid.”
He nods, the corners of his mouth lifting slightly, but then his expression turns serious. “She doesn’t trust people too easily, and it seems like she’s starting to trust you more now.”
The weight of his words settles in, filling you with a sense of responsibility and honour. “I'm glad she trusts me,” you reply, your voice soft but steady. “I want to be someone she can rely on".
"She'll get there, give her time".
The heat of the summer sun poured over Jackson County, making the fields shimmer like a mirage in the distance. You stood by the fence, leaning against the weathered wood as they watched Ellie in the pasture with Shimmer. Ellie’s excitement was palpable, her movements animated as she fumbled with the saddle straps on the young horse.
"Ellie, slow down," You called out gently. "Horses need patience, not just strength."
Ellie huffed, her brow furrowed in concentration, a streak of determination that reminded you of Joel. She was impulsive, rushing through the process, her frustration mounting as the straps wouldn’t cooperate.
"I got it," Ellie muttered under her breath, stubborn as always.
You walked over, calmly placing a hand on Ellie’s shoulder, stopping her in her tracks. "I know you can do it," you say softly, "but Shimmer can feel when you’re frustrated. She needs to trust you."
Ellie glanced up, her guarded expression softening just a little. She wanted so desperately to prove herself, but there was still an innocence there—a need for approval, for guidance she wouldn’t ask for outright.
"Here, let me show you," you offered, stepping beside her. "Watch how you loop the strap like this." They moved slowly, explaining each step. Ellie watched closely, biting her lip, her impatience simmering down as she followed your movements.
Shimmer stirred a little but remained calm, as if sensing the shift in Ellie's demeanor. The horse nudged Ellie’s shoulder with her nose, and a small, reluctant smile tugged at the corners of the teenager’s mouth.
"I think she likes you," you remarked, watching as Ellie gently patted Shimmer’s neck.
"Yeah, well, she’s not so bad," Ellie muttered, but you could see the way her face softened, the walls she usually kept up around her slowly crumbling as she began to bond with the animal.
For a while, they stood there in the summer heat, Ellie running her hands through Shimmer’s mane, while every now then then you offer quiet guidance. It was a small moment, but in a world that had taken so much from Ellie, these little victories were everything.
Later, as Ellie mounted Shimmer and trotted around the field, you couldn’t help but smile. Ellie was so full of life, her laughter ringing out as Shimmer galloped faster. Watching her like this, so carefree, you felt a warmth in your chest—a protectiveness, a love that had grown unexpectedly strong.
The early morning fog hung low over Jackson, a chill in the air that clung to the wooden beams of the porch where you sat, cradling a warm mug of coffee. It was quiet, save for the occasional rustle of leaves stirred by the breeze. The sun had barely begun to rise, casting the world in soft, muted tones of grey and amber. You loved this time of day, the stillness before the town fully awoke.
The front door creaked open, breaking the silence. Your eyes flicked toward it just in time to see Ellie—clad in Joel’s oversized jacket, which practically swallowed her whole—slinking through the doorway. Her movements were careful, almost comically exaggerated as she tiptoed across the porch, clearly not expecting anyone to be up this early.
"Going somewhere?" You asked, voice calm but amused, as they watched Ellie freeze mid-step.
Ellie’s head whipped around, her expression caught somewhere between surprise and annoyance. "Shit," she muttered under her breath, then straightened up, trying to play it cool. "Just… going for a walk," she said, nonchalantly stuffing her hands into the jacket pockets, though the sleeves were too long, and her fingers barely peeked out.
You raised an eyebrow, taking a sip from your mug. "A walk? At this hour? With your knife strapped to your belt?"
Ellie winced slightly, her hand reflexively reaching down to adjust the weapon, then gave a shrug, her usual bravado quickly returning. "You never know what’s out there," she said with a smirk. "I like to be prepared."
"Mmhmm." Your gaze softened as they leaned back in your chair. You knew exactly what was going on—Ellie was trying to sneak off on patrol. She’d been restless for weeks, constantly asking Joel about joining in, proving herself. But she was still just a bit too young, too impulsive, and Joel wasn’t having any of it. Ellie, being Ellie, had clearly decided to take matters into her own hands.
You watched her for a long moment, and despite the part of them that wanted to send her right back inside, something stopped them. There was a fire in Ellie, a need to prove she could pull her weight, and in this world, it wasn’t something you could easily snuff out. Maybe it was time to let her try.
"Well," you say slowly, "if you’re going to go, at least zip up that jacket. It’s too damn cold out there for you to be wandering around half dressed."
Ellie blinked, her expression shifting from suspicion to surprise. She hadn’t expected to get this far without being sent back inside. "Wait—you’re not gonna stop me?" she asked, clearly skeptical.
"Not this time," you replied, standing up and walking over to her. "But if Joel asks, I didn’t see anything, and you’d better stay close to the group. No heroics, understand?"
Ellie nodded quickly, a grin spreading across her face. "Got it," she said, already turning to head off before you could change your mind.
"Ellie," you call after her. Ellie paused, looking back over her shoulder. You reached out, fixing the zipper of her jacket, just like you had done so many times before. "Be careful, okay?"
Ellie’s grin softened, and for a brief moment, the tough exterior she always wore cracked. "Yeah," she muttered, almost shyly. "I will."
With that, she was off, disappearing into the misty morning with an excited bounce in her step. You stood on the porch, watching her go, a mix of pride and worry swirling in your chest. Joel was not going to be happy when he found out, but somehow, you knew this was the right choice. Ellie needed this, just as much as she needed someone to believe in her.
Later, when Joel inevitably came storming in, his voice gruff and full of concern, you would hold your ground. "She’s not a little kid anymore, Joel," they’d say calmly. "She needs to learn to stand on her own two feet, and we can’t shelter her forever."
The wind howled outside, rattling the windows and piling snow against the cabin’s walls. Inside, the fire crackled steadily, casting a soft glow that kept the room cozy and warm. Ellie was sprawled out on the rug in front of the hearth, staring into the flames. You sat nearby, a book in your lap, but your attention kept drifting toward the door.
He’d been out on patrol, scheduled to return before the storm hit, but as the hours ticked by and the weather worsened, worry had begun to settle in. You could see it on Ellie’s face, too—though she hadn’t said anything, her usual restlessness was absent, replaced by a quiet tension that neither of them wanted to address.
"You cold?" you ask softly. "I can grab another blanket if you need."
Ellie shook her head, not looking away from the fire. "Nah, I’m fine," she muttered. Her voice was distant, and the flickering light reflected off her furrowed brow. She pulled Joel’s oversized jacket tighter around her, though, a subconscious gesture that you couldn’t help but notice.
You set down your and stood, crossing the room to sit beside Ellie. "You want me to read to you? Or we could play cards. Something to pass the time."
Ellie’s eyes flicked toward the door briefly before she forced her gaze back to the fire. "Joel’s fine, right?" she asked, her voice quieter now, almost hesitant. "He’s probably just… waiting out the storm or something."
"Yeah, he’s fine," you said quickly, though the knot in your own stomach made it harder to say the words with conviction. You reached out, placing a hand gently on Ellie’s shoulder. "He’s been out in worse, and he’s smart enough to know when to stay put. He’ll make it back once the storm calms down."
Ellie nodded, but the tension in her body didn’t ease. She sat up, pulling her knees to her chest and resting her chin on them. "It’s just… he should’ve been back by now."
You sighed softly, hating how powerless they both felt. "I know," you say, moving closer. "I’m worried too, but Joel’s tough. If anyone can handle themselves out there, it’s him."
Ellie was quiet for a moment, staring at the fire, her fingers nervously picking at the edge of the jacket. "What if…" she started, then trailed off, swallowing hard.
You felt your chest tighten. "Hey, look at me," you say gently. Ellie hesitated, then turned her head, her eyes meeting yours "Joel’s coming back. You know he wouldn’t leave us hanging like this. He’s probably hunkered down somewhere, waiting it out."
Ellie’s face softened, but the fear lingered in her eyes. You could see the walls she’d built around herself beginning to crack, the same walls that always went up whenever someone she cared about was in danger.
"Come on," you say, standing up and offering Ellie a hand. "Let’s do something. Waiting around and staring at the door isn’t going to help, right?"
Ellie looked at the outstretched hand, then reluctantly took it, letting you pull her to her feet. "Like what?" she asked, her tone still guarded.
"Well, we could finish that puzzle we started," you suggested, nodding toward the half-completed jigsaw on the table. "Or maybe you can teach me how to beat you at cards. You’re getting too good."
A faint smile tugged at Ellie’s lips, though it didn’t quite reach her eyes. "You’re terrible at cards," she said, her voice lightening just a bit. "But I guess I could give you another shot."
They moved over to the table, you sit down and pulling out the deck of cards, grateful for the small distraction. Ellie followed, sitting across from them, though her gaze still drifted toward the window every now and then.
"Alright," you say, shuffling the cards. "Let’s see if I’ve learned anything from all those times you’ve beaten me."
Ellie smirked, leaning forward. "Doubt it," she said, some of her usual sass returning. "I’ll probably still kick your ass."
"That’s the spirit," you replied with a smile, dealing out the cards. As they played, they kept the conversation light, telling Ellie stories from your past, anything to keep her mind off the storm and Joel’s absence.
Time passed slowly, but as they continued playing, the tension in the room gradually eased. Ellie’s competitive nature took over, and for a little while, they both managed to push the worry to the back of their minds.
There was a sound—faint at first, then louder—a knock at the door.
Ellie shot up immediately, throwing off the blanket as she rushed to the door. You followed close behind, heart pounding in your chest. Ellie yanked the door open, and there, standing in the blinding white of the storm, was Joel.
He was covered in snow, his face red from the cold, but alive. His eyes were sharp, scanning the room quickly before landing on Ellie. He stepped inside, brushing off the snow, and before he could even speak, Ellie launched herself at him, wrapping her arms tightly around his waist.
"Jesus, kid," Joel muttered, though his voice was softer than usual, as if he wasn’t expecting the sudden embrace. His gloved hand came up to rest on her back, holding her close.
"You took too long," Ellie mumbled into his coat, her voice thick with emotion.
"Yeah, well, that storm’s a real bitch," Joel replied, his tone gruff, but there was an undeniable warmth beneath it. He looked over at you, his eyes meeting yours, and there was a brief moment of understanding between them. They both knew how close it had been, and how much this moment meant to Ellie.
You stepped forward, placing a gentle kiss on Joel's cold lips, before turning his attention back to Ellie.
"You’re all right?" Ellie asked, pulling back slightly but still clutching his coat.
Joel gave her a small, reassuring smile. "I’m fine. Just got held up. Didn’t mean to worry you."
Ellie huffed, wiping at her eyes quickly before stepping back and trying to regain her composure. "You didn’t worry me," she lied, her voice a little too loud. "I just didn’t want to have to explain to the town how you froze to death out there."
Joel chuckled, ruffling her hair. "Yeah, well, good thing I didn’t, huh?"
You smiled softly, watching the exchange. Ellie had Joel back, and for tonight, that was all that mattered. They stepped aside as Joel shed his snow-covered coat and stomped the snow off his boots, feeling a quiet relief settle in the warmth of the house once more.
As they all settled back in by the fire, the storm continued to rage outside, but inside, there was peace—a warmth that had nothing to do with the flames, but with the people who made it feel like home.
Spring had arrived in Jackson, infusing the town with a sense of renewal and warmth. The sun hung high in the sky, its rays filtering through the trees and casting dappled shadows on the ground. The air was fragrant with blooming flowers, and the sounds of life filled the town as people emerged from the confines of winter.
You and Ellie rode side by side on their horses—Shimmer and a sturdy bay mare—moving at a leisurely pace along a well-trodden path outside of town. The warmth of the day was a welcome embrace, and Ellie’s laughter danced on the breeze as they navigated the familiar trails.
"So, how was school this week?" You asked, glancing over at Ellie, who wore a broad grin despite her usual bravado.
Ellie rolled her eyes, her expression shifting from cheerful to reluctant. "Ugh, it was a total drag," she replied, her tone exaggerated. "We had to help out with the little kids again for some stupid assignment."
You raised an eyebrow, intrigued. "Helping the younger kids? Sounds like a good chance to be a role model."
Ellie snorted. "Yeah, if ‘role model’ means making fairy gardens with a bunch of whiny six-year-olds." She huffed, her annoyance clear. "My friends got to help teach them how to fish or build stuff, but I got stuck with a garden project. I swear, it’s like they think I’m some kind of… of… gnome whisperer."
You smiled, nudging your horse closer to Shimmer. "You’d be surprised. Kids love that kind of thing. It’s their way of using their imagination. They might think you’re a rock star for helping them."
Ellie rolled her eyes again, but a hint of a smile broke through her pout. "Yeah, but what do I even know about fairies? I’m more about survival and, like, making weapons than about building little gardens."
"Maybe this is a chance to teach them something else," You suggested. "You could show them how to make their gardens tough. Talk about resilience and what it means to take care of something. It’s kind of like what we do out here, right? You’re nurturing the garden, just like we nurture our community."
Ellie considered that for a moment, her brow furrowing. "I guess… But it’s still not as fun as I imagined it would be. I mean, I’d rather be out here on patrol with you than stuck in a classroom digging in dirt."
You smiled at her enthusiasm for their ride. "And that’s exactly why it’s important to give back. You get to be a role model. Besides, think of all the funny stories you can tell them about your patrols."
"Yeah, I could totally tell them about the time I almost fell off Shimmer trying to scare off that deer," Ellie said, her voice brightening at the thought. "They’d probably love that. Maybe I can spin it into a fairy tale about bravery and stuff."
"See? You’re already turning it into something better," you encouraged, proud of how Ellie was beginning to see the potential in her task.
Ellie smiled, her eyes sparkling with newfound excitement. "Okay, I’ll try to make it more fun. Maybe I can convince them to put some rocks in there for gnome fortresses or something."
You laughed, picturing Ellie regaling a group of kids with tales of epic gnome battles. "Now that sounds like a project, I’d want to be part of."
As they continued their patrol, the world around them felt lighter, filled with the promise of spring. The trees were budding, and the air was fragrant with the scent of new blooms. The day stretched before them like an unwritten story, each moment a chance for Ellie to grow a little more into the person she was becoming.
"Thanks for listening, you know," Ellie said, her tone more genuine now. "It feels good to get it off my chest. I guess I was just frustrated about not doing what I wanted."
"Anytime, Ellie," you replied, your heart swelling at the connection between them. "I’m always here to listen. And I’m sure Joel would be proud of you for helping out the younger kids. He always talks about how important it is to look out for each other."
Ellie nodded, her expression thoughtful. "Yeah, I guess I can see that. Maybe I’ll surprise him with how cool I make this garden."
"You will," you assured her, your eyes shining with pride. "You’re capable of more than you think."
As they rode on, the weight of worry from the winter began to lift, replaced by the hope blossoming with the flowers around them. The bond they shared grew stronger with each passing moment, and Ellie’s spirit shone brighter than ever in the spring sun.