genre: social medis au, crack (because my whole life is a comedy) with a pinch of angst (like the tiniest drop. you wont even notice it)
rating: 16+
warnings: strong language, toxic relationship, LONG HAIR WOOYOUNG, bad jokes, probably a kms joke, iomt era wooyoung
synopsis: kira always had a crush on her (adoptive) older brother's best friend, but him being there for her in one of the most vulnerable times in her life turned a dormant crush into raging feelings.
cast: ateez members, yeri, and ningning (i wrote this in 2024 with no intentions of posting it and it was just before i wrote the mingi smau, which is why the characters are the same).
i really just want to write fanfic for footballers but i'm so scared of the fans and i know close to nothing about the sport other than they kick a ball around for 90+ minutes.
like damn, i just think william saliba is so fine and wanna write a wee little one shot.
I swear I thought I was going crazy when no one has having te same thoughs as me. Engenes are causing more harm to Enhypen than they think.
this is the last time i will be talking about this or interacting with anyone about this (maybe). but literally, this is fucking crazy.
boycotts have proven pointless MANY times. petitions down really work eiter, because at the end of the day, entertainment companies do not care about how some fans feel about things. they know they will get their money from other things anyway, AND it's only one fandom actually trying to boycott.
i don't side with companies, i hate their expoitative practices, but when it comes to boycotts, you need to keep the people working in these companies in mind too. that would be bigger than just one person. this whole thing is just irrational. you say dont interact, don't buy this, that and the third, but thats literally part of how artists make money (if the company isn't paying them peanuts), so i don't want to see anyone saying it won't affect them and i am pretty sure
its also extremely parasocial. it's really not that hard to accept that someone is not in a group anymore. it happens all te time, yet this is the very first time i've seen almost a whole fandom be this annoying about it.
there's more i want to say, but i would be here all day.
// I’m sorry, but. The people who are putting THIS much effort into protesting and boycotting when if Heeseung had never left they would’ve been dead silent.
(Others have noticed that the ENGENEs mostly pushing hard for the boycott are all teenagers or in their very early twenties and, like… yeah it’s easy to boycott when you’re spending your allowance or birthday money per album and have no clue how the music industry works.)
What seriously irritates me is the framing of this as a boycott for moral reform when nah, y’all didn’t start protesting like THIS until after Heeseung left + this is so not how the company is going to take it.
(Also, be so serious, y’all CANNOT be going on about how ENHA are overworked and clearly exhausted and then in the same sentence say how much you want Heeseung back in that position. Just so you can have your OT7 lineup again. Which is it? Either you want him to have more creative control and a less demanding schedule, or you don’t.)
Another thing: The disrespect to bring the OT6 vs OT7 spam wars into the members’ Weverse lives—Jay’s birthday live, no less—and the audacity of some to boycott everything ENHYPEN related (including the members’ birthdays) is completely bonkers to me.
Jungwon had to address this during his live for people to “stop with the number games” and that his space was only for ENGENEs. (Therefore, the members don’t consider those spamming OT6 vs OT7 & about Heeseung/protests/boycotts to be true ENGENE.)
Jay had to take time out of his birthday live to call y’all out on your shit—and you know he was seriously pissed because he did so in English and his scary calm voice.
Sunghoon and Sunoo have also addressed the fact that ENHYPEN is continuing with the lineup of six members after Heeseung’s departure. That’s four members right there telling people to stop. All six have said they want ENGENE to continue loving and supporting them.
Jake commented in an interview after the first three days of Blood Saga tour that as much as they appreciate ENGENE being concerned for their health, this is their job, they chose this career, and they love what they do.
I’m (not) sorry but at this point it just looks like y’all are throwing a tantrum because Heeseung made a business decision you do not like.
The decision was already made and final when it was announced Heeseung was going solo while remaining under Be:Lift. That alone says a lot that the company reworked his contract to let him remain with them to pursue a solo career—this is not done in K-pop. Soloists who also have group activities usually go with a sister company (or another company altogether) for their solo work. Protesting is not going to get him back. Boycotting is only going to hurt both ENHYPEN and EVAN/Heeseung as a soloist.
Not to mention: the fact that those of us who want to support ENHYPEN as 6 + Heeseung as a soloist have been called “not true ENGENEs” is insane to me. Like??? I’m not the one out here throwing a hissy fit because a member left the group, cyber-bullying the ENHYPEN members, harassing other fans, and fighting tooth and nail to get him back when it’s already clear he’s not returning and has already launched his soloist rebrand.
Moving on.
Stop spreading misinformation and hysteria while claiming to love and wanting to "protect" your idol. This helps nobody.
"But Heeseung was forced to leave!" As I've stated before: We do not know that. We are not Heeseung, the members, or Be:Lift management. It's been clear since late December / early January that ENHYPEN were in contract renewal discussions, so this must have been in the works for a while. With the Blood Saga tour taking place for over a year (2026 - 2027), during the time their contract would be up, it's clear now that this was the most optimal time for Heeseung to get out of that demanding schedule while having time to work on his solo album— something he's been working on since 2024. A solo album debut does not happen overnight, and frankly, Heeseung looks much more relaxed and happier.
We have the official statements from both Be:Lift and Heeseung himself, that this was the best decision for everyone involved. He had a say in the decision for him leave the group in order to go solo while remaining under the same company. Deal with it.
For the rest of this, I am going to put my German-American bluntness on full blast, look you dead in the eyes, and hold your hands firmly when I say it.
"But Heeseung's letter was AI!" That's been debunked. Y'all will truly take gut feelings and Tarot readings over reality.
"A staff member saw Heeseung crashing out in the hallway!" This is the Internet, where anybody can pretend to be whoever they want and claim whatever they want. There are zero (0) photos or videos circulating online to back this claim up.
"ENHYPEN miss him and want him back!" I'm sure they miss him; it's been 6 years as ENHA and they've known him personally for longer than that. There's always an adjustment period whenever a member leaves a K-pop group, and this is their first world tour with a 6-member lineup. However, they are not sending y'all secret signals to keep protesting or to discreetly say they want their hyung back in the group by whatever means necessary. At this point, anyone saying this sounds completely parasocial, and having lost the plot entirely. Truly hobbyless behavior. BTW, it's also completely normal for the members to get emotional and cry during a concert. Not everything has to be tied back to Heeseung, good grief.
"They're trying to erase Heeseung with the new fanchant!" That's what happens to every single K-pop group when a member leaves: the fanchant is edited to fit the remaining members. This is not new to ENHYPEN and Heeseung leaving. Tell me this is your first time having a member leave a group without telling me. It's also normal for the members to guide the new fanchant themselves, as it's an adjustment period for them, too. Heeseung's going to have his own fanchant for his solo career + his various songs.
"But HYBE's stocks dropped! The boycott is working!" In case you all hadn't noticed, there are three highly unpopular wars going on in the world right now, the most recent of which having started within the past month (+ heightened tensions between certain Asian countries). That is obviously going to affect stock all across the entertainment industry worldwide, not just HYBE and Be:Lift. People are dying en masse and y'all are more concerned about a K-pop idol leaving his group. Get some perspective.
"But the pepper spray attack by OT6 fans on OT7 fans!" I'll take “Things That Never Happened” for 500, Alex.
Jungwon told ENGENEs not to push during Blood Saga or he wouldn't go over to where they were. Jay has noticed ENGENE fainting in the crowd before. ENHYPEN have had to go backstage on previous tours because fans were not respecting their requests to behave. Artists notice things that go on in the audience when they're onstage. You're seriously trying to tell me that a weapon such as pepper spray (which wouldn't make it past security, by the way) would be deployed and ENHA + their security wouldn't notice a thing? Come on. Be for real. If that had actually happened, it would have been shut down, those responsible taken in, and ENHA would have said something. As it is, there is, again, zero footage of this supposed attack circulating online that isn't AI-generated / otherwise faked, just text claims that people are taking and running with as fact.
Stop spreading misinformation.
(And some of y'all are way too fucking casual about death threats, threating to commit crimes, and violence, heilige Scheiße.)
Get outside. Touch grass.
If you're not going to support ENHYPEN as 6 members and Heeseung in his solo career as EVAN, then at this point you should probably leave the fandom. Efforts to bring him back to the group have, by now, done far more harm than good and spiraled completely out of control.
This isn't activism. This is not a boycott centered around the members' welfare. This is parasocial entitlement taken way too far and dressed up as activism so y'all can have the moral high ground.
And I, for one, am sick and fucking tired of it and not being able to look up ENHYPEN content without being spammed. Get an actual hobby that sparks joy.
if anything, the ones who are acting like this are causing harm. it also shows that they do not care about the rest of the group because they've spoken out and people are still continuing.
people are also not thinking about the flip side that he probably wanted to leave, which is highly likely. it's not unusual for someone to leave their group to go solo. not everything is a conspiracy.
now let me go back to regular programming. i just had to go to your page when i saw your comment 😭
i don't know how many more posts i'll make sharing my opinion on this. granted i don't have to but it keeps popping up on my feed.
i really have no idea why it's so hard to accept that a member has left a kpop group. you would swear enhypen is the first group to go a member down with the way engenes are acting. i thought the hysteria would die down, but come on, it's may. like, if it were another member of the group, would they be acting like this too?
this shouldn't be difficult. i just have to go in there and talk to him. simple.
at least that's what i told myself, but it's proving to be the complete opposite. i've been blowing him off for a week because i'm a coward and i don't know how to confront people. i'm embarrassed to admit that the only reason i'm here is because yeonjun told me i've been stalling.
i gently knock on the door and it doesn't take long for him to open. the first thing i see is a messy haired, 5pm shadow, son of a bitch staring at me.
"baby, what the fuck?" he says to me before letting me in. "what's going on? why the fuck haven't you been answering my texts or calls?"
"i've been a bit busy lately. dealing with a few things." i tell him calmly despite my heart beating in my throat.
"i missed you." he tells me and gives me the softest look he can muster and my brave face immediately begins to falter. he tries going in for a hug but i remember what i'm here for and put a hand in his chest to stop him and he takes a few steps back. "what's wrong?"
"tristen... have you been, like, a hundred percent honest in this relationship?" i stumble on my words and i want nothing more than to go home because that's not what i practiced in front of the mirror.
"of course i have, baby. what? is that why you've been ghosting me?"
"no." i immediately respond. maybe too quickly because his eyebrows knit together, but he doesn't say anything. "it's nothing."
"shiloh what's going on? are you doubting me?"
"tristen..."
"you think i'm cheating on you, don't you? do you realize how ridiculous that sounds?" he says, his voice slightly raising as he takes a step towards me, but i take a step back to avoid us getting any closer.
"tri-"
"i thought you loved me. isn't love build on trust? if you don't trust me, you don't love me."
"i never said anything about cheating, but now that you've brought it up, let's talk about it!!"
"are you serious right now?" he asks and i stand there and look at him right in the eye. "ANSWER ME DAMMIT!"
i look at his clearly annoyed and frustrated expression for a second. if he's angry then what am i?
"it hurts that you think that. have i ever given you a reason to doubt me?" i scoff at his words because it's not the first time he's pulled the victim card. it's either that or he shifts the conversation to me or he pulls the "i love you" card.
"you have. all those times you were being secretive, i brushed it off. when i confronted you, you said i was being too clingy. that i was pushy when i asked for answers, that i was being too possessive. you told me i was overthinking things, so i let it go. you constantly have excuses and, my goodness, you don't run out. how am i not supposed to think the worst?"
"and i meant what i said when i said you were overthinking things. you always think the worst. how would you feel if i came to you accusing you of cheating? have you not given me reasons to think that?"
prime example of him shifting the blame.
"don't shift the blame on me, you always do that and i'm actually quite tired of it. for goodness sake, i don't think you're cheating, tristen, i know you fucking are!"
"what?" he exclaims with genuine looking shock on his face and i need to hold myself back from slapping it right off. "kira, do you hear how fucking ridiculous you sound right now? why would i cheat on you?"
"ask yourself that! fuck, tristen i'm not just pulling this out of my ass."
"it surely seems like you are! you'd do anything to make me look like the bad guy."
"give me your phone." i simply say, holding out my hand and he pauses.
"what do you need it for?"
"just give me your damn phone tristen!"
"no. that's an invasion of privacy."
"so i can just nail it down to the fact that you are actually cheating on me."
"what the fuck? here you go, damn."
he unlocks it and gives it to me. i immediately go to the most obvious place, his messages but i find nothing suspicious as i scroll through. knowing how smart he is, he probably deletes any incriminating conversations regularly come the day he wants to make me look dumb.
"see, there's nothing." he says reaching for his phone but i move it away from him.
"i'm not done, asshole." i tell him and he rolls his eyes.
i look for the instagram app which is nowhere to be found and i almost lose hope until i look for it elsewhere. i search up instagram and there lies a purple link. i look up from his phone at him and click on it and it almost feels like forever waiting for it to load but when it finally does, i see it signed in to the account ningning showed me. there where there are multiple pictures of him with another girl.
"am i still a crazy bitch tristen?" i ask him, handing him his phone which is still displaying the account.
"baby."
"does she know you have a girlfriend or was i the on on the side?"
"no, she knows..." he answers lowly, keeping his eyes on the ground as if now is the right time to be ashamed. as if he hasn't embarrassed me multiple times, letting me around his friends who knew everything but still smiled in my face.
"so what was our relationship? was it real to you, or something to keep you busy while you wait to be with your other girl?" i ask him, feeling my eyes start to sting but i refuse to let any tears form. at least not on front of him.
"baby please listen to me."
"oh fuck off! don't give me that. there's nothing to explain, it's clear as fucking day!" i yell and start moving towards the door but he grips onto my arm to stop me.
"kira, please."
"let go of me, tristen! we're done! i don't have anything else to do hereand i sure as hell don't want anything to do with you." i swing my arm out of his hold and walk to the door.
"you're not seriously breaking up with me, are you?" he asks, his voice lower than i've ever heard it and i scoff, turning it him.
"where on my face does it say that i'm joking?" he doesn't say anything and his gaze still doesn't meet mine and i. shake my head. "this was barely a relationship anyway. just leave me alone, okay?"
i turn, feeling the tears form in my eyes and leave before i they fall. once i step outside, i feel the much cooler air outside hit me and i walk home with tears finally falling down my face, but this time i don't stop them.
