soap-ster

~~ hi !! i'm soph, i'm 19, bi and i use they/she pronouns. nice to meet you !! ~~

[givemearmstopraywith]

vanessa stockard

[soap-ster]

i love art

[superultra2dtunes]

[soap-ster]

i wanna try acid now

[ripe]

evosia on ig

[tonystarkstan]

my brain: here’s this amazing story idea!!!

me, sitting in front of a blank document: okay, cool, let’s put it into words!!

my brain:

[ladywaterfall]

sir, that’s my emotional support vintage toy collection

[aestheticfelicity]

[soap-ster]

well doesn’t that sound nice

[reallyhardydraws]

from giving his jacket to giving his heart!!! i love finn and poe i’m glad that they got married.

[soap-ster]

this is all i want in life

[im-the-batmann]

[lorelaigilmoure]

#enjoy the ride i do

[soap-ster]

wholesome content for our somewhat sad souls

[myfairynuffstuff]

Ernst Lindgren (1887 - 1948) - Winter Landscape. 1945. Oil on cardboard.

[flowerais-deactivated20211031]

one day you will wake up refreshed, drink coffee and be able to read a book the same way you did when you were little. you will have a cat who curls up to sleep on your lap or a playful dog who is happy to see you. you will be the kindest you can be, listening to stories, and checking up on people often. you will make pancakes in the morning and decorate your abode with plants, your old paintings and cozy cushions. you will fill photo albums with blurry photos of your new friends and road trips and summery evenings. you will visit your favorite bakery and library often, and keep in touch with people you love. things won’t be perfect, but you’ll be at peace with yourself and you will be in love with life again. 

[disease-deactivated20210414]

NATASHA LYONNE

[soap-ster]

my wife

[podcastwizard]

hearing the john mulaney “do my friends hate me or do i just need to go to sleep” bit is the best thing to have happened for my mental health because every time i’m afraid my friends hate me it’s around the time i should be going the fuck to sleep

[soap-ster]

this quote has brought many long sad nights to an end, so thanks john mulaney :-)

[louisvuitttonn]

SZA for the FADER, 2018

[soap-ster]

heaven - ly

[odysseyeight]

Today feels like a good day to wander into a forest for 30 years only to come back with antlers, a thousand yard stare and the ability to speak to the earth.

[soap-ster]

what can i do to build you up?

the irises of my eyes are blue,

they run in the family.

but it’s clear you’re not part of a proper one,

so let me offer you this pardon.

this gift to help make you a fitting piece.

and it’s clear you are scared to say the wrong things,

so take this tongue.

i found it laying about,

and it's clearly been used,

so it isn’t as important as it used to be.

and without my tongue,

my teeth have nothing to bite on.

i don’t want them to get lonely,

so you should have them as well.

oh my bones are breaking down,

and they aren’t essential to me.

you should have them,

you’re not being greedy.

don’t worry they’re yours.

make yourself at home in what was previously my skin and bones.

go ahead,

have my hands.

they are getting shaky and don’t mean too much to me.

it’s clear you’re more deserving.

and my skin is not as smooth as it used to be,

so you should have it too.

now that my blood doesn’t have skin to keep it in place,

i want it to be yours.

i didn’t deserve it anyway.

i hope these pieces make you feel okay,

they’re all i have to give.

and now i’ve built you up into the person i wanted to be.

(a poem by me)

[wishbzne-deactivated20210526]

Do poets really suffer more than other people?

Margaret Atwood, from The Words Continue Their Journey (via wishbzne)

no, they just write about their suffering