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24 Also a pathetic excuse for a person

[retropicool]

[eliminated]

[knightlyhoods-deactivated202404]

this has got to be THE funniest sentence ive seen all day im gonna cry

[quaadude]

Me getting my name called to get my order at Starbucks

[naturaekos]

[softpetal-s]

10/05/21 8:47pm

Lmao been a while

Life’s good - the last year has been wild but I wouldn’t change a thing because whilst it’s been wild it’s been a fucking GREAT year

Got rid of all the toxic shitty people that were in my life and started doing shit for myself and I’m so much better for it

Works annoying but it’ll get better, the rest of my socials have been deactivated and I feel so free right now

Time to shed some kilos and be a boss ass bitch

[softpetal-s]

10/06/20 1:34am

Lol we can disregard the part of the last post about people/a person of interest coming into my life as recent as February/March

I got bailed on and basically told they’d found someone better so - back to the drawing board lol

The last few nights have been pretty rough, but I’m not sure why - I don’t know if it’s due to Venus Retrograde (I kinda feel like it is because I feel super fuckin lonely Rn) and I’m having trouble trying to see why anyone would find interest in me because I do not feel like I am good enough nor am I worthy - but it’s something I’m craving so damn much and I can’t shake it

Anyhoo sook over goodnight

[softpetal-s]

06/05/20 1:44am

It’s wild, I haven’t used tumblr since August 2019 and it’s crazy going through the roller coaster of emotions reading through all of my text posts.

To the person I loved for a really long time and currently still find it hard to not wonder about you on a regular basis: I hope you’re well. If you still remember about this blog, and by chance happen to stumble across after reading this, I’d really like to have the chance to go for coffee and to just speak to you again and regain our friendship.

To whoever reads this:

I can’t remember the last time I had a “bad night” - I definitely still continue to pity myself and my looks however I don’t always want to “end it” anymore. Maybe on the rare occasion where I feel helpless, but like I said - this is rare nowadays, and I think that’s good and that it’s progress even though I’ve never properly been diagnosed with anything to support feeling such raw emotions.

There’s some people that have come into my life over the last 1-2 years, even as recent as February/March who I feel really really lucky to have around because they’re just so fantastic and have such a high vibration that can match mine so easily - I also didn’t think I’d find interest in anyone so soon after the end of a 3 year relationship that has sculpted me in more ways than one - maybe it’s just the universe putting things into play for me and pushing me to move forward and pursue something and/or someone that’s right in front of me (this would make sense after constantly seeing 11:11 and 1234 etc) - who knows anyway.

I won’t lie, it feels really strange making this post - knowing the previous posts on here over the last 3-4 years are all over the shop - but I feel good. (It’s also interesting that I Love You by Billie Eilish was what prompted me to write this). Anyhoo, if anyone reads this, thank you for listening to my Ted Talk (and for you reading this if one day future me sends this tumblr link to you it’s because I trust you enough to see the part of me that no one sees - this page has been used against me before, so if I sent this to you, know that you’re a real one to me and that I’m in this for the long run).

[amortizing]

“One of the greatest tragedies in life is to lose your own sense of self and accept the version of you that is expected by everyone else.”

— K.L. Toth (via naturaekos)

[lovelustquotes]

[ssssssketches]

[raychillster]

sometimes you have to put that nice girl act in your back pocket, stop being so shy, stop being so self conscious, and just do whatever the hell you want. look out for you.

[st0riesofthes0ul]

A bitch just wants to be choked and told she’s pretty.

[softpetal-s]

18/8/19 4:40pm

Maybe I’d feel better if I killed myself

[understands]

[m-addie]

I’ve never been so scared of someone leaving in my life. 2 days and then you are gone forever and I feel like I am drowning. What a year. I hate all of this lol

[m-addie]

Haha 6 months on and it all just hurts

[cankathleen]

[fruitsaladchewits-deactivated20]

i enjoy mornings that you wake up to silence and no one is asking anything of you, you’re under no pressure to exist and its just wonderful

[softpetal-s]

27/7/19 12:15am

At least living on my own means I can sob and cry and tear myself apart without anyone knowing