When Felix heard you storming into the apartment without so much as a word of acknowledgement or hello from you as you passed the living room, he knew something went wrong. When he heard the door to your room slam with a noise enough to make him wince, he knew something went terribly wrong. And, remembering why youโd gone out in the first place, all smiles and dressed to impress, he didnโt need great deductive skills to figure out what happened.ย
โ(name)?โ He called out as he pushed himself off the couch, walking to the door of your room.
โIโm not in the mood, Felix.โ Even through the door, your voice sounded overly muffled and nasally, as if youโd been crying for a while. The idea that you were crying alone in your room, buried under the blankets, only pained him more.
When Felix heard you storming into the apartment without so much as a word of acknowledgement or hello from you as you passed the living room, he knew something went wrong. When he heard the door to your room slam with a noise enough to make him wince, he knew something went terribly wrong. And, remembering why youโd gone out in the first place, all smiles and dressed to impress, he didnโt need great deductive skills to figure out what happened.ย
โ(name)?โ He called out as he pushed himself off the couch, walking to the door of your room.
โIโm not in the mood, Felix.โ Even through the door, your voice sounded overly muffled and nasally, as if youโd been crying for a while. The idea that you were crying alone in your room, buried under the blankets, only pained him more.
Trying the door again, he frowned when he realized that youโd locked it, โI donโt care if youโre in the mood, (name),โ he said patiently while still trying to make his point as firm as he could, โYouโre sad and upset, and I just donโt want you to be alone.โ
โWell, I want to be alone.โ
There was a bite to your voice, a harshness that you never had around him. Felix wondered what had happened to make you so distraught, โPlease? Iโll leave you alone once I see you. I just want to make sure youโre okay. Please?โ
Silence was his only answer, and Felix was just beginning to think about breaking the door down himself when he heard the lock click, revealing your face, eyes smudged with the light sheen of sparkling eyeshadow heโd helped you apply and tear streaks running down your cheeks. Heโd never seen you like this before, so beside yourself, so utterly broken, and Felixโs heart began to crack along with yours.
โOh, sweetheartโฆโ
At his gentle pet name, the dam broke again and a sob burst from your lips. Felix rushed forward, catching you halfway as you threw yourself into his arms, burying your face in the crook of his neck. He threaded his fingers through your hair, whispering soft nothings to you in hopes of calming you down.
When your sobs slowly turned to sniffles, Felix finally asked, โWhat did he do?โ
The tension in your body immediately returned, โHe didnโt do anything,โ you muttered pulling away just slightly to wipe your eyes with the back of your hand, โH-he didnโt do anythingโโ
โHey, hey, donโt rub your eyes like that while you still have makeup on!โ Felix yelped, immediately shoving you back into your room. He quickly sat you down in front of the vanity, grabbing a makeup wipe and slowly helping you take off your once immaculate makeup.ย
His touch was so gentle, as if he was afraid to hurt you, afraid that you might just shatter in his arms. As your tears continued to fall, he continued to help you, crouched in front of you with his fingers lightly holding your chin as he wiped off the eyeshadow, the blush, the foundation, the mascara with methodical care.ย
And after three torturous hours, you finally felt safe. You felt safe with Felix, as you always have and always will.ย
.
โI wasnโtโฆI wasnโt what he expected.โย
Felixโs fingers, which were lightly massaging your scalp as your head lay comfortably in his lap, immediately froze.ย
โWhat?โ His voice was stiff, and his whole body felt like it had been doused in a bucket of ice water. What did that mean? Surely it couldnโt mean thatโฆyou were not enough? No, because that thought was preposterous. You were more than anything anyone in the world deserved. You were kind, you were loving, you were gentle. You put others before yourself, you wanted to make everyone happy.
You were everything that Felix didnโt deserve.
โThe moment I stepped into the restaurant and saw him for the first time, I could see it in his eyes,โ you continued, feeling it easier to let it all out with your eyes fluttered shut, โDisappointment.โย
โButโโ Felix struggled to find the right words while stifling the murderous rage growing in his chest, โbut heโs seen pictures of you, right? I helped you take those pictures! What do you mean he was disappointed?!โ
You couldnโt help but smile bitterly. โPhotos arenโt the real thing, I guess. I know Iโฆput on weight these last few weeks.โย
Felix felt an unusual desire for violence. He wanted to punch a pillow or strangle a plushie (and apologize when he calmed down, of course). Yes, you did put on some weight these last few weeks, but that was because youโd actually started to take care of yourself after he pleaded with you to eat more than one meal a day. Heโd been so proud when you started to eat better, to think of food in a more positive light, that he never once even fathom that someone would consider that as a negative.ย
โSo, thatโs it? The date ended like that?โ
โOh, no,โ you shook your head, humming as Felix resumed his ministrations on your scalp, โheโs notโฆheโs not that cruel. We finished the date, but it was pretty obvious that he didn't want to pursue anything else with me.โ
Felix only hummed, lightly digging his fingers into your scalp as a melancholic silence filled the room. Some people enjoyed constant advice, someone to offer a helping hand when things go south, but as your roommate and best friend of three years, Felix knew that all you needed was just a safe person to vent to. And he was more than happy to be that person. Heโd never tell you, but heโd be more than happy to be any person that you needed.ย
โI think Iโm being melodramatic about it,โ you grumbled after the long moment of silence, โAll things considered, a date like this couldโve gone so much worse. He couldโve walked out after seeing me. He couldโve been a psychopath.โ
โThat doesnโt mean that your experience was a good one, (name),โ Felix reminded you gently, brushing a strand of hair away from your face, โAnd can we not set the bar that low, please? I want to be able to send you off on your dates with at least some peace of mind.โ
A laugh left your lips and you swatted his hand away, โDonโt worry, the line is drawn at psychopaths.โ
โBefore psychopaths.โย
โAlright, alright. Before psychopaths,โ you repeated emphatically, just to make a point. Felix only chuckled and shook his head with obvious fondness. What was he going to do with you?
After a while, the moment of cheerfulness faded again, and you sighed, stretching your limbs as you starfished yourself onto your comfortable couch and on top of Felix, โI know this was hardly the worst date in the world, and not even the worst one that Iโve had, but it just hurt this time, you know? It was the first time I knew for certain that someone liked me for me. It was the first time that our conversations were so exciting over text that I just couldnโt wait to meet them in person. For a few moments, I even thought likeโฆthis was the one.โย
You closed your eyes, relishing Felixโs comforting warmth and presence. It made things better somehow. He always made this better. When Felix was there, running his fingers through your hair and picking up any of the broken pieces of your heart, you always felt better, safer. One might even say that you felt loved.ย
But Felix didnโt love you. You were objectively a good person, and you did believe in karma, but Felix loving you was a fortune you couldnโt afford to even dream of.ย
โI just wishโyou knowโthat I was sexually attractive to someone,โ you snickered rather dryly, โNot to everyone or even a lot of people, but just likeโฆone. I just want to be wanted by someone.โ
โI want you.โ
The words bounced off your ears; you didnโt need an expert to know that Felix was trying to comfort you in whatever way he knew how. โVery funny, Lixie.โ
Felix swallowed, his self control waning with every word leaving your mouth. He was getting dangerously close to confessing, something he swore not to do. He couldnโt ruin what you two have, heย shouldnโt ruin what you two have, heโ
โI do want you.โ
Your eyes opened, and a flash of tired annoyance passed your face, โLook, I appreciate it, I really do, but Iโm really not in the mood forโโ
โIโm not talking about sex,โ Felix interrupted you before gulping, the rush of self confidence fleeting and now almost completely gone, โI-I mean, Iโd love to have sex with youโbut only if you want! Andโumโonly if youโre comfortable with me l-like that, of courseโฆโ his voice trailed off, and he half expected you to interrupt his actually pathetic attempt of a confession, but you didnโt.
โB-but I didnโt mean sex. I just want you. I want to know more about you than I already do. I want to know you as more than a friend. I want to know what type of dates you like. I want to know what makes your heart flutter. I want to know if you like eskimo kisses before leaving work. I want to you if your a big spoon or a little spoonโโ
โIโm a big spoon and you fucking know it, Lix.โ
โStop interrupting!โ Felix complained, his cheeks burning as he flicked your forehead, โButโฆyeah. I know this is an awkward time for all this, but I just want you to know that someone in this world does want you. You donโt have to answer orโฆdo anything, but just know that I love you, okay?โ
At this point, your eyes were as wide as saucers, your heart stuttering and fluttering within the cage of your ribs. โYouโyou love me?โ You repeated, a rather poorly crafted statement on your end after Felix had poured his heart out in his confession.
But, as he always was, Felix was patient, never angry, never harsh, โI do, (name),โ he smiled as you sat up, โI love you so very much.โ
โSince when?โ How could you have missed it? How could you have convinced yourself that his affections were nothing more than platonic? Were you that clueless?
โHmm, maybe a year ago? A year and a half?โ Felix shrugged. The weight of his secret had lifted, and he didnโt feel as stressed out anymore. โI canโt really remember. Iโve honestly been so used to loving you that I canโt remember when I didnโt.โ
Shit, you could hear your heart pounding as the blood rushed to your cheeks. โI never thoughtโI never thought that youโโ
โHey, hey,โ Felix cupped your cheeks with a fond smile, โWhat did I say, huh? I donโt need anything from you. Just take it as a sign to keep your chin up, okay? Donโt burden yourself with the guilt of hurting me. Youโd never hurt me.โ
But heโs got it all wrong. Heโs got it all wrong, and all you need to do was open your damn mouth to tell him so.
โI never thought you could love me the way Iโve loved you!โย
There was definitely a better way of wording that, but the words had burst from your lips before you could control them.ย
Felixโs jaw went slack, and his fingers stilled against your cheeks, โYouโฆwhat?โ He asked, as if he couldnโt believe exactly what he was hearing.
โIโm in love with you. Iโve always been in love with you,โ you laughed at the sheer ridiculousness as you sat on your legs, smiling at him, โBut Iโve always told myself that we werenโt meant to be, that I was reading everything wrong, that I wasnโt enough for you.โ
The stunned look on Felixโs face was an image youโll treasure for a lifetime. It was gone as soon as it came, though, and a disbelieving scoff replaced it, โI asked you to move in with me and it still didnโt register?โ
โYou know Iโm a little slow with these things,โ you said with a sheepish shrug.ย
โI know,โ Felix chuckled, and with an unexpected amount of boldness, he leaned forward, a playful gleam in his eyes. The tide had changed, and he was now on the offensive, more than happy to express the extent of his affections towards you, โBut I think itโs cute.โย
Heat rose up to your cheeks as you averted your gaze, โFuck you.โ
โI would very much like you to, but weโll go at whatever pace you want, sweetheart.โ
You hurled a pillow at him as he burst into laughter, happily defending himself before pulling you down onto his chest, patting your head as if placating an angry kitten, โI know, I know. I love you, too.โ
Huffing, you couldnโt fight the telltale flush of your cheeks and the pounding of your heart. Felixโs heart was pounding similarly, you noticed as you rested your head on his chest. Not for the first time, you felt safe in Felixโs arms, breathing in his comforting scent as he enveloped you in his magical warmth.ย
But for the first time, you completed the happy moment by leaning up and pressing your lips to his.ย
i just discovered ur blog a few days back after i saw someone rb one of ur fics and i got intrigued by the plot ๐คฃ i just wanna say you are amazing at writing. like the emotions and cohesiveness in the way you build your sentences. i love how you're able to perfectly capture the atmosphere of a scene and show it through dialogue. ok i read the chan one oh no i forgot the title but i think it went something like one last dance??? im so sorry i was too absorbed in the story to remember oof ๐ฉ but wow that was so painful. so beautifully painful i really loved it. im planning to explore your masterlist in the following days so you'll hear more from me hehe ๐ i hope u have a great day aaa โค๏ธ
awww thank you so much for this sweet, sweet message! after a long day of work, this absolutely put a smile on my face ๐๐ฅฐ and yes,,, please! i'd love to hear more from you, from all of my readers hehe!! love you and hope you have a great day too! ๐๐
โMaybe itโs cause weโre bigger than we were back then.โ
โWeโreโฆ? Or just me?โ
โYouโre definitely more annoying.โ
Hyunjin let out a laugh, nudging your side playfully as he took another sip of his drink. The two of you had a great view of the chaos ensuing in the auditorium; Chan was trying to make sure Jisung and Changbin didnโt play his old Soundcloud songs on the speaker, Seungmin and Jeongin were sitting at one of the tables, sharing stories about their new families, all while Felix and Minho were burning it up in the middle of the dance floor.ย
โIsnโt it nice to see everyone again?โ He let out a sigh of contentment, obviously enjoying the sight as much as you were.
You nodded in wholehearted agreement, โItโs crazy seeing everyone together again. Really have to give it to Lia for making this whole high school reunion crap possible.โย
Hyunjin chuckled, โAs expected of our class president.โ A moment of comfortable silence passed before Hyunjin asked, โDid you keep up with anyone?โ
โOh, you know me,โ you shrugged, โI did my best, but I was never great at communicating online. I did meet up with Seungmin and Minho a couple of times cause our colleges were close, but that was it.โ
โAh.โ Hyunjinโs tone of voice caught you a little off guard. It wasnโt angry or bitter, per say, but it was definitely sad, like heโd come to a realization that heโd spent a lot of time running away from. But before you had any time to speculate the reason as to why he sounded so lost, his next question, quiet and full of caution, gave all the answers.
โWhy didnโt you keep up with me?โย
It was the question that a part of you was expecting the moment you heard Hyunjin call out your name at the drink stand. It was the question that you'd spent sleepless nights thinking about, staring at the ceiling of your dorm, thinking about the boy you once loved, the boy who was slowly fading into your past.ย
However, after mulling over the question for so long, you began to realize that the reason you couldn't find the answer was simply because you didn't want to. Because the truth was more painful than pretending to be oblivious.ย
โIn the beginning, it hurt to even think about you.โ
Hyunjin winced ever so slightly at your words, hiding it by sipping his drink, but both of you knew that if you couldn't be honest to each other now, after the years have allowed many of the deep wounds to heal, then there wasn't any hope of reconciliation.ย
โI was furious, you know. Hurt, then angry. I was angry for a long time,โ you chuckled at the memory, watching a figment of your past self storming out of the auditorium in your pretty lilac dress, tears streaming down your face, โNow that I think about it, I don't know if I was angry at you for blowing me off or me for being so naive.โ
โFor what it's worth, I'm sorry,โ Hyunjin said, looking at you with those deep brown eyes that used to make your heart flutter. โI'm sorry for a lot of things, especially in senior year when I--โ
โPlease, don't apologize,โ you interrupted, shifting to face him directly, the sharp edges around yourself slowly beginning to chip away the more the two of you spoke. It felt good, like pulling out a splinter.
โYou made your mistakes, and I made mine. You could've cared a little more about how much you were neglecting me, and I could've been more considerate of your dedication to your passions.โย
Hyunjin pouted, the way he used to when he couldn't win arguments against you, โStill,โ he mumbled, shoving his hands into his pants pockets and looking down shamefully, โit was prom.โ
โIndeed it was,โ you mused. If anything, looking back at the situation allowed you the capacity to make light of it.ย
โYou must've been so hurt.โย
โIndeed I was,โ you agreed, laughing slightly, โIt was truly something straight out of a drama. The tears, the mascara. I was robbed of an Oscar, truly.โ
โ(name),โ Hyunjinโs whine only made you giggle harder, which only made his pout deeper, โhow can you joke about this?โ
You tried your best to stifle your laughter for his sake, โOh, Hyunjin, it's been years. So many things have happened since then. I'm not going to hold on to the one night I got stood up in high school. The real question is...why are you still holding onto it?โ
Hyunjinโs expression showed true distress, which touched you, โBecause I hurt you! I know it's now just one night of many from our days in high school, but it was a night that you were so looking forward to,โ he gulped, trying not to make a fool out of himself at this reunion and, most importantly, in front of you. โMy mind kept repeating it. The times when I told myself that I was going to make prom the most special night for you. The times I dreamed of how perfect our dance was going to be. Then, I let applications and auditions get to my head, and IโI took you for granted.โย
Despite how prepared you were to face Hyunjin at the reunion party, you couldn't deny that such a confession of guilt stunned you, so much so that you couldn't even formulate sentences for a few moments.ย
โI didn't know you felt so strongly about it.โ
โThatโs the other thing,โ Hyunjin said solemnly, determined to get everything off his chest, to tell you everything that he'd gotten the chance to tell you only in his dreams, โBy the end of high school, I had gotten so neglectful of our relationship that you didn't even believe I'd care about hurting you. You, who were my best friend even before we started dating. And for that, I'm sorry.โ
You stared at him, slightly awestruck, before you let out a sigh, โYouโre not the only one that has things to be sorry for. I was never as supportive of your dreams to go to a dance school as I should've been. I got irritable, possessive, and insecure even when you gave me no reason to be. You were already so stressed going into the last year, and when I should've been by your side, supporting you the way any best friend should, I'm sure I made things worse. For that, Iโm sorry.โ
Moments of silence passed, each one more comfortable than the previous, and gradually, the burden of guilt that the two of you were carrying individually became shared, andโin some wayโweightless to the both of you. A slate wiped clean, a brand new palette to begin your friendship anew.ย
โSo...does this mean my Facetime privileges are reinstated?โ
โOnly if you don't abuse them,โ you grinned wryly, both of you knowing that he absolutely will, just like you'll probably end up doing as well, โI'm a very busy woman.โ
โSo I've heard, Miss โI'm graduating from university early and going to law school.โโ Hyunjin teased, wiggling his eyebrows in a playful gesture.
You only crossed your arms, โI don't know if you should be talking, Mr. โIโm one of the most sought after choreographers in Seoul.โโ
โThatโs not true!โ
โFrom the stories Iโve gathered from Seungmin, Minho, and everyone else that Iโve caught up with here, I would say my statement has some sort of merit.โย
โFine! Fine,โ Hyunjin laughed as he threw his arms up in resignation. Glancing at you by his side, his smile only grew as he gave your shoulder a nudge, โWeโve done well, both of us.โ
You nodded, and taking his olive branch wholeheartedly, you leaned your head against his arm, a small but poignant gesture as you slowly allowed Hyunjin back into your personal space. Above your head and unbeknownst to you, the expression on Hyunjinโs face as he gauged your movements would make even the most stone cold individual melt.ย
โIt was fun. Stressful, exhausting, but still one of the best times of my life,โ you nuzzled your head against his arm as you added softly, โIt wouldโve been the best if you were there.โ
Shit. Hyunjinโs heart hammered relentlessly and his whole face grew hot as you spoke. It took every ounce of practiced self control not to squeal and flop around like a crazed dolphin. Even back in high school, you were never very comfortable with verbally sharing how you felt unless you knew you were in a space of absolute security. Hearing you admit something so vulnerable to him and just to him meant that, above all, he was still a safe space for you after all this time.ย
โI agree,โ he mumbled, resting his cheek against the top of your head as he fiddled with his cup, now empty. โI was accomplishing things, and life was good, but it wouldโve been infinitely better with you in it still.โย
โOi! What are you to lovebirds hiding out in the back for?!โ A voice pulled both of your attentions away from each other as Changbin approached the little corner in which the two of you were sitting, โCome and dance with us!โ
โWeโll be there in a second!โ Hyunjin called back, shaking his head in fond exasperation as the two of you watched Changbin barrel into the dance circle once again, all smiles and uproarious laughter. โHeโs never this hyper.โ
You laughed, pushing yourself up onto the table behind you, โHeโs excited to see everyone again,โ a soft hum left your lips, and you glanced at Hyunjin, your heart shedding its walls just at the sight of him, โYou should join them. Canโt have our dance prodigy absent on the dance floor.โ
โOh, hush,โ Hyunjin nudged your side again shyly, wringing his hands before shaking his head, โIโll go in a sec, I justโumโthereโs something I want to do first.โ
A weird emotion stirred in your chest, โThen you best get to it, then. What are you doing, still dilly dawdling around here with me?โ you laughed, playing with your fingers as your legs swung around off the edge of the table. โThe night's going to end soon.โ
โItโs not that easy, though.โ
โYou're at a high school reunion,โ you snorted, โIf things go south, you don't have to see any of these people for the next ten years, or until Lia organizes another get together. If there's something you want to do, there's no time like the present.โ
Hyunjin sucked in a breath, his heart pounding audibly as he finally decided to throw caution to the wind. โYouโre right, as always.โ
โI know,โ you retorted with a smug smile.ย
โThen, (name), would you give me the honor of dancing with you tonight?โ
Every emotion that you felt could be seen clearly on your face. Confusion, then shock, and then flustered indignation. Hyunjin wished he couldโve taken a picture, but for now, only his eyes would bear witness to your reaction.ย
โYouโโ Words failed you for a moment before you choked out a laugh, trying to ignore how hot your face was feeling, โYou ass! Did you plan all this?โ
Hyunjin laughed, feeling lighter than he had in ages, โNot exactly. I didnโt know how our reunion would turn out, after all,โ his expression softened, shifting into something more wistful and fond as he stood before you, extending his hand out for you to take.ย
โBut if things went well, I always dreamed for a chance to dance with you. Do things right this time around, if youโll have me, of course.โ
Judging from the tone of his voice, laced with love and adoration that can only exist after years of familiarity, you had a feeling he wasnโt just talking about prom.
The two of you had known each other since before either of you were fully people at all. Youโd seen Hyunjin when he fell face first into a puddle of mud because he didnโt heed your warnings. Heโd seen you bawl your eyes out for hours over a grammar test after realizing you got one question wrong. You were his first girlfriend, and he was your first kiss. He was your first love and you were his.ย
The last time the two of you stood in that very auditorium, nothing but harsh and volatile words were exchanged. The way things ended was far from pretty. Hyunjin wasnโt perfect, and neither were you.
But time has truly healed your wounds, and maybe, your love for each other would be strong enough to try again.
โOnly if you donโt get upset when I step on your feet,โ you smiled, slipping your hand in his.ย
Hyunjin could hardly comprehend the elation he felt as he guided you to the dance floor. Humming softly to the music, his arm wrapped around your waist and he leaned his forehead against yours. โIf it means being with you, you could stand on my feet for all I care.โย
Hey!!! Firstly I love your first so much like you are so freaking good and so so talented with words like I just wanna read every single thing you have ever written. Soo I was hoping for you to maybe drop a masterlist link cause I can't get enough of your writings. Please would you drop your masterlist link???
hi! sorry this is so so late, but here is the masterlist you requested! thanks for stopping by this blog! ๐
hElp I've seen the enemies to lovers project reccomended a lot n ngl the word count kinda intimidated me but I finally got around to it and OMG it didn't even feel like reading a lot, every word was so beautiful and I felt everything so vividly, pls I felt that deep in my heart, my minho feels are here to stay :') you did an amazing job, thank you for sharing such a story!! I saw ur post and ur an amazing author so if I think of any hc requests I'll be sure to send them!xx
hi love! im so so sorry it took so long for me to respond. i've been in a bit of a dry spell for a while, but reading asks like these inspire me to get back on my wip doc even if it's hard! thank you so much for your kind words ๐ฅบ๐ and yes! hc requests are always welcome!
so yes, i fell off the radar again ๐ญ my biggest biggest apologies! uni kicked my ass hard, and i hit a serious writerโs block as well. im doing my best to come back slowly, though, and start posting fics again. first order of business tho:
a masterlist will be posted very, very soon! itโs quite small right now, but lots of people requested it, so i compiled all the fics i have here into one cohesive list!ย
hope everyone is having a happy new year! stay safe, and thank you for all the love iโve been receiving on my fics during my impromptu hiatus. <3 love yโall!ย
i think chan would want to have a friend that is more of an initiator and someone who likes to take the lead! we all know he's a little bit of a workaholic (just a little, ya know), and workaholics tend to lose sight of the people and the world around them. so, people like chan really rely on friends who aren't shy about hitting him up twice when he didn't reply the first time, people who understand his flakiness. especially since he's known as the leader for so many things, i think he'd like to stick with a friend that can naturally assume that role in their relationship so it becomes less of a burden for him to be around them.ย
lee minho
minho would absolutely cling onto someone that is snarky but allows him to be soft around them too. minho, like chan, gives off very natural caretaker vibes, but it's much more subtle with minho and more something that he does without much effort or care. it feels like a reflex for him to casually make you a cup of tea because he noticed you were thirsty or offer his arm for you to lean against if you get sleepy in the car. on the other hand, though, minho needs someone thatโs got some claws on them. after all, its not fun to tease someone who doesnโt tease back. heโs all for the witty banter and playful jabs. for him, i think itโs all about having a good time, whether thatโs throwing snarky comments at each other, or brewing tea for the other person when theyโre feeling down.
seo changbin
in my opinion, changbin would gravitate towards more adventurous people, since he himself is more of a stabilizing personality (esp. seen in the group hehe). changbin is drawn towards people who take risks, do things that might end up getting them in trouble, but live through their experiences. heโs the type of person that youโd have to *drag* to get milkshakes at 3am, but the type of person that would be waiting for you to drag them out at 3am ya know?? heโs all for deep talks late at night while parked on a cliff and enjoying the stars. also bcs heโs such a stable and reliable person (something he obviously takes pride in as well) his heart would love someone who leans to him for support. he feels good taking care of others, and so heโd ultimately adore someone who would allow him to do that while also pushing his limits and making him experience things he wouldnโt by himselfย
hwang hyunjinย
opposite to changbin, hyunjin loves stability. hyunjin would absolutely be all over a friend that is just always there for him, someone who he can turn to when heโs feeling hurt, scared, or insecure. but at the same time, i think hyunjin would love being with someone thatโs similar to him in personality and ambition. this doesnโt mean that he wants them to dance or sing or be an idol, but rather someone who is driven towards their own goals and has the work ethic to achieve them. hyunjin is someone that reacts and grows from his surroundings, so i think him having a friend that indirectly challenges him to always improve and always attempt to be a better version of himself would be something heโd crave. at the end of the day, i think hyunjin would just want a friend that understood him, that understood why he was working so hard and why he was trying so hard, someone he could rely on to be the voice of reason while also inspiring him to keep on going.
han jisung
oh han jisung. this is a bit cheesy and plays more to my poor minsung heart, but i genuinely believe that jisung gravitates towards a friend that is just like minho. jisungโs a sensitive soul, much like hyunjin. heโs the type of person to create a persona thatโs bigger than life, but a persona thatโs ridiculously easy to pop. heโs the type to flirt endlessly with someone and then freak out when the person flirts back. heโs adorable, and bcs heโs so sensitive, he would gravitate towards someone whoโs strong and unabashedly themselves, someone that doesnโt bend towards anyoneโs will except their own.ย
lee felixย
cuddlebugs gravitate to other cuddlebugs, and lix is no different. felix loves a friend that gives him physical affection and just attention in the spades. he loves being cared for, and he loves reciprocating it. i feel like felix is also the type of person that loves to do various things with their friend! heโd love to play games with them, like play in a party together or maybe co-op on genshin to farm for artifacts (hehe). maybe the activity is baking together or cooking a new dish! whatever it is, felix would love someone who โs down to spend time with him and share their new experiences with him too!
kim seungmin
seungmo and jeongin honestly stumped me a bit bcs i donโt think i have as good of a read on them, but i think that seungmin would love a friend that he knows will always be there for him, but also gives him his own space to grow and be his own person, ya know? seungmin feels like a person that values his own quiet time, so he probably gravitate towards someone who also values their own free time, someone more independent. but at the same time, he wants the feeling of knowing that theyโd be there if he needed him, just like heโd drop everything for them if they were having a tough time. heโs the type of friend that would enjoy quite study sessions, sharing music while doing their own private work, anything that is more low stress and laid-back!
yang jeongin
similar to seungmin, i think jeongin would like someone thatโs independent and has a strong mind of their own. because heโs so use to being doted on, i feel like jeongin would enjoy someone that would allow him to be the one that does a bit of the chasing. jeongin would be the type thatโs becomes a bit enamored by the friend he wants to be really close with, sort of a friend crush per-say?? heโd find something that he genuinely and deeply admires about them and it would push him to gravitate towards them. i think heโd enjoy being challenged in an experience type of way, like being dragged to do new things or learn new skills with his friend <3
Well I just wanted to ask you, what sort of friends do you think the members would have? Like you know how there are those inseperable duos? So what would the other person of each of their inseperable duos be like and what would they do together? (Since this is platonic, gender neutral would be the most comfy but do whatever you would like ^_^)
hi! so sorry for the late response uni is kinda kicking my ass ahh >.< i really loved this ask so i turned it into more of a formal scenario response! i hope that's alright! <3
โOh, despise. Such a big word, baby,โ Minho drawled with an obnoxious smirk, the one that simultaneously made you want to rip his hair out and kiss those perfectly delectable lips of his, โIf itโs any consolation, I abhor your presence as well.โ
โWonderful,โ you crossed your legs, a smile creeping onto your face as you leaned backward in your chair, โSo why exactly are you here?โ
Minho laughed, โThe same reason I presume that youโre here for. A hundred dollars to put up with you is a tempting offer.โ
You stopped on your heel, sucking in a breath before turning to face the tall, dark haired man with a polite smile.ย
โGood morning, Hyunjin.โ
The young prince of Levanter, who happened to be your betrothed and soon-to-be-husband, smiled, looking at you in a way that would send any personโs heart into overdrive, โThe love of my life, queen of my heart, how are you this morning?โ
โWhat do you want?โ You asked, lips quirking up into a neutral smile even as your face fought the urge to twitch.ย
Hyunjin pouted, deflating just a bit when you didnโt seem to play along, โIs everything alright, (name)?โ He asked, his expression wrought with concern. โHas something happened?โ
Leave it to Hyunjin to be perceptive in the very moments that you did not want him to be. โNothingโs happened, Hyunjin. I am just a bit busy with planning a couple of foreign trips with my kingdomโs naval allies,โ you explained yourself, hoping to ease his worries, โNow, is there something I can help you with?โ
The prince still didnโt seem convinced, but he didnโt push, โWhy do I have to have a reason to see you?โ
โPlease,โ you let out a genuine chuckle this time, brushing a strand of your hair behind your ear, โIโve known you since we were children. I know your tells probably more than you know them yourself.โ
โOh,โ his ears turned slightly pink, โIโฆI didnโt know you actually paid that much attention to me.โ
โYou were my betrothed from the moment the two of us started walking,โ you replied, looking up at him with those unreadable yet kind eyes, โItโs my duty to know you and your heart for us to have a fulfilling and passionate marriage.โ
Hyunjin stared at you for a moment before bursting into uproarious laughter, โOh, gosh. I remember when our mothers sat us down to tell us that. Good one, (name)!โย
You smiled along, despite the fact that your heart was slowly withering inside. How quickly he was to dismiss your words, how unbelievably clueless he was. โAlright, I wonโt jest anymore. What is it I can do for you?โ
โOh!โ Hyunjinโs smile widened,ย his eyes began to sparkle with a passionate glee that wasnโt present before, and with a sinking pit in your stomach, you knew what he was about to ask of you before the words even left his lips, โNaeun told me that she has a free afternoon today, and I wanted to escort her to the lake for a late lunch! You know, the lake we found as kids?โ
This time, it took every ounce of willpower to hide the physical pain his words inflicted upon you. To know that Hyunjin was set to marry you when you were not in his heart even in the slightest was something you could shoulder. To know that Hyunjin was in love with another, a servant girl in your own palace, was something you could shoulder. To willingly give him your blessing to court her and be complicit in hiding their relationship to make him happy was something you could shoulder.
But the lake was sacred to you. The little nook with the most beautiful view that you and Hyunjin found when the two of you were children, playing around because your families wanted you to know each other better. The two of you adored that spot so much, youโd fashion your own secret hideout there every time you reunited, bringing blankets, pillows, and food straight from the kitchens to eat while enjoying the view.ย
That little lake was the only thing you shared with Hyunjin, something that was special to only the both of you. At least, that was the case until this very moment.ย
โYou know, this isnโt a secret that we share with just anyone,โ your tone was jesting and playful, but your words held a bitter tang to them. You just couldnโt help yourself. You werenโt a saint, after all.ย
Hyunjin pouted, placing a passionate hand to his heart, โI havenโt shown our spot to anyone before, I promise! I know it means a lot to you and us, so I wanted to get your permission first!โย
Oh, how desperately you wanted to say no. How desperately you wanted to scream, cry, throw a fuss about how cruel this was to you, how unfairly you were being treated. But you knew, in the deepest crevices of your heart, that this was your own undoing. You lied to Hyunjin when you said that you felt nothing for him just like he felt nothing for you. You lied to yourself when you assured him that you would happily give your blessing to his clandestine relationship. In the end, you told so many lies that you yourself didnโt even know how to unravel them anymore, gradually strangling yourself until you were a lifeless corpse in your own web.ย
โFine, I guess an exception can be made.โ
As masochistic as it was, the smile Hyunjin gave you made the pain he inflicted upon you tolerable. โReally?! You truly mean it?โ
Words failed you at the very moment, so all you could do was nod your head and silently plead for a quick escape.
In an unusual moment of affection, Hyunjin suddenly leaned towards you, clasping both of your hands in his and holding them tightly. You clamped your mouth shut to prevent your heart from leaping out, and your eyes were wide with a mixture of surprise and fear.
โLook, (name),โ he said with an unusually serious expression, โI just wanted to thank youโฆfor everything youโve done these last few months. I know that, if it werenโt for you, I wouldnโt have been able to attain such happiness with our situation.โ
No, stop. Please. Please donโt thank me.
But as always, Hyunjin remained oblivious to your true feelings, โNeither of us asked for it, least of all you, and please know that if you ever find love, Iโll support your relationship wholeheartedly as you supported mine.โ
Fuck, you were truly at your breaking point. How could he say such things with such an earnest expression? Did he truly not know your feelings for him? Were you so far away from his mind that he never read into your longing glances, your kind demeanor towards him and only him?ย
Mustering the strength you didnโt know you possessed, you managed a smile, squeezing his hand, โI doubt Iโd ever find a prince worthy of my love,โ your words were haughty, teasing, a perfect deflection.
Hyunjin smiled brightly, โSomehow, I believe that to be true,โ he said with a conspiratorial smile before he let go of your hands and backed away from you, โI must find Naeun now. Thank you, my darling!โย
It wasnโt until you were in the safety of your private study that you finally shed your mask,ย and the tears of frustration, anger, and hurt flowed down your cheeks. You grasped the corner of your desk so tightly that the edge dug into your palm, but you welcomed the pain wholeheartedly, preferring it over the emotional wounds that continued to bleed out.
Your mother once told you that a loveless marriage was the most painful thing of all for a royal, but she was wrong. There was nothing more painful than a marriage that possessed love, but only enough to fill the heart of one.ย
Why o why did you have to break my heart with that Hyunjin angst? How does so much pain fit into such a short story ๐ญ Iโm begging please mend my heart with a happy ending where they marry and he makes things right and he loves her genuinely PLEASE
IM SORRY IM REALLY IN M Y ANGST EMO PHASE RN ๐ฅฒ
its more of a blurb than anything, so i'll most likely will leave it like this!! but if i have a splash of inspo one day, we'll see about that happy ending ๐ค ๐ค ๐ค ๐ค
You stopped on your heel, sucking in a breath before turning to face the tall, dark haired man with a polite smile.ย
โGood morning, Hyunjin.โ
The young prince of Levanter, who happened to be your betrothed and soon-to-be-husband, smiled, looking at you in a way that would send any personโs heart into overdrive, โThe love of my life, queen of my heart, how are you this morning?โ
โWhat do you want?โ You asked, lips quirking up into a neutral smile even as your face fought the urge to twitch.ย
Hyunjin pouted, deflating just a bit when you didnโt seem to play along, โIs everything alright, (name)?โ He asked, his expression wrought with concern. โHas something happened?โ
Leave it to Hyunjin to be perceptive in the very moments that you did not want him to be. โNothingโs happened, Hyunjin. I am just a bit busy with planning a couple of foreign trips with my kingdomโs naval allies,โ you explained yourself, hoping to ease his worries, โNow, is there something I can help you with?โ
The prince still didnโt seem convinced, but he didnโt push, โWhy do I have to have a reason to see you?โ
โPlease,โ you let out a genuine chuckle this time, brushing a strand of your hair behind your ear, โIโve known you since we were children. I know your tells probably more than you know them yourself.โ
โOh,โ his ears turned slightly pink, โI...I didnโt know you actually paid that much attention to me.โ
โYou were my betrothed from the moment the two of us started walking,โ you replied, looking up at him with those unreadable yet kind eyes, โItโs my duty to know you and your heart for us to have a fulfilling and passionate marriage.โ
Hyunjin stared at you for a moment before bursting into uproarious laughter, โOh, gosh. I remember when our mothers sat us down to tell us that. Good one, (name)!โย
You smiled along, despite the fact that your heart was slowly withering inside. How quickly he was to dismiss your words, how unbelievably clueless he was. โAlright, I wonโt jest anymore. What is it I can do for you?โ
โOh!โ Hyunjinโs smile widened,ย his eyes began to sparkle with a passionate glee that wasnโt present before, and with a sinking pit in your stomach, you knew what he was about to ask of you before the words even left his lips, โNaeun told me that she has a free afternoon today, and I wanted to escort her to the lake for a late lunch! You know, the lake we found as kids?โ
This time, it took every ounce of willpower to hide the physical pain his words inflicted upon you. To know that Hyunjin was set to marry you when you were not in his heart even in the slightest was something you could shoulder. To know that Hyunjin was in love with another, a servant girl in your own palace, was something you could shoulder. To willingly give him your blessing to court her and be complicit in hiding their relationship to make him happy was something you could shoulder.
But the lake was sacred to you. The little nook with the most beautiful view that you and Hyunjin found when the two of you were children, playing around because your families wanted you to know each other better. The two of you adored that spot so much, youโd fashion your own secret hideout there every time you reunited, bringing blankets, pillows, and food straight from the kitchens to eat while enjoying the view.ย
That little lake was the only thing you shared with Hyunjin, something that was special to only the both of you. At least, that was the case until this very moment.ย
โYou know, this isnโt a secret that we share with just anyone,โ your tone was jesting and playful, but your words held a bitter tang to them. You just couldnโt help yourself. You werenโt a saint, after all.ย
Hyunjin pouted, placing a passionate hand to his heart, โI havenโt shown our spot to anyone before, I promise! I know it means a lot to you and us, so I wanted to get your permission first!โย
Oh, how desperately you wanted to say no. How desperately you wanted to scream, cry, throw a fuss about how cruel this was to you, how unfairly you were being treated. But you knew, in the deepest crevices of your heart, that this was your own undoing. You lied to Hyunjin when you said that you felt nothing for him just like he felt nothing for you. You lied to yourself when you assured him that you would happily give your blessing to his clandestine relationship. In the end, you told so many lies that you yourself didnโt even know how to unravel them anymore, gradually strangling yourself until you were a lifeless corpse in your own web.ย
โFine, I guess an exception can be made.โ
As masochistic as it was, the smile Hyunjin gave you made the pain he inflicted upon you tolerable. โReally?! You truly mean it?โ
Words failed you at the very moment, so all you could do was nod your head and silently plead for a quick escape.
In an unusual moment of affection, Hyunjin suddenly leaned towards you, clasping both of your hands in his and holding them tightly. You clamped your mouth shut to prevent your heart from leaping out, and your eyes were wide with a mixture of surprise and fear.
โLook, (name),โ he said with an unusually serious expression, โI just wanted to thank you...for everything youโve done these last few months. I know that, if it werenโt for you, I wouldnโt have been able to attain such happiness with our situation.โ
No, stop. Please. Please donโt thank me.
But as always, Hyunjin remained oblivious to your true feelings, โNeither of us asked for it, least of all you, and please know that if you ever find love, Iโll support your relationship wholeheartedly as you supported mine.โ
Fuck, you were truly at your breaking point. How could he say such things with such an earnest expression? Did he truly not know your feelings for him? Were you so far away from his mind that he never read into your longing glances, your kind demeanor towards him and only him?ย
Mustering the strength you didnโt know you possessed, you managed a smile, squeezing his hand, โI doubt Iโd ever find a prince worthy of my love,โ your words were haughty, teasing, a perfect deflection.
Hyunjin smiled brightly, โSomehow, I believe that to be true,โ he said with a conspiratorial smile before he let go of your hands and backed away from you, โI must find Naeun now. Thank you, my darling!โย
It wasnโt until you were in the safety of your private study that you finally shed your mask,ย and the tears of frustration, anger, and hurt flowed down your cheeks. You grasped the corner of your desk so tightly that the edge dug into your palm, but you welcomed the pain wholeheartedly, preferring it over the emotional wounds that continued to bleed out.
Your mother once told you that a loveless marriage was the most painful thing of all for a royal, but she was wrong. There was nothing more painful than a marriage that possessed love, but only enough to fill the heart of one.ย
