Artificial Wisdom

I am the girl with the most cake Poetry| Persona Questions.Comment.Concerns

[soldasis]

I know I’m a shitty person deep inside

Cause I still watch the video you made for me

If I knew he did the same I’d lose my mind

But I’ve become such a dedicated wife

So boring and safe

So yes, I watch that video

Just to feel alive

From time to time

[hoursuponseconds]

[weltenwellen]

[soldasis]

It’s funny to me how it all comes crashing down at the same fucking time.

[osogeekedup]

[mxwillowneptune]

"i can fix him" ok well i can make him scared of me and hard

[soldasis]

Where do we go from here?

And why do I feel like the bad guy?

You lied and you ruined the trust

But I can’t tell

Cause it makes you feel bad

I’m so fucking stupid

[soldasis]

Do we ever really forgive someone?

If we know they’ve been a cheater or sketchy in the past… do we ever really forgive? Forget? Will we always been wondering what’s trapped in their phone?

I know he’s being sketchy.

This just hurts.

[soldasis]

I’ll be 31 in a few days

And like clockwork

I’m low and lonely

I feel like I’m sinking again

This isolation is killing me

I wish I had family

Close friends near by

Will I always feel this bad?

I’ve been writing this ‘pre-birthday’

Post for years now

And not one is all the happy

Fuck

Does it get better?

[soldasis]

I’m so happy

That you’re happy

And I just wish I could tell you

But that’s not my place

So I’ll write it here

I’m just so happy

That you found a person

That accepts you for you

You deserve that

I’m not bitter anymore

Because I never should have been

It’s taken years

To find this place

But hey kid

Happy suits you

[3y3]

Form Terror Growth

[3y3]

The Garden Of Deception, Andrew Blucha

[violinkitten-deactivated2021010]

[postlitany]

Anon me facts about me that you think are probably true

[soldasis]

Today my head is in a dark place and as I lay in bed and you sleep I can’t help but wonder what’s next. I’m trying so hard to be the opposite of the person I’ve been because who I was isn’t working. I want to believe I can be happy, that I deserve at least a little slice of happy. I miss home and the person I once was but I am so appreciative of the growth this isolation has brought me. I can see things more clearly now and I know that I play a negative role in my own life and story. I wish I had some kind of guidance because navigating alone is getting old.

I can’t sleep so here’s my rant.

[soldasis]

I turned 30 yesterday and it sucked

[vile-lithium3]