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I post the little texts and poems I write c: | Sol | 18 | she/her | Fairly confused about life

[solwritesfor]

I hope I live long enough

To learn how to grow flowers

And how to look into the eyes of other people

I hope I find warmth everywhere I go

And I never lose what makes me fragile

And what makes me feel the pain of others

I hope I find myself in the water of the pond

I hope I learn beautiful words

To say how much I love being

[solwritesfor]

And as the world went on twirling and laughing at its own absurdity as usual, I realized that sadness and grief were not accepted, in fact they were treated as they didn't exist, I was treated as I didn't exist, and my world was limited to the hope that someday I could enter the world of the living, of light, of cheer. Meanwhile, I found myself exhausted and lonely, in a constant performance of a version of myself I didn't truly know, but that appeared there when I was absent trying to pick up all my pieces and reinvent my soul into a lighter one.

25/09/2021

[cithaerons]

Leila Chatti, Portrait of the Illness as Nightmare

[solwritesfor]

Your god comes

and she is ordinary and terrible

Because she reminds you of yourself

Except she doesn't have

All the things you wanted to erase from yourself

The things you hate and despise

The things you are afraid of and dread

The things you think about when you feel shame

She doesn't have them

And she is ordinary and terrible

And you are so alive

And you are so wonderful

[solwritesfor]

I'm sorry

I try to be a good person everyday

I wish I wasn't capable of hurting you

I wish violence would left my body

And I only spoke soft words

[solwritesfor]

Create, as human beings do

Learn, as human beings do

Love as human beings do

Stay on this earth as others stayed before

Look at the sun as others looked before

You are their child, you are their love

You are them when you smile

You are them when you cry

You are them

And they love you, so much

[bauliya]

seeing too many "billionaires are evil for using their vast amount of money to go to space for kicks rather than help people" takes and not enough "the US government is fucking incompetent for having such pandering tax policies that people can get rich enough to have space races"

[decaffeinatedvoidwombat]

*sits down*

dont you think its weird. dont you think its weird that the space race last time was two of the biggest powers in the world. and now its a handful of rich men. dont you think its weird they can afford that. dont you think its bad that rich men can afford the same things as the government.

dont you think its weird that while the world is suffering and poverty is everywhere, where there's wars and climate change and human pain and homelessness. the same month I've watched people die on the news from unbearable heat and unprecedented flooding. that a rich handful of men are going to space, causing more carbon emissions. dont you think its weird that instead of putting their vast amount of money to use for good they're using it to find a way off the planet theyre destroying.

dont you think its really fucking weird.

[aineyeris]

RECENT UPDATE (10th JULY, 2021) ON PALESTINE.

Israeli occupation forces (IOF) on Friday attacked Palestinians in Nablus and Jenin, injuring dozens of them. 

The Red Crescent Society said that its crews treated with 83 injuries in Beita, south of Nablus, after IOF attacked Palestinians.

It pointed out that among the injuries were 8 with live bullets, 55 with tear gas canisters and 10 with metal-coated bullets. 

The Red Crescent Society added that IOF deliberately targeted its crews and one of them was wounded in his chest.

The IOF soldiers fired rubber-coated metal bullets and stun grenades at random and were deployed inside and around the area and on Jenin-Nablus Street.

Dozens of Palestiniancitizens were wounded on Friday after the Israeli occupation forces (IOF) suppressed demonstrations condemning the settlement activity in various areas in the West Bank.

The Israeli occupation forces (IOF) on Friday evening set fire to a Mosque near the town of Jaba in southern Jenin and wounded a Palestinian young man.

The Israeli occupation army has detonated the West Bank house of prisoner Muntaser ash-Shalabi

A Palestinian young man was injured on Wednesday evening in Beita town, south of Nablus.

The IOF also showered the young protesters with tear gas and opened fire at them during the night skirmishes near the illegal settler outpost on Mount Sobeih.

the IOF kidnaped senior Hamas official Emad Rayhan from his home in Tell town, west of Nablus.

The IOF also stormed Beita town in southern Nablus and kidnaped an ex-detainee called Rani Duwaikat from his home.

Other 2 citizens were taken prisoners during IOF campaign in al-Khader town, south of Bethlehem, and al-Khalil City. They were identified as Majed Mousa and Sa’eid al-Qawasmi (ex-detainee).

In Jerusalem, police forces kidnaped municipal official Abdul-Salam Ayyad from his home in Abu Dis town.

The Israeli occupation forces (IOF) on Saturday morning arrested a Palestinian citizen after he tried to cross the border fence into Israel.

Israeli occupation forces (IOF) arrested on Friday and Thursday evening 5 citizens ( Nassar and Ayoub Issa Jabarin, Muhommad Amarneh) including a mother and her son and two brothers in the West Bank

Israeli occupation forces (IOF) on Thursday repaved a settlement road from Hawara refugee camp, south of Nablus, to Rojib village to the east, while settlers seized 20 dunums of Jalud village lands in southern Nablus.

25 homes were sent demolition notice.

While the uproar for Palestine slowly ceases I just want to remind ya'll that Israel have not ceased their oppression and brutality towards the Palestinians. They continue to opress, arrest, kidnap and murder innocent Palestinians. It is still Free Palestine. Stop being silent spectators and put your privildege to some use. 🇵🇸🇵🇸🇵🇸

[solwritesfor]

Do you remember the gods?

Do you remember their bright smiles when then talked to us?

Do you remember how their eyes made the sky shine so bright?

Do you remember when they stopped coming?

Do you remember when the last god stood here?

Do you remember what they said? Why they abandoned us?

I don't, I don't, I don't

I can't imagine what could we have done wrong

In this awful place, on this earth of love and loss, what could we have done wrong?

[sunflowersandhappycolours-deact]

In case you need this today

- you are not a failure - you are not a waste of space - you are loved - you are wanted - i believe in you - you can do it

[solwritesfor]

i guess i was never a part

Of what i longed so much

i guess my grieve will go on

Forever and ever

And each time my broken heart

Will shatter just a little bit more

Enough to leave me believing i'm not enough

And i'll never be

[doriantomybasil]

you what makes me absolutely fucking furious? that if something happens in the us people talk about it for months (which is, don’t get me wrong, great, we should talk about those issues) but if something happens anywhere else, people either don’t talk about it at all, or only talk about it for a few days, doesn’t matter how big a problem it is.

rn in hungary an unconstitutional anti-lgbt+ law, violating freedom of speech is being passed as we speak and nobody but hungarians are talking about this. but if it was happening in the us, this would be the biggest concern on social media, but because were a small country that nobody cares of, nobody is saying anything because they don’t care what happens here and this is making me so fucking angry, our lives are being made impossible here and people just don’t seem to care. i don’t want to leave my country, my home, but i’m gonna have to because i can’t live a happy life here. they won’t care that we are protesting against this law, they won’t change their minds only because of internal pressure, they don’t fucking care about us so please share these news, talk about it, raise awareness and attention because this is really important, this shouldn’t be allowed to happen

[transstuffandmore]

Please Reblog is Your Blog is Safe for Non-Binary People.

[bees-and-voids-deactivated20210]

If my mutuals can’t rb this then we can’t be mutuals

[i-am-still-purple-sorta-deactiv]

Of course it is.

[julas-little-spot]

As safe as a soft pillow

I swear if nobody rbs this, I’m gonna be real mad

[solwritesfor]

If anyone is having a hard time, please be nice to yourself, please always choose kindness when speaking to yourself, you don't need to be anything to be a valid human being, you are precious just by existing. If you need to talk about something, my dms are always open :)

[solwritesfor]

On the shore, I watch the boats as they disappear into the fog

I try to reach them, I become lightweighed

I leave behind everything that I regard as part of myself

But I never get to them

They are too far away from me, it feels like they were never close

And I fall

As the man who's always falling

Maybe I'm also flying too close to the sun

When I ask for shelter

For tenderness

I watch the boats as they disappear into the fog

I stay on the shore

[minotauri]

“humanity is inherently selfish and bad” bbbrrrghuhjfkg. humanity is seeing a stranger’s grocery bag break open on the sidewalk and harvesting fruits and veggies from the branch-like cracks of the asphalt for them, just because you can. humanity is helping a lost child find their mother on a crowded beach, looking for the ladybug-patterned parasol with their hummingbird-small hand in yours. it’s an elder’s fingers wrapped around your arm as you help them up the stairs because the elevator is broken, and feeling like you’re doing exactly what you’re supposed to be doing, like this is what you would’ve been doing had you been alive centuries or even millennia ago. there will always be a heavily pregnant woman who will smile at you when you give up your seat, a nice blind man in the fruit aisle who will ask you to please pick the riper plantain for him, a tired cashier whose face will light up when you compliment their tattoo sleeve. humanity is connection

[solwritesfor]

Thank you, you being yourself is the universe singing, you loving yourself is my scars healing, the hope that the present is all we got.