my heart

"to see with eyes unclouded by hate" apocalypse member 27 he/them

[somebadlove]

My industrial grade heart

[somebadlove]

[somebadlove]

Wednesday

Almost August, my sisters birthday, the tail end of summer

[somebadlove]

I took the day off work, God it feels so good to be free

I peeped a Tuesday graffiti artist meet up where they do mockups

Older crowds 40s up then me, a teenager and a twenty something girl

Six total

I put some sketches of miffy the bunny

I'm thinking of bunny shapes and then a nice phrase or something, maybe a balloon too?

1or the other by the bunny

I like the minimal style of miffy

I'd tag that around town

I guess I really just want to take to a hobby in a way I can get good at sketching with a distinct style

Im prepping for me at 30 or 40 to start tattooing, I'd love to make that a fingerprint of mine. I think everything we touch we carry forever. You are changed by days and how you come to them

In that light I want to be great, and fuck being ready

I'ma do this shit burnt, scraped and troubled

I think given the whole Situation for life here

I'm tryna die with a story, with agape

With amor fati

With a love of fate

[somebadlove]

[kosmogrl]

we got august this week

[somebadlove]

[somebadlove]

meditate and do morning journals

[somebadlove]

"Bloody nose, empty pockets"

is a film set in a bar

I love love movies with one location

It's about people at the bar, who they are

And how they feel.

I go to this bar some Mondays, they've got mystery movie nights.

5$ dollar moscow mules a movie ticket

But I usually spend 20

I'm collecting spots in my city

I'm looking to be suprised or changed

[somebadlove]

Don't get me wrong, I love conservation, I wanna fight wild fires for a time.

It just sucks no matter where you go most jobs make anything soul sucking.

I really cherish every time it hasn't been that way and I appreciate being constantly in nature

It's been one of the only things keeping me sane

I feel like after this shift, I'll be trying to lean more on art and people.

It was nice to plant and walk among flowers

For what it's worth

[somebadlove]

1 more month and I'm freeeeeeeeee

My problem with work is it's giving community service

I really feel like i been ordered by a judge to do this crap

[somebadlove]

[somebadlove]

What grounds me the most is sitting by water

[somebadlove]

I struggle to remember anything

[ialwaysbelieve]

[somebadlove]

[jamm3rz]

does the fact i’m doomed by the narrative make you wanna kiss me

[somebadlove]

Seriously

Please

🥺

[soundofhate]

Im evil for being alive

[somebadlove]

[somebadlove]

But what to do?