Commitment Issues
I don't have issues committing to others. Ask me to make a promise to someone and I will almost surely always keep it. Like a dog, I like to please. Ask me to keep a promise to myself and I will almost surely always fail.
Promises I have broken with myself:
-keeping with this blog
-regular exercise
-writing more
-reading more
-not getting so drunk that I vomit on everyone around me and then feel like death for 8 hours straight the next day
I suck.
Why is it so easy for us to be lovely to others yet so shitty to ourselves? I think commitment and trust go hand in hand. It is easy for me to commit to others because I want to create that trust. I don't trust myself. And honestly, up until today, I didn't really care to. Today I want to make a promise, that will, perhaps, almost surely be broken, but I would like to try again. I want to make a promise to commit to myself. To trust myself enough to reach my goals.
Issue resolved.













