You can call me Azariel (that was my demon name), Elias, or The Watcher. Only close friends get to call me Jonah. Because of my eldritch kintype, I hate using names and pronouns, but these names will serve for the time being, as well as they/it/void pronouns.
My kin experience is spiritual - I believe I was my kintypes in different past lives, but in this life I am human in body and mind, just with a mixture of soul sources.
Feel free to message me about anything! Especially if you want to know more about my experiences - I love to be a resource for new members of the community!
More in depth descriptions of my ‘kins under the cut
Demonkin (Azariel)
I was nobody important, just a soldier, likely under Asteroth
My soul is very old - predates humanity and possibly the earth itself
I may or may not be abrahamic in origin - I’m still figuring this out
I’ve known about my demon kintype since I was 16 (late 2015)
Eldritchkin (The Watcher)
I was not very involved in human affairs
I had powers of nigh omniscience (which I obviously not longer possess in this form)
What of my soul that has incarnated into this human form is likely not all of my soul. I still exist outside of time and space in my original form
My original form is similar to a mass of writhing tentacles and eyes, but also incomprehensible
Fictionkin - Jonah Magnus (Elias)
My source is not canon to the podcast, but is relatively similar. You can use it as a good starting point for understanding this part of me.
The main difference is that the podcast does not mention my deep love for Jon / my Archivist
OC - Michael Harris (Michael)
What started as a self insert oc that I used for catharsis became a little too real lol
They are from a Magnus Archives AU in which the apocalypse never happened and everybody lived happily ever after (except Jonah who is dead)
Slaughter/Spiral avatar that accidentally merged with the Distortion - there’s way too much lore here and I can defo go into it if you want to know but I won’t put it here because I don’t want to clog my intro post
Extremely violent murder baby who loves their polycule partners very much uwu
I’m literally sitting at my desk vibrating with kin-related identity crisis. I feel so out of place. My body doesn’t fit. I need my doors, I need to distort. I’m tired of playing human!!
And I can’t even talk to anybody about it because nobody I know understands and I don’t want my therapist to think I’m crazy. I feel alone in this. I just want to go back to that life where I was surrounded by people who loved and understood me 💔
Send help I just read a single chapter of a fanfic about my source material for the first time in well over a year and now I’m on the brink of sobbing because of how much I miss my people
Had a realization the other day. The reason I’m insecure about my face and don’t like to relate to it has nothing to do with my face specifically and has everything to do with the fact that a face serves as a personal identifier- a concept which it has already been established that I despise. My face is fine. I just don’t like having one in the first place because it means people can recognize me as an individual. I crave to be generic and unidentifiable once more.
She likes when I have violent fantasies but she doesn’t know that those are almost exclusively the result of demon kinshifts so she’s asking if I’m ’in that mood’ and I don’t know how to tell her I can’t control it…
I’m feeling very disconnected from my given name right now and I can’t tell if it’s a gender thing or a kin thing because they kind of feel the same for me…
I’ve been thinking about Peter recently. He wasn’t my obsession, my god - not like Jon was - but he was a major part of my life for a long time. Sure, we had our spats, but he was my husband and I did care for him in my own way. I loved him as much as an aromantic person can love an avatar of the Forsaken. Our relationship was anything but stable or healthy, but it was comforting. It was nice to have someone to come home to sometimes. I miss him and I don’t give him enough credit for the impact he had on me.
-Jonah is scared every time. Not because of pain (and it is painful) or the murder but bc ripping out eyes from his skull is so fundamentally against his patron that his mind is screaming and trying to stop him, but he pushes through and eventually eye is content bc it can feed on his fear
-First week is awful ( new brain is not used to processing so much information, the body is different, he can feel his heart beat, breathing is a conscious effort, he can't recognize himself in the mirror, food tastes different, everything is either muffled or too much)
-He has to change entire wardrobe bc clothes don't fit any more
-Dreams are not his, the mind of the previous owner lingers for the few days or weeks sometimes he dreams about something from their life or hears their voice
-He spends awful amount of time choosing new body, and yet there are nights when he regrets it and feels like in a trap, claustrophobic almost like he is stuck and can't get out.
-Personality disorder (constant doubt about who is he really and how much of Jonah Magnus really stayed in him and how much of himself he lost)
-He will push new bodies into their limits to test them out (usually ends up frustrated that he has any limits )
