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[sometimeshappysleepy]

i am posing a challenge to myself that within 2 weeks i will be slightly less depressed and by the beginning of summer (june) i will be on my way to significantly improving my depression. so. i know that no one is actually reading this but alas. accountability.

and btw for anyone who does happen to read this to whom it might be applicable: i am not ignoring your messages. my messages tab shows that i have multiple messages but everytime i click on them or my inbox it is empty. i don't even know but the only things i ignore are my problems and responsibilities (though not by june!). i am not ignoring you. i have no life i can't ignore tumblr lmao.

[pukicho]

What keeps you motivated when the world gets you down?

When the world gets me down I sit there rotting like a dead tree

[sometimeshappysleepy]

the world got me down and i've yet to get back up

[whencartoonsruletheworld]

anyway i remember when the first inside out dropped, people were (rightfully) pointing out how it was a lil weird that the male emotions got fun cartoony non-human designs while the female emotions were just "human shape with hair" and i am so, so, so glad to see anxiety is here to fix that. look at her. she's a crechure. finally girls can just be Little Fucked-Up Things

[sometimeshappysleepy]

it's so interesting too, bc so much fanart genderbends her male like hm i wonder why

[guacoholic]

Your daily dose of yuri provided by yours truly

[sasaleleblemp]

DONE CUFFGV :OINU{OI{OVURXTWRCFVHBB:T&TU

I'm tired of doing this, but damn, I'm so glad of the result

[sometimeshappysleepy]

i manage to be spectacularly pathetic yet utterly banal

[honeypleasejustkillme]

RAHHHHHHHH

[sometimeshappysleepy]

the option guaranteed to continue misery, yet also guaranteed to not fuck things up even more.

my comfort zone

[wishiwasanyonelse]

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[wishiwasanyonelse]

I wish I was loved I wish I was loveable I wish I was a first option

[depressedanxietydeath]

I either feel invisible or like a burden to everyone.

[sometimeshappysleepy]

if a tree falls in a forest

i really have been going in circles for what feels like my whole life. everyone says the journey isn't linear, but at this point i almost wish it were. the only thing that gives me pause is that linear seems to imply endless, which is frankly horrifying at this point in my life.

but seriously it's like the older i get the more i regress. if coming of age is about independence and striking out on one's own, i have only been more keenly reminded of how nerve wracking and gut wrenching it is to feel alone. i say feel because i'm fortunate to not literally be completely alone in this world, but i have no one to talk to. to lean on. ironically i know in this one way i am definitely not alone.

people in abundance attract and people at rock bottom repel. how do you gain experience when no one will hire you with no experience. how do you become a contributing member of society when no one will invest in you. i know i am far from the worst off but i just. am so lonely. ain't shit. terrified all the time.

[classycookiexo]

[sometimeshappysleepy]

when you're a kid adults frame life as this thing you build and choose and come into but as an adult yourself you realize how small you really are. it's so much pressure yet so naive. i mourn the years i wasted under this pretense even as i knowingly continue to waste them as an adult.

idk maybe it's a western thing

[screenshotsofdespair]

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[sometimeshappysleepy]

there's nothing like living with an amoral, entirely self centered, chauvinistic asshole addict to remind you what a stupid fucking dumbass you are

[kosmogrl]

I've been worried ever since I was born