If you want to kill yourself, do not use us as your knife.
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To say Sirius found him at a low point would be an understatement– Hell, it’d be the understatement of the bloody year to say so. But right now, that wasn’t what Remus was thinking about. No, Remus was feeling so much more than that– Robbed, betrayed, relieved, furious, grateful–
Remus was a werewolf. He’d spent seven years of his life hiding that fact from everyone he came across, and only two of those years were while he was at Hogwarts– Because during his second year, his friends, the people he most wanted to hide this secret from, figured it out. They’d figured it out and were determined to stand by his side– Determined to not see him as the monster he knew he was.
Three years after, and his friends had gone so far as to become animagi, to make his transformations easier, more calm– But even though they knew his secret, even though they’d seen him as this creature, they’d never seen him at his worst.
At least, not until today.
“Don’t act like you understand–”
However, even as the young man spoke, his shoulders shook slightly, his voice wavering with the threat of emotions, of tears– No, no, this wasn’t the time to show weakness. Kicking the spindly chair away that he was in the process of standing on, Remus looked as it flew into the wall, breaking apart upon impact; fists clenched tightly as his side as he grit his teeth.
“You weren’t supposed to know– Know that I left early–” He’d tried, he’d tried so hard to get away without one of them noticing; slipped away in the middle of the night, traveled down to the Shack a day before his usual time– All it would take is one step, one step and he’d end it. One step, and he would no longer be a sense of shame to his parents– No longer be a danger to society, a burden on his friends– One step–
“Don’t you get it? I’m trying to help you–”
