@zayn @sophieturner DM: rlly? i.. i guess only the ppl going thru it are gonna rlly kno what it's like. that it isn't something you can just flick on and off like some light switch or just power thru it. it's fucking strangling. like ur drowning. and u leave 'cause u rlly fucking believe if you don't ur going to bring u, them, everyone fucking down with u. u leave to save them. and they leave to save themselves. fuck.. sorry didn't mean to get so fuckin' deep wit u tonight. i guess i'm sorry too. for u. for us. for them. 'cause if they want an easy way out.. they got it.. doesn't mean it's going to be a life worth having. nothing good comes easy. and well.. gigi moved on from him pretty fuckin' fast the first time around.. don't be surprised if he comes back beggin' soon. i'd say throw him to the curb when he does. u don't deserve that shit.
@sophieturner @zayn DM: nobody has really been able to explain it or better yet, understand it.. but yeah. exactly. it's overwhelming too specially when sometimes all you need is a break. it doesn't make us worse of a human either. no, its alright rly.. thank you for making me feel.. normal. it's been a long time. felt like an alien or something hahah. if you ever need to talk or have someone who can listen..who gets it, i don't mind. its hard finding people in this business who get it and don't fucking betray you. couldn't agree more. i always wondered.. we didn't talk much about the past but all i know is i lost a lot of respect for her. she crossed a lot of lines as did he.. you don't deserve it one bit either. hope you know that.. and if she comes back to you, it hurts and love is complicated.. we know it better than anyone, but we don't deserve to be seconds to anyone. just remember your worth.